It's strange how a few short seconds....
can lead you in a whole new direction....
It alters how you think and act....
and see your own reflection.
From a single moment on...
my life was forever changed...
Like everything I previously knew had suddenly been rearranged....
No one will ever understand just how I felt that day...
But deep within this poem I shall try to convey....
I cannot even begin to illustrate the repulsive person I once knew....
I intend to simply express the horror that I went through....
I was abruptly pinned against the wall of a hard...
rough concrete stairwell...
where not a soul was likely to dwell...
Suddenly I was captured no possible way to escape...
Wondering if I deserved it...
if it was truly my fate....
but my wings were broken....
My mind filled with confusion...
and his filled with lust....
He took another part of me with each and every thrust....
Standing there in the night...
so scared, so exposed....
I was covered by a veil of darkness...
The glowing moon looked down at me....
I could touch it... it seemed so close...
but it was really oh so far....
4 people stayed in the room that night...
The night was filled with horror and fright...
They challenged me to take my emotions away...
They did succeed, oh they really did...
The first one challenged to take my peace...
Came in took it and left me unleashed...
The second one challenged me to take away the love...
Frozen against it I let him carry on...
The third one challenged to take away my faith...
God can't help me so be it as it may...
Shattered through this I had nothing left...
Now, It was on me to complete the Slope...
The fourth one was me who killed my hope...
Sometimes late at night I simply can't fall sleep....
Thinking about how my innocence is no longer mine to keep....
What some can only imagine in their worst possible nightmare...
Is my gruesome reality that can't be undone nor repaired....
I may have the kindest heart...
but that came with a cost....
It has felt the worst of pains...
and experienced the greatest loss...
I cannot change the past...
an event to which I succumbed....
These dark days are necessary...
just as important as the rest...
For if we didn't have the worst...
we couldn't recognize the best...
When you meet the people...
Of your same crazy class...
People say you can't stay stuck...
Because there are things that matter much...
Much more than that one horrible night...
It can't take away the pleasures of the coming light...
It's stronger this time...
Ps-never lose hope... Even when you feel hopeless at times... It's the only thing that's completely yours...it's an owned emotion... And no one can it from you other than you...
And - I completely modified the actual version of this poem according to my experience.... It's been ages and I'm over it.... But it will always remain a sensitive subject to me... And I just hope you can forgive me for posting it... I apologize in advance...
But I really pray that no one should ever go through the suffering I once went through... I survived... Most of them won't... And I want the innocent souls to stay innocent forever....
