#letterfromthepast

[wanderinguncertainty]

28

I'm glad you made it today.

I know, life has been rough lately. I know, you're confused with what you wanna pursue. Lost in the path you wanna take and constantly beating up yourself to figure out everything at once. I understand you and what you're feeling is okay. That is valid. But hey, that's not how life works. You don't have to figure out everything now. Don't beat yourself too much, loosen up! It's okay to loosen up. It's okay to be dorky sometimes. Everything's gonna be okay and all will fall into their own places in time.

I know, some days are hard. It's not always rainbows and butterflies. But I hope when days are hard, you allow yourself to feel whatever it is your body asks you to feel. If you're sad, then so be it. If you wanna cry, then cry as much as you want. If you're frustrated, then scream till your lungs are out. Let yourself feel whatever you are feeling. Please, don't bottle up your feelings again and wait yourself to explode. I hope you'll be more honest with yourself this time. And let me remind you, it's okay to not be okay. Your feelings are always valid.

I know, you are afraid to fail and disappoint the people you love. But I hope you also understand that failure, rejection and disappointments are part of our lives. And that every failure and disappointments mean that you care, that you are trying, that you are growing, that you're out there in life willing to learn. You are a work in progress. You still have a long way to go. And I'm so proud of you for always trying and giving your best.

I know, sometimes you're tired of acting tough cause that's how they know you. That you are strong, insensitive, cold-blooded and heartless person. But, I hope you know that it's okay to be vulnerable. It's okay to let them see your soft side too, that you are not always strong and reliable. That you're sensitive and emotional. It's okay to breakdown and show them that you're just a human too. That you also have your shortcomings, that you also fall short in life, that you're also going through hard times. You don't have to hold back your tears anymore. Let it out, let them see how fragile you are, how exhausted you are. It's okay, you no longer have to hide in that strong facade you created a long time ago. You will still have me regardless. I still love you, okay?

I hope you'll learn how to live, not just survive. Live your life to the fullest. Live in the present, not in the past nor in the future. Free yourself from all the worries that has been bothering you. Free yourself from who thought you should be and from who society told you to be. You are your own person. Do everything at your own pace. No need to rush things. Celebrate your small wins and stop beating yourself up for the things you cannot achieve yet. And I hope, you won't let your worries take away your precious and genuine smile again. It's okay to prepare about the future but stop overthinking about it. Just live in the present. One step at a time, dear. You'll get the things that are really meant for you eventually. I'm always here to support you.

Lastly, thank you. Thank you for choosing to live. Thank you for always choosing to live despite of wanting to disappear from this world. For staying alive despite how hard life is. For always getting up despite how life knocked you down so many times. For showing up and braving the storms though you really wanna give up. Thank you for holding on and keeping your life. I hope and pray, that you will continue choosing to live no matter how hard the situation is, no matter how vicious life is.

The world is cruel yet beautiful. Keep going. Keep living. Keep fighting. You matter. You are enough. You are loved.

I'm so proud of you. Happy birthday.

Love, Your 8-year-old self.

[elliottgish]

A letter from Me to Me re: finishing Write More Gooder School! #thankspastelliott #letterfromthepast #lettertothefuture #writersstudio2020 #writersstudio #sfuwritersstudio #sfutws https://www.instagram.com/p/CCG56HgnQAX/?igshid=r8x1nv4epsy6

[mddbehindthemask]

You Win

August 19, 2012

4:53pm

I've been trying so hard to bring back that other side of you. The one that loved to listen to me talk. The one that played games with me in the elevator. The one who wanted to be my everything. The one who believed in me and made me want to soar. The one who made me feel like there wasn't anything I couldn't do.

I've tried so may different tactics. Ignoring you when you're being mean. Fighting back, toe-to-toe. Trying a balance between ignoring you and fighting back.

I've tried putting your needs before my own. Believing that if I could make you happy, you would want the same for me.

I've tried putting my needs away. I've tried to be a good wife to you, to be there for you when you needed me, and to make myself useful when you didn't.

Yet even though I thought you needed me, even when you told me you needed me... when the time came, you pushed me aside and it was as if I wasn't even there.

I've tried getting help. Several times, as a couple. But knowing you didn't want it, I sought out help for myself alone this last time.

They say you can't help who you love.

I thought I did everything right. I thought I made all the right choices. I thought you loved me.

Maybe you did, once. But I know this with all my heart and soul. You are not in love with me.

So... you win. I'll stop trying to bring the other you back. I thought he was hidden somewhere, beneath layers and layers of emotion and resolve. It just hit me that that's not right. He's just gone.

I want a husband who loves me. Is in love with me.

And feels an acts this way when there's no one around, and when there's everyone around.

Not just when the lights are out.

And while I may not be perfect, while I may have my own flaws, while even as I question my own self-worth...

I know that I don't deserve all this... disdain. Contempt. Disrespect. Inconsideration. Belittlement. Anger.

All this anger... at whom, I wonder?

Whenever I'm with you, around you, talking to you...

You. Tear. Me. Down.

And it takes all my strength, energy and prayers to build myself back up again.

You are like poison to me.

And I can't keep letting you take all the good stuff out of me, coz I need it for the kids. And for myself.

So... you win.

No mor having to "deal” with me or "spend time”with me or go to marriage counseling with me. We're past that. And besides, it's pointless.

Now, we just need to decide what to do next. I told you at Ralph's wedding that I would leave you someday, and not to be surprised.

The question is, how far?

Different rooms or different households. Because I know this:

I need to distance myself from you. And I can't pretend any longer, and especially not for 11 more years.

Like I tell the boys, this is your choice, not mine. I'm simply carrying out the consequences. 5:22pm

[iradatira]

Dear tomorrow,

This letter has written with dedication for you, from your past self.

Hai diriku, ketika membaca tulisan ini mungkin kau sedang di suatu fase belum melihat ujung puncak. Tidak mengapa, tetaplah berjalan! yakinlah akan keindahan mimpimu dan dampak ketika mewujudkannya. Maka segala penderitaan, kekesalan yang kamu rasakan akan sirna dengan sendirinya, berganti dengan semangat memperjuangkan impian.

Jika masih ada ketakutan dalam dirimu, tidak mengapa, kita ini manusia, tidak bisa sempurna. Kamu hanya perlu menyadari bahwa kamu memang takut, mengetahui alasannya dengan jelas, tapi jangan biarkan ketakutan itu menghambatmu untuk berkarya menembus batas. Kamu masih punya Allah, kamu akan selalu lebih besar dari masalah dan ketakutanmu. Bila kamu takut gagal, hei sadarlah kamu masih punya waktu! Habiskan jatah gagalmu saat ini, hingga membentuk skill yang mumpuni, bukankah hasil hanya soal waktu?.

Setiba di persimpangan jalan, jangan pernah membandingkan usahamu dengan usaha orang lain. Sebab sejak awal memang modal masing-masing dari kita berbeda. Latar belakang keluarga, kepribadian, lingkungan pertemanan, status sosial, semuanya memang berbeda.  Jangan mudah silau dengan cerita kesuksesan orang lain. Mesti kamu ingat dibalik kesuksesannya itu selalu ada pengorbanan, dan tidak ada yang instan! Berkompetisilah dengan sehat, jangan pernah ijinkan dirimu menyakiti orang lain hanya karena kamu ingin menang. Jalani saja setiap proses menggapai kemenangan dengan cara yang benar. Jika menang bersama lebih indah, lalu mengapa kamu harus menang sendirian, sementara yang lain berdarah?.

Jika kamu telah mendapati usahamu berbuah hasil, tetaplah berkarya dengan setulus hati, jangan mudah bungah. Impianmu tidak teruwujud dengan sendirinya. Memang benar kamu melewati proses yang panjang untuk meraihnya, barangkali berdarah-darah. Namun ingat selalu di saat kau tertatih dan hendak menyerah, ada orang-orang yang selalu menguatkan perjuanganmu, dengan doanya, dengan kebaikannya, dengan pengorbanannya yang menginspirasimu agar terus melangkah. Kesuksesanmu adalah ramuan campuran tidak hanya usahamu, juga campur tangan Tuhan dengan kehendakNya, yang kamu mungkin tidak akan pernah menduga bagaimana wujudnya.

Apabila tiba masanya kamu berada pada puncak impian, selamat! Kamu telah mengalahkan ketakutanmu dan menaklukkan segala rintangan yang menghadang. Saat berada di puncak, ingatlah kembali momen awal menulis impian, saat kau kelelahan dan hampir menyerah. Ingat tujuan awal mengapa kamu harus mewujudkan impianmu itu. Kebahagiaan ini bukan tentang kamu saja, tapi juga orang-orang disana, negerimu yang menunggu uluran tanganmu untuk membantu menyelesaikan masalahnya. Jangan pernah berhenti untuk peduli, tetaplah membumi dengan karya-karyamu, kau harus tetap belajar pada siapapun, kapanpun, dimanapun. Jangan membatasi darimana sumber datangnya ilmu dan pembelajaran kehidupan.  

Berterima kasihlah! Pada dirimu yang mau berjuang habis-habisan, karena telah percaya pada keindahan mimpimu. Pada rekan-rekan yang mengingatkanmu akan kebenaran ketika kau mulai ragu dengan tujuanmu. Pada kolegamu, tempat sandaran terakhir ketika lingkungan menolakmu. Kepada orang-orang besar yang kebulatan tekadnya memacumu untuk terus bergerak. Kepada orang-orang yang kau temui di tengah perjalanan, dengan cerita peluh lelahnya memperjuangkan kebaikan, menamparmu agar terus berbenah dan mengikuti jejaknya. Berterima kasihlah kepada manusia dengan membantunya melewati kesulitan, mengajaknya pada kebenaran. Berterimakasihlah pada Tuhan! Berkat kebaikan dan petunjukNya, kamu tetap berada pada jalan memperjuangkan impian. Jangan pernah mengkhianati nikmat yang Ia berikan kepadamu dengan berbuat kerusakan di muka bumi.

Tetaplah berpegang erat pada impian dan nilai-nilai kebenaran,  mereka akan terus menuntunmu pada cahaya terang dalam keadaan apapun.

[michael-xiii]

So cute ;) #royalmail #backtoussr #letterfromthepast https://www.instagram.com/p/BpUhlcsnxWN/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=w84r9em7bgur

[dalipavon]

Letter from the past #Spain #letterfromthepast #generalfranco #franquismo #dictator #learnfromthepast (at Catalonia, Spain)

[thanhphuong1]

21 gửi 17

17, thích ăn bánh tráng, ghét học vật lí, thích đi chơi và muốn đi làm sớm để kiếm tiền đi chơi. 30, lúc này bạn đã có được những gì, có đang hạnh phúc không. Đã cưới chồng chưa, người đó là ai vậy.

Rồi chúng ta cũng sẽ gặp nhau, thật sự tôi k mong đợi tí nào.

24.03.17

[koddrip]

#september11 #letterfromthepast ... ? !