No, this isn’t about my long distance boyfriend. This is dedicated to another special someone who I’ve been missing for what seems like eternity. That’s right David, I’m talking to you. We had JT’s surprise party yesterday and it was amazing to have everyone there but I couldn’t help but feel so alone. The loneliness wasn’t an obvious one, maybe it was more that I didn’t feel complete so it felt lonely. Having everyone around made me acknowledge the void from your absence again. Of course Jasmin too, but I’m still figuring out how to process her. I don’t talk about Jasmin because I’m not sure how to feel and now it’s opened up old wounds from when you left our lives. I hate that sometimes my life feels like it’s spinning out of control when I had only just learned to come to grips with living life without you. But here we are 3 years later and my heart is still broken. I didn’t think it was possible but I’m starting to think it’s even more broken now a days and that’s a thought I’m not willing to process. I tried so damn hard to keep from falling apart again because after you David, I wasn’t sure if I could do it again and here we are for round 2. I’m bitter, I’m sad and I’m broken and I fucking miss you, both of you.