Fifty-six
Syl,
Can I see you? I just need to see you. I just need this to get over with. I can’t stand it. I’ve been suffering for years now and I don’t see it getting better... I can’t lie, I am still hoping for you. No, it isn’t one of those days. It’s a constant feeling. It’s almost five years now. I think it’s time I deserve my closure. I always have this urge to leave you a text but I just don’t have the courage to face the truth that I am just someone you used to be with when you were young and you probably don’t remember me anymore. I probably don’t matter to you as much as you do to me. I am scared... I am scared of how much pain you’ll cause me. I don’t have the energy to go on anymore. I can’t do it, but I need to. I’m so scared..
Syl... Syl... Can you ask me that, instead? Can you ask me to meet you for a random meet up, instead of me doing it? Can we please just pretend we’re still the best of friends and pretend the years of hurt never happen? Can you please......