#lifelost

[drondskaath]

Lifelost | Punitive Damnation | 10th December, 2021

Spanish Black Metal

Artwork by Phlegeton

https://lifelost.bandcamp.com/album/punitive-damnation

[musicofglassandwords]

Forget.

Forget.

Forget.

Block it all out.

Memories can’t hurt you.

The powdery taste of melatonin

lingers on my tongue

long after I wake up.

Forget.

The past is no more.

I am inhaling the future before me. 

LIFELOST

(all photos are from unsplash)

TW: please pass this by if you may be triggered by the following: strong themes of depression, death, and trauma from a car crash.

Genre: contemporary fiction written in free verse

Themes: healing, depression, nostalgia, grief, friendship, young adult

POV: first person

Characters:

Jessie - A college freshman just trying to survive in the outside world. Suffers from depression and is incredibly private. Knots friendship bracelets as a coping method, loves to take walks and explore(trespass, shhhh). Despite her quiet demeanor, there’s a magnetic streak of rebelliousness in her.

Reya - Roommate to our MC, cheerful, loves people. Works a thousand odd jobs in order to cure her shopping addiction, and alternately loves or despises them. An overwhelming welcomed addition to every gathering.

Crow - A cynic who loves to philosophize. Tends towards the nihilistic. Much more observant than Jessie is comfortable with, and kind to the last degree. 

Danika - Studying design in her ideal school, she deals with anxiety that often blockades her from pursuing her dream. Jessie’s best girlfriend from home, they  video chat often to rant to each other and properly unload 

Alex - A sophomore in the same college, a boy who puzzles on the mysteries of the world. He’s known Jessie since she was thirteen, and between his study breaks(which are constant really), interrupts her during her solo coffee dates. 

Summary: Reclusive, quiet, the weight of reality sinking on her soul, Jessica Liao enters her freshman year of college with suitcases of sweatshirts and clouds in her head. Donning a mask of lies, she somehow survives through her first semester of school of life, without him. 

Depression has been eating into her soul for the last few years, and it’s only gotten worse. Because of it. Because of her. It’s a weary cycle of lonely nights, intrusive thoughts, and knots. Lots and lots of knots. Her only way of coping. Jessie has always found it hard to believe that she has a future. But despite the horrible burden set upon her shoulders, she’s still surviving, trudging through life, tugged along by a hidden thread of hope.

Cruel hope? Perhaps. As impossible as it is to believe, time can heal. There is no miracle all-cure for her grief, but day by day, she wakes to a new morning. A hole where he is that will never be filled, but she never wants it to be. 

Lady Luck is on her side, as her bubbly roommate and a cynical boy philosopher tap through the walls she throws up so easily, and between their kindness and her own determination.

Through the blood and the misery, she breaks through the dull haze, and finally finds out that the lie that she has believed so long about herself, that she is worth nothing, is false, false, false. 

She can take back the life she has lost. 

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Important info: if you want to be on the tag list, please know that I will not be posting constantly for this WIP, but I will be looking for beta readers in a few months. Many of the symptoms Jessie displays in this WIP are based off of my own personal experience, and the experiences of loved ones. PEOPLE EXPERIENCE MENTAL ILLNESS DIFFERENTLY

[bubblyneurotic-blog]

@lifelost  ♡ ‘d

❛   why   do   you   think   that   i   would   EVER   help   you  ?   ❜

[mcckingsa]

    ❝  great   .  .  .   just  great.   two  seconds  in,   and  there’s  already  a  tone.  ❞

          @lifelost.      /       sc.

[trinethramnews]

Life Lost : ఇసుక మాఫియా అక్రమాలకు బలైన నిండు ప్రాణం

Life Lost : ఇసుక మాఫియా అక్రమాలకు బలైన నిండు ప్రాణం

Life Lost : త్రినేత్రం న్యూస్ : అంబులెన్స్‌కు సైతం దారి ఇవ్వకుండా రహదారిపై అడ్డంగా నిలిపిన లారీలు... భుజంపై రోగిని మోసుకెళ్లిన కుటుంబ సభ్యుల

[themetalwanderlust]

Album Review: Punitive Damnation - Lifelost

Album Review: Punitive Damnation – Lifelost

In the press release for “Punitive Damnation,” the second LP from the project known as Lifelost, helmed by a man simply known as Phlegeton (Wormed), there is a rather detailed description of what the musician intends for his audience. It reads as follows: “It is a journey to another world, to a dark and chaotic cosmos,  where time, words and human hierarchies lack meaning,  where a…

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[officially-violet-blog]

Thank you facebook memories for the heartbreaking reminder! 💔 It's a scary thought.. It's crazy to think.. I would of been a mother.. They would of been 6 in August! But my body rejected the life growing within me. 💔 Life would of been so different.. Sometimes I'm happy the miscarriage happened.. Just because of the person I was with at the time.. The person you would of been calling 'dad'.. But it's heartbreaking.. Because I've missed out on so much.. I've missed out on the ups & downs of carrying you for 9 months.. I've missed out on creating memories with you.. I've missed out on watching you grow up!! You would of loved your uncles and your aunt.. Especially your aunt Mia-Lillie, she would of fussed over you soo much! 💙 I wish I got the chance to meet you.. But I know Great grandmother Violet and Nanny Rita would both look after you! I may not of got the chance to meet you.. But I love you, with all my heart! 💙 #miscarriage #lifelost #miscarriagematters #heartbroken #alwaysmybaby #alwaysinmyheart #iloveyou #facebookmemoriessuck https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs8k0nYAk8tj1O9TgyIvxgdIGyafXKnGHkx9LI0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ulcdclelejf8

[themetalwanderlust]

The Metal Wanderlust's Top Albums of 2018- Part IV

The Metal Wanderlust’s Top Albums of 2018- Part IV

Artificialbrian chooses his top picks for 2018. Indulge in this awesome list!

1. Sulphur Aeon – The Scythe Of Cosmic Chaos

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My suspicions have been confirmed – Sulphur Aeon are, in fact, great old ones themselves. The Scythe Of Cosmic Chaos deserves a place in history as one of the greatest…

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