#lets get personal

[d3ad-ros3s]

Come suffer with the homies and I! You can watch here

[professional-klr]

[basura-coded]

"Hey, are you okay?"

Yeah, of course, I'm just feeling a lot like David when he was losing his mind, rn

[p0stmortem]

I'll be real, the past 48 hours have been the worst of my entire life

[thiccchick]

update

this might be a long post so feel free to scroll! this is more of a vent/update on what’s been going on with me.

howdy my friends. things have been tough lately, and after some deep reflection, i’ve decided to make some changes. these changes are still causing me a lot of grief. i’ve decided that i am going to lose weight and get back in shape. i came to this conclusion because the life i know i want to live is not one that i can have if i’m 200 lbs, at least at this point. but does this decision make me happy? no, not really. 

my relationship with my body has gone through so much. i love being fat. the transformation i’ve done to my body makes me so happy. i was never happy when i was skinny and i had a lot of self hatred. i want to stay fat and get fatter, fatter than i could have ever imagined. but i can’t. i know i can’t. my desire isn’t to be skinny, it’s to be comfortable and capable. and when i’m 200+ lbs, it’s just not something that is a possibility for me. my future career is going to rely a lot on my ability to perform physical labor, and i don’t want to be miserable doing that, ya know? i want to be able to live and travel comfortably. i want to not feel sick or tired all the time. there’s many reasons that have crossed my mind.

but right now, as i am in my beginning stages of losing weight, i am miserable. it sounds silly, but it feels like i am throwing away years of hard work. i’m so fat now! and i love it! and i want more of it! and after years of fattening myself up, now i just have to leave that behind? it sucks. the worst part is knowing that i will always have this desire to get fat again, and who knows if i will ever be able to give in to it again. that being said, i’ve thought about if i need to completely distance myself from the fetish, or if i can still allow myself to participate. to keep myself motivated and away from temptation, i’ve stayed off tumblr and other sites, including my OF. going forward, i don’t think i want to cut myself off, but rather limit myself. so i think i will still be making posts both here and on OF and doing some interaction.

if you’ve read all of this, thank you <3 thank you for being kind and patient with me

[fluffbyday-smutbynight]

Let's get personal: 23, 38, 81

hey hi :)

23: How do you vent your anger?

Lots of cursing is usually involved.

38: What’s the weather like right now?

Clear sky, nice and sunny, but quite chilly.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Mmh never thought about it. Maybe this (abridged) quote by Kurosawa: "If I hold fast, a path will open up."

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and here's the list: Let's Get Personal

[d3ad-ros3s]

One piece fans! I have been playing the tomodachi life demo and wanted to try making someone. Did this remind you of someone, or am I a low-key ass? did I cook? Tomodachi life is so fun. By the way! When I get my switch, 2 I have to buy it!! Sloppy edited snapchat version and gif included xD

[godzillachloe]

Hi 😊

Please answer 9, 20, 24, 61, 72, 99

Hope you’re having a wonderful day 💜💙

9) I dont think I have ever had a poem or a song written about me 🥺.

20). My greatest weakness is that I have Depression/social anxiety and sometimes that gets in the way and makes certain tasks hard and sometime makes connectingwith people in real life hard. My greatest strength would probably that I am pretty loyal to my friends. I have had the same core friend group for years and if you are ever my friend I will always be around if you need me.

24). I bought a few godzilla figures when Godzilla vs Kong came out a few months ago if that counts 😆

61) Yes I am wearing socks. I love colored socks 😍

72). If I were dying and I only had a month to live I dont think I would tell anyone until the last week. I wouldn't be scared. We are all going to go sometime. But I wouldn't want to make too big of deal about it. I would like to say goodbye. If I could I would like to do like they do in that movie here Awhile with Anna Camp. I would love to go with my family and friends to a house near the beach and just enjoy the last few days together.

99) If I could speak to the whole world right now I would probably just ask them all to be a little kinder to the people both in person and online. I think if people were nicer our society would be a much better place. But hey I'm a hopless romantic

Thanks @143bc for the ask and for being an amazing friend 💙💜