#lifeshit

[paraphraze615]

I hate this shit. #BigHearts #PeopleWithBigHearts #BigHeartProblems #TakenForGranted #INeedThatSameEnergy #INeedHelp #SomebodyHelpMe #CanSomebodyHelpMe #EmpathProblems #EmpathLife #RNS #RealNiggaShit #RealShit #RealTalk #LifeShit #RealLifeShit https://www.instagram.com/p/CM2JTU0APgf/?igshid=ss1y99fud6hb

[jazthedad]

Can everyone just leave me the fuck alone before I explode

[victoriaphychedelic]

I haven't posted my face for a little bit 🤷 The shirt is one of my upcycles 🤘 #memyselfandi #makeup #looks #messy #longhairdontcare #creepykid #weirdo #lifeshit https://www.instagram.com/p/B9axX8NFT3B/?igshid=17iovuyhobw2i

[ladyspeechsankofa]

Good News: Venus is OUT of retrograde. October 5th-November 16. Bad News: Mercury is IN retrograde. November 16 - December 5th. May patience, self awareness, and self-care be with you. Prioritize your healing. -LadySpeech Surviving this back to back retrograde... Be slow to anger. Take. Your. Time. This is a time of deep reflection before taking action. Reconnect ... to self, to nature, to your spiritual source, to people and situations that enhance and uplift you. Reclaim lost and forgotten parts of yourself. Take on the challenges of this retrograde as lessons for personal improvement. Have much patience for everyone else and yourself. Stay the fuck out of public when you can. Lean LESS on man made technology. Take deep breaths often. Surrender... to the moment. Prioritize your healing, your self acceptance, your self love and your self care. Be gentle with and have compassion for yourself. I love you. -LadySpeech #LadySpeech #MotivationalCoach #SpiritualGangsta #SoldierOfLove #LadySpeechSankofa #WiseWords #Magic #Retrograde #VenusInRetrograde #MercuryInRetrograde #Message #reminders #Advice #SelfCare #SelfLove #Patience #SelfAwareness #Compassion #LifeShit #LifeSkills #ShitAuntieSpeechSays #AuntieSpeechSays #FavoriteAuntie #QuoteMe https://www.instagram.com/p/BqQnLKQhHfD/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1sw7uyg81lm6j

[genderfluid-druid]

yeah all right

I was tagged by @0xdefaced​

-Last drink: hard cider @ trivia night

-‎Last phone call: lol i don’t even know, i don’t usually talk on the phone

-Last text message: gaming group chat

-Last song you listened to: Rose Tattoo - Dropkick Murphys

-Last time you cried: okay i got choked up during The Last Jedi when i saw it last month so

-Dated someone twice: i’ve done a couple versions of this. apart from on-again off-again Bull Shit™, there was actually legit a person i dated during my semester abroad whom i later went on a few more dates with Stateside.

-Kissed someone and regretted it?: eh. i like kissing. it’s hard to regret even things that went to shit.

-Been cheated on?: preeetty damn close. not everyone in that situation agreed, but it was Too Close for me.

-Lost someone special?: not as in someone died, no

-Been depressed?: lmao

-Gotten drunk and thrown up?: only when i mix sugar and alcohol, and i’ve learned better

-Fave colours: bleu, blue, bleueue

In the last year have you…

-Made new friends?: yeah!

-Fallen out of love?: nah

-Laughed until you cried?: god probably during some of @redriyo​’s jackbox.tv nights

-Found out someone was talking about you?: don’t think so

-Met someone who changed you?: nah

-Found out who your friends are?: this is a very passive-aggressive question

-Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list?: apparently there was a night at a bar when i did? i think that was in the last year, anyway.

General

-How many of your facebook friends do you know irl?: the majority, but there are a few old hands from the m.a.i.l. forums that i’ve never met irl

-Do you have any pets?: no :( i just aggressively cuddle other people’s pets for now

-Do you want to change your name?: i’ve considered it.

-What did you do for your last birthday?: ate cake. also my housemates and i have this weird thing we do. it started because we needed a birthday candle one year, and i happened to have this super extra gothic candlestick with a blood-red candle left over from my 12-year-old Aesthetic days. so now we light that candle and sing to celebrate each housemate’s birthday, and that’s what we did for mine.

-What time did you wake up today?: 11 or 12

-What were you doing at midnight last night?: think i went to bed early, so i was probably reading.

-What is something you can’t wait for?: high-level D&D, if any of the campaigns i’m in ever go that long. (fingers crossed)

-What are you listening to right now?: -

-Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: i mean, yeah. probably. i don’t have a quirky answer for this random-ass question.

-Something that’s getting on your nerves?: probably about half a million dumb things.

-Most visited website: not that i should be surprised, but this one, of course. twitch is up there, too, surprisingly.

-Hair color: reddish-blonde

-Long or short hair: Have You Heard The Word Of Our Lord And Savior, Short Hair because i sure have.

-Do you have a crush on someone?: mmm, last time i had a crush was a few months ago i think, and i got over it in about two weeks.

-What do you like about yourself?: what’s that feel like?

-Want any piercings?: i’ve got about as many as i want right now

-Blood type: O neg. universal donor, my friend

-Nicknames: -

-Relationship status: pass

-Zodiac: libra

-Pronouns: 

surprise me

pretty much same. i use they/them to keep it simple. although in practice, what that actually means is: “they” makes me happy, “she” will probably make me correct you (if it’s clear that you just forgot), and “he” will make you my best friend forever. "ze/zir” or anything of that ilk gets you points for style.

-Fave tv shows: probably stranger things 

-Tattoos: never found one i liked well enough

-Right or left handed: right

-Ever had surgery?: wisdom teeth are technically surgery, but other than that, nah

-Piercings?: three in each earlobe, but i don’t wear earrings much anymore so at least one pair has closed up.

-Sport: listen,

-Vacation: i want to see mountains again, frodo

More general

-Eating: most recently, a handful of chocolate almonds

-Drinking: water

-I’m about to watch: the cat do something weird probably

-Waiting for: who knows, my friend. who knows.

-Want: to jump two, five, or ten years in the future, however long it takes to have a good set of medications for my brain shit. however, would also accept amazing biceps.

-Get married: listen, i love the idea of a soul mate but, listen, it’s not going to happen

-Career: professionally stressed out

Which is better

-Hugs or kisses: they’re both good, but honestly, hugs.

-Lips or eyes: this is not a hard-and-fast rule, but generally, as long as you have a reasonable amount of each, i don’t care.

-Shorter or taller: have had good experiences with both.

-Older or younger: just not too far in either direction

-Nice arms or stomach: buff arms are a+. soft, cuddly stomach is a+++.

-Hookup or relationship: i’m good on relationships for a while, and hookups aren’t really in my wheelhouse, so.

-Troublemaker or hesitant: look if i were to date someone hesitant nothing would ever get done.

Have you ever

-Kissed a stranger: i don’t... not a complete stranger, no, i don’t think so.

-Drank hard liquor: it gets the job done yo

-Lost glasses: the one pair i have ever owned, i don’t know where they are, so.

-Turned someone down: multiple someones

-Sex on first date: listen,,,

-Broken someones heart: a couple, i think

-Had your heart broken: yeah but it was my own damn fault so

-Been arrested: no

-Cried when someone died: no

-Fallen for a friend: once or twice

Do you believe in

-Yourself: nah they a bitch

-Miracles: statistically, yes

-Love at first sight: again, statistically, yes

-Santa Claus: my parents didn’t even do the santa claus thing when i was a kid. we had st. nick instead. i did believe in him for a little while.

-Kiss on a first date: i mean hell yeah

-Angels: nah, but there are some good people in the world who come close

Other

-Best friend’s name: probably @donaldry​ since we’ve been close friends for the longest of the people i’m close with right now.

-‎Eye color: greyish green

-Favorite movie: idk what day of the month is it

-Fave actor: same as above. carrie fisher? yeah, all right, carrie fisher.

i’m too stressed out by the idea of tagging people to tag people, so if you’re reading this consider yourself tagged.

[tumblindownahill]

Life rant

Alright, I basically don't use this website anymore, but I can't sleep, and need to just shout into the void of the internet, so here I go.

I'm so damn sick and tired of everything, holy shit. Every day is the same damn thing. Wake up. Go to work. Come home. Eat. Sleep. I barely know anyone who lives here in Maine so for the past 8 months all my interaction with friends has basically been skype other than the 4ish times I got to actually physically visit them. I'm depressed as hell because, guess what, a ton of my friends are graduating college and going to move on to actual careers, and here I am, still two years left not even enrolled in school, and most likely not going to be for at least another year. Fuck, man.

Which brings me to the fact that I'm moving in like a week and a half. Honestly, everyone keeps asking me why I'm moving why I'm moving why I'm moving and FUCK the problem is the actual answer is so god damn stupid I just don't tell anyone. Honestly, I was happy living in Florida before. Good friends. Solid job. Decent environment. I generally preferred life at Towson but, Florida was fine too. But honestly, just as much as I'm moving down to Florida for all of those things again, just as much I'm moving to Florida because I need somewhere to call home. Maine is just...my parents house. I never really ever "lived" here. Since they moved when I went to college it's always just been the place I've gone on breaks, and even after living here for 8 months I still feel like a fucking dumb squatter.

Honestly it's just shitty. I feel like I'm being forcibly separated from some of my closest friends due to circumstance, and like I never got closure on so many fucking things. My life feels like it's a TV show that was planned for 8 seasons and was just cancelled after season 6, leaving so many open ended questions. Now the show runners have decided to focus on a spin off instead.

If you read this whole rant, honestly, bless you, and sorry for all these bad vibes, buts it's 4 am and sleep isn't something I'm gonna gain tonight.

I just hope things get better soon. I really do.

[fuckdrug-deadhead]

Fuck this things.

[ladydisofdurin]

i love my doggo so much