#lifeissuch

[miraculousperson]

...Just going to submit my papa’s card ! It’s like performing his last rites all over! #iskcon #soultales #lifeissuch !!! ❤️❤️ (at Sri Sri Radha Rasabihari Temple, ISKCON Juhu, Mumbai (Official))

[fitlifestyle14]

Not entry, just an update/ramble.

      I’ve been doing well on my new healthy life style for a good 10 months now. I’m so proud of myself not only for losing 30 pounds, but for sticking to this lifestyle and constantly making necessary changes. It’s been a struggle trying to keep it realistic and not be so restrictive and only restrictive when it’s necessary due to my addictive personality. Each day I learn something new about myself. For example I’ve really missed candy and I had skittles for the first time last month since a year ago. I felt pretty guilty after eating them, even though I’ve worked on not beating myself up when I want a reasonably portion sized treat. I realized it wasn’t that I was afraid of the food messing up my diet, it was the sugar and how it made me feel gross. So I went to the health food store and found some “organic sour sugar licorice” I’m not sure the ingredient difference in these candies compares to regular candy and I’m aware that just because this candy is “organic” it’s not healthy and to be eaten all the time, however I noticed it didn’t give me a sugar rush and make me feel like crap 3 hours later. I think there’s certain ingredients or too much sugar that worsens my anxiety and depression. I’ve done little research on this, but I’ve heard what you eat can affect your disorder. I find this to be true as I feel more in control of my anxiety compared to a year ago. 

     I’m in the midst of making some more changes to what I’ve been eating. Every few months I begin to get bored of what I’m eating and I have to go on the hunt for new recipes, snacks and meals. This is probably the number one reason why I’ve been able to stick to this. Besides my consistent routine in exercising 3-4 times a week, I also change up constantly what I do at the gym. One thing I’ve realized is that I DESPISE workout videos. I live in a small home with not a lot of space which makes moving furniture around so I can workout inconvenient and also the fact that I don’t have someone there to help my form and etc. Having a personal trainer since last summer has helped a lot as well, not only in helping me during my workouts but also keeping me mentally motivated and telling me about some classes I should try out. I have yet to stick to a workout class (spin, kickboxing etc) I only did a kickboxing class once because I was a guest at my friends gym, but other than that I seem to like working out on my own and then along with my personal trainer better than being in a classroom. Maybe if I find myself slipping up, or really getting bored of my own workout routine at the gym, I’ll join a class. I have a hard time showing up on time, it’s a miracle I can even make my personal training, but that’s only because I get charged if I cancel at the last minute (which also motivates me to get my ass up and go in the morning hahaha). Sometimes I show up 5 min late to personal training which my trainer hates, but I don’t beat myself up over it because I’m just proud that I’ve bene sticking to this and going early mornings. A year ago I wouldn’t have even bothered. Just because I have a bad habit of being habitually late to EVERYTHING, doesn’t mean I’m going to let it stop me from doing things that better my life, even if it means getting yelled at and being given a harder workout as punishment haha. 

     Life is such! The world doesn’t stop moving, sometimes we make the same mistakes until we decide to change. I’m glad I decided to change my eating habits and life style habits. Maybe one day I’ll decide to be habitually early to everything instead of sleeping an extra 5 min or just fooling around or not wanting to be social and being late because of one of those 3 reasons haha I’m such a jerk! Oh well. 

[escape-from-mylife]

I have something very important to share with you guys here. The year 2016 has been one hell of a year up til now. Quite a lot of things have taken place this year which can be seen in a positive way. The beginning of the year wasn’t that great. I had no job; I was frustrated with the career choices I didn’t know to pick from and I was sad. I was a job hunt for 3 whole months, and I can surely tell you after a point you just get bored of giving interviews. But then something great happened to me. I got a call from a luggage brand and I got a Asst. Marketing Manager’s job at the company. I got a chance to travel to Hong Kong and China thanks to my job. ( I remember I had planned that no matter what I will travel on a plane to an international destination) When it happened I was super happy, not to forget I never in my dreams had thought I’ll visit China. The experience was so humbling and I felt grateful. No words for how my life treated me while I worked at the company. 

Unfortunately, this year I have something that I regret. I left that job because certain experiences while travelling alone scared me. I felt overwhelmed, I didn’t get any time to be home and meet my friends. I was travelling 2 times a month and for a person like me when it comes to travelling alone. It was quite painful. And so I quit. I found a mind numbing boring desk job which requires me to make stupid presentations and I quite frankly this is the least learning that I have been getting. I am regretting my decision. Nevertheless, what is one bright that is taking place is the news that I want to share with you all. 

I am applying for a PR for a country. My boyfriend is soon leaving for a study program in that country. I am hoping and praying that I get the PR soon. Unfortunately, I couldn’t apply for study visa because it is expensive. 

I just hope I get the PR sooner than I can think of right now. 

[shereens]

journey

while many are just at the start of their new beginnings some are half way through their endings.

there are some things that you imagine that will never happen to you but it does, and its hard to come to terms with it.

it has been quoted over and over again “when one door closes the other one opens..” or something like it, life goes on no matter how many bitter sweet memories you hold on dearly to, regardless of how it will end, it will end, and the only thing you have are memories.

i may not be making much sense right now, but i guess in due time, i'll let truth be told.

i texted a good friend of mine yesterday and said i needed to go shopping for some pair of balls, but it was sold out in toys r’us, metaphorically speaking, but today i grew some balls, and said what has been dangling and lingering in my mind. I did the inevitable.

[kittykat-eskape-blog]

Sleepy in the day, sleepless at night.

Me

[rocknroll4eva-blog]

BONUS!!!!!

and then came school fees.

The world is balance once again -_-

[kalabarbi-blog]

No, we should all respect women. Their bodies are sacred and should be respected. They must have everything covered.....until it's time to get FUCKED. Everything comes off.

JP