#life is..

[crypticsorcery7348543444]

[amerasdreams]

Tumblr, and social media in general, has a fantastic way of making people feel like crap about themselves. Form your own idea on things through insight and facts rather than basing your idea about yourself on the mindsets of other people.

Yes I've found this out (I also have a way of finding negative myself... I wasn't all happiness and light before tumrblr either, here I have an outlet. BUT people do sometimes attack me when I put things im feeling bad about so. I SHOULD learn my lesson. I shouldn't say anything on here i feel strongly about bc there is the possibility people will attack me)

I really do want to never base any thoughts on what other people think. It's hard for me, idk why. Because I hate them influencing me. I hate being dependent on them. I hate being dependent on anyone and want to rely on only myself. But for some reason i can't break free of wanting people to like me. Or of seeing their words as truth especially when it's negative, confirming the bad things i already think about myself

I should really not write any more on here... idk. I can't say my feelings anywhere else but maybe I shouldn't. I should just bottle things up like I used to

I really need to become better like now. Lol. Idk how that can happen when I don't have a good foundation of anything...

I'm also extremely susceptible to things when I'm tired. I got like 4 hours sleep last night and so I cant think straight. My judgment is impaired and so I won't make good decisions. I'll make them based on emotions even more bc I can't control what I feel very well when I'm so tired. So I shouldn't write on here or look at all then (being extra tired is probably why I probably don't make much sense now either) but that's exactly why I do it. Sigh.

[temhoraqueefoda]

[seldonmay]

And... we have to end it. :) Well in a good way naman. Naintindihan naman niya yung dahilan ko kung bakit kailangan tapusin. Syempre ano pang sense kung mag hohold back pa diba? kung pahihirapan niyo lang parehas sarili niyo, kung lolokohin niyo lang sarili niyo na okay kayo. Ayoko naman maging window display couple lang kami, yung tipong sa tagal niyo hindi niyo na kayang maghiwalay kasi nasanay na kayo kaya nagpapanggap nalang kayong masaya. 

Nakareceive ako ng letter from God. Naniniwala ako sa app na 'to sa facebook sobrang sakto kaya nya HAHAHAHA

Today, Seldon, we believe God wants you to know that ...

when events happen which seem catastrophic, it is not only possible, but very important for you to allow yourself to come to a place of calmness.

Panicking serves no one - not yourself, not the people who are suffering, and not the planet. Allow yourself to trust that there is a larger purpose and that it may not be necessary for you to know that purpose at this time. Allow yourself to have faith that ultimately, all will be well.

Diba? All will be well daw. Naniniwala naman akong magiging okay din lahat. Pero hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit merong isang bagay na bumabalik balik sakin kahit na matagal ko ng pinakawalan. Ito yung puno't dulo ng lahat ng nangyayari sakin ngayon. Yung sa ex. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang tagal tagal na pero andiyan pa rin. Ang sakit maisip ulit, parang cancer na bumalik. Kahit naiisip ko lang ang sakit. Sana hindi ko nalang siya nakita sh*t. 

Gusto kong lumayo, pumunta sa isang place kung san wala akong kilala. Kaya kanina nagtatanong ako kung paano pumunta sa mga lugar na hindi ko pa napupuntahan. Naisip ko pa ngang pumunta ng Enchanted Kingdom ng mag-isa eh, pero nyeta may maaalala lang din ako dun. Ano baaa ilang taon na nakalipas bakit hindi pa rin ako malakas? Umiiyak pa rin ako sa mga bagay na ilang taon ko ng pinakawalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. TAMA NA PLEASEEE :( 

[yourcatlickedmyshoes]

Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced. Soren Kierkegaard

[yourcatlickedmyshoes]

Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated. Confucius

[dramaticlemur]

I can hear someone taking a shit upstairs this is what happens when I stay up this late