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It begins again

#💟#Doodles #Guess what time it iiiisssss ♥#Not quite time for my Vargasversary - also I'm so saaad I missed this year's actual Vargasversary wehh #I only have like one more meme since last year's and one Picrew but still! Hweh #Definitely gonna be celebrating my own Vargasversary tho lol - coming up soon! But not there yet :3c #No no ♪ Something else first ♫#It's fiiinnaaallllyyyyy time to reread <3 <3 I'm so excited about it hehehehe <3 #I mentioned for my last Vargasversary that smol was turning the age I was when I first read Vargas - that has happened!#It's been nearly a year I'd hope so haha but! We still haven't read - so I set the deadline for my own Vargas month hehe #I don't begrudge the extra time - more time for me to recharge and more time for her to learn and grow!#Just because she's and adult doesn't mean she's not still a young adult haha #But I really do think she's in a good place to read it ♪ And I hope she'll enjoy it! I know I will >:3c #I've made myself a supplementary resource for reading along with this time hehe #Smol's slower to read than I am so I'm gonna want for reading while waiting!#Luckily there happen to be some sidefics published in time within the space between chapters ♫ Lucky me hehe #I think some are still in question - differing publish dates on AO3 vs. IGTKY or not labelled at all #I've done my best to properly date them tho! It'll be especially interesting to see which writing quirks fade in and out of time hehe #I'm a much deeper read scholar of the Zarlaverse by this point hehehe ✨#Can't wait to apply everything I've learned! :D To get to bring this new iteration of me to something I've loved so long ahh <3 #Truly the infatuation never left <3 <3 It was sleeping all this while and while I'm not going to Expect anything of it.... Hehehe.......#I am Deeply looking forward to a rereading ♥ I've missed them so <3 #And!! As featured in the readmore via potato-quality camera lol - my poor iPod it's the same iPod from the last time I read #Poor thing's too old to upload over wifi even and my cord is too broken lol I'll see if I can pull over any pictures another time #Sooooo super jank webcam picture of my beautiful new pin ❤️💕💖💞💗#Ahhh <3 <3 A first run wearable merch <3 <3 Wonderful <3 <3 #I was completely camping the site which was maybe unnecessary but /I/ needed to you understand lol #I love wearing them on my wrist ♥ Like a horribly dysfunctional watch they don't even tell me the time! It's Vargas time that's what matters #Like I don't already know it's Vargas Loving Hours ♥#Huahh <3 <3 Time again! Hooray! Yippee! <3

It's done! Yeah, the frame's not square, it's stretched weird, and I wasn't able to do all the bits and bobs that I wanted, but I'm proud of it. It looks cool. It got 2nd in counted cross stitch at my county fair (out of five, so I'll take it).

I used some of the satin floss to get the shiny parts on Soundwave, since I have a shiny version. I dunno if this is an appropriate use for it, but there it is in it all it's hard to use glory. Between it and the glow-in-the-dark, I'm not sure what was worse to work with.

I wanted to add all their names in the glow-in-the-dark, but it just wasn't looking good, so I nixed it for the cassettes this time around - I'm thinking if I do it on the 14-ct aida like I'd planned it might have turned out easier to read, but that floss is just a bitch to work with anyway. So, just Soundwave gets it this time around. I thought it was a cool idea, since they're robots in disguise and the floss blended in well to the fabric from afar.

I spaced the letters out the way because I couldn't get it to be even, but I figured a longitudinal wave would be a good way to go about it. Because sound.

Picking which cassettes to put in, since there just wasn't room for more and still look good, was a little difficult. I got the most common ones on there, but wasn't sure for the last two... I went with Garboil and Howlback, since that's what was listed in the RPG book, though I toyed with Flipsides and Enemy. If I get around to selling the pattern, I'll probably add a couple extras for people to customize it a little to what they like the most.

Colors were picked based on the toys I had on hand and looking for pictures of them on the internet. I looked at the sides to get an idea of what pattern to use for each cassette.

(I've been informed this is a Rumble is Blue household, but I'll leave it to you to decide who's who)

I'm not sold on using "80s HITS" on there, but it fit and I'm not a great designer. The coloring came from the toy box logo, at least the best I could get out of it.

Finally, here's my back and before backstitching images. The back's not pretty, but it could be worse.

This project was the first time I used fractional stitches, fractional backstitching, 22-ct hardanger, actual gridding, satin floss... I learned a lot working on this.

I'm pretty sure both the fabric (from some random stuff I had around) and the frame (from my grandmother's basement) are older than me, so it kinda fit into the vibe. I've more than doubled my DMC floss selection from this.

Oh, it's also on my WIP Soundwave wall now too. Not too full, but once I find my few other toys (mostly a couple cassettes) and buy frames for the Skybound comic issues I've collected, I'll have more up. I'm hoping to get more pins, though.

#counted cross stitch #cross stitch #transformers #soundwave #soundwave transformers #g1 soundwave #embroidery #transformers soundwave #transformers g1 #g1 transformers #tf soundwave #soundwave and his cassettes #I feel like I had more to say. I put A LOT of thought into this #I just kinda woke up one day and was like “wouldn't this be cool”#overall it took me maybe a month to plan enough to start stitching and roughly two months to get it all finished #it was like the only thing i could focus on #and work was slow so I did a lot at work #I brought these guys into Michaels to pick floss colors #people stared at me #like excuse me for trying to get some accurate colors #i'm just so proud of this #honestly the sudden hyperfixation has kinda just taken my life by storm #like Soundwave has always been my favorite but I haven't bought a toy in years #mostly because I can't ever find him but I got the LEGO set recently #but I dunno what happened i've really been into transformers suddenly #i'm sure it'll pass as all things do but i'll enjoy the ride while i can #i hope other people like this too #i'll take mild criticism/feedback since I'm still learning on most aspects of counted cross stitch #my art #my soundwave wall

in an ironic way this write-in makes me like the battle van more after calling it a 'family-sized mini-van'..

(The Punisher War Journal (1988) #29: 'Crash and Burn')

#snap chats #like shiiiitt when you put it like that......#double irony is that frank drives exclusively on his bike in this issue... lol..#you let him keep the goddamn mom van ok its all he has left. he DOES trash it every week but its all he has left #wym you cant appreciate the poetry of turning a family van into a mobile armory considering frank's story. whatever dude.#ive been slacking on reading but i cant wait to finish the war journal series #not that i havent been enjoying it so far ofc !!!! but i miss my xmen...#i thought of going back and forth but since this 80 issue series compared to like. 700+ of UXM.. ill just shotgun this out.. first..#anyways hi everyone. ive been huffing contact cement for the past like five hours #helmet's around the bend of being done ! here's to hoping i dont royally fuck this up #im just about done with the actual. Sculpture of it- then i just have to refine it and prime/paint it #and ofc work on the visor: probably gonna put it on last after painting but we'll see what happens #all i know is that i cant wait to have this finished 1.) so i can stop worrying about it 2.) so my room can stop smelling like glue #i have the window open and have the fan going but YEESH dawg... i used to use my sis's room as a workshop #but since she visited i havent moved everything back... Surely How Much Longer Could It Take To Finish the fool pondered #whatever i got twosome days to wrap this up- again i should have it done on time but sitll. very scary.. esp if i make any mistakes #but im sure it'll be fine. it looks cute as it is now so im optimistic #moving on !! the latest glue i laid down should be just about ready so ima do that #then see if i wanna modify anything else before officially saying the Sculpting Part is done #if the finished product looks good ill post pics but if not you're all legally required to forget i ever mentioned a helmet ever #bye bye.... i want cajun fries.. ngl.... whatever maybe ill grab some in the morn..

Read "Infinity welcomes careful drivers" and "Better than life". And I don't regret it for a second, it was a worthwhile experience.

But. Who on Earth recommends them as comedy books. They do have some funny and even hilarious moments, but overall it's such an upsetting read. Genuinely.

Like sure, it's absurdist and some weird/dumb shit happens and there's some quirky narration, but evidently my brain is very good at suspension of disbelief, so those bits don't really give a tonal whiplash, and it has the full ability to focus on the parts where the main characters are going through some kind of torture carousel of horrors and have horrible things happening to them constantly.

And I heard the next books are even worse in that regard, especially Last Human. I'm still gonna read them, probably, but maybe like a few months down the line, I don't think I would be able to handle them right now.

Maybe I should have listened to the audiobooks, maybe hearing human voice would have offset some psychological damage.

#infinity welcomes careful drivers #better than life #red dwarf #I'm kind of embarrassed that they got me so bad lol #if I'm honest #I'm sure when I reread them in five years time I would be wondering why that happened & find them absolutely hilarious #but rn this is the most genuine reaction that I have #I mean I *could* try reading Last Human rn. Maybe it'll actually make me throw up. That'll at least create an anecdote I can tell people #EDIT: I hope it's obvious that even though the books had upset me I don't think it makes them bad. Can't even say I didn't like them #I just happened to have experienced an emotion

finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh

#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh #AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game #(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random #townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can #browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around #and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.)#Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!''#haha........................hee hee........................................hoho #Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly #i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing'#...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol #I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T #Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things #But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense #That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length #text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres #visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol #Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered #boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world #and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY #more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL #Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool #idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough..#I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh #the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff.#Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope #''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months #learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have #a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that #and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY

post-t3 stuff announcement post! (i guess)

HIIIIII so we're done with the main part of trial 3. yay yay. all verdicts are here and now we can move on to post-t3 voice dramas.

i just wanted to explain how exactly the trial will end and what post-t3 things to expect.

there's gonna be a lot of stuff so i hope it's not too confusing...

(no exact dates bc i'd rather not make promises that i can't keep ^^'' im finally done with all the vds tho!!)

so here's the post-t3 vds list! honestly there's so much i think this can be counted as linagram season 4 😭😭

[ Post-T3 Voice Drama #01 ] Came For The Reward, Stayed For The Punishment

a first voice drama about a conversation between a certain guard and a certain prisoner. pretty short compared to. the rest of the vds, but still kinda important.

2. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #02 ] The Recollection of Everyone's Sins (Part 1)

discussing the first five prisoners' crimes (akio, aimi, shun, naomi, kei) and what is going to happen to them.

3. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #02 ] The Recollection of Everyone's Sins (Part 2)

discussing the other five prisoners' crimes (eiko, asahi, yurika, riku, reina) and what is going to happen to them.

4. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #03 ] The Judge Becomes The Judged (Part 1)

the guards' trial. yikes.

5. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #03 ] The Judge Becomes The Judged (Part 2)

discussing the guards' crimes before coming to milgram. YIKES.

6. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #04 ] No Justice In This Place

punishments. we're really doing this.

7. [ Post-T3 Voice Drama #05 ] Accept This Punishment Called Life

the very last vd. kind of a short one but it's. very emotional. at least to me.

andddd that's it! i really meant it when i've said there's going to be. a lot of stuff

tysm for your support guys and hopefully the ending will not be disappointing (or too dark haha) shjdjsksk!!

#remember that poll i made and how i was like “uhhh maybe there'll be two or three vds idk”. yeah. HITS YOU WITH SEVEN VDS.#the characters just talk a lot. and i literally made it impossible for the prisoners to talk in some vds (makes sense in context). so yeah.#iiiiif anyone's curious. we're going to have two deaths and one very bad breakdown (or two. kinda but the second one has a happy ending?..)#and that's about what's going to happen IN milgram. as for what will happen outside.... yeah #im not sure what im going to do with everyone's outside world adventures maybe it'll be a series of vds #or someone can just send me an ask and i'll take it as an excuse to ramble SHDJSKKS #also I REALLY HOPE THE VD TITLES AREN'T CONFUSING.#i could give them all different titles but some vds really are connected so...#📱linagram timeline 📱

im bracing myself for it but I'm gonna be so sad if any of the IT's VAs get recast for p4r.

like I need Erin Fitzgerald as Chie. and Yuri Lowenthal as Yosuke. and Johnny Yong Bosch as Yu and Adachi. and so on.

I understand why SEES got a whole new cast. There was controversy, and a couple of members had already been recast a few times anyway, so a fresh cast made sense.

I feel like the ITs voices are too. iconic? at this point though? and I'm fairly certain all of them are still very active in voice acting too. so I'd hope that at least some of them would be able to come back.

What gives me hope is that Tara Platt got to come back as Elizabeth. and now that he's not voicing Makoto and Ryoji, Yuri's Yosuke will sound more distinct.

I know it's been over 15 years, and that some of them are very likely going to be recast, but I'd still prefer and love for the cast to get the chance to come back if they'd like to :3

#it's my fear with the remake.#I get very attached to voices. so if any of them change it'll feel really weird #I imagine it'll be the same for a lot of people though #I also now understand some of the people who were upset about the new sees cast too. like I get it.#that said the new sees cast are amazing. and I'm sure if anyone gets recast here they'll do brilliantly too #it's just I'd prefer to keep the voices we know and love yknow #my other fear with the remake is that nothing will change in terms of the camping sequence and #new fans are gonna hate Yosuke #would appreciate the implementation of the Yosuke romance route but it probably won't happen #still we can dream #other hope is that they bring back the fog overlay in dungeons from the original that they took out in golden #maybe make it a toggle setting so people who don't like it can turn it off and people who like it can keep it on #though as I'm talking about voice acting here - union vas for games are still on strike!! support them if you can!! :3

cries softly I'M JUST READY TO OPEN THE ASKBOX DANGIT

not that I don't enjoy/not looking forward to what I have left... but I wish it was already done so I have new things to write!! or at least imagine writing lol

sometimes I have things sitting on my list for so long that the more I look at it, I'm imagining it more, and then it gets. idk. kinda like the equivalent of my brain chewing a piece of gum for a long time till it can't taste flavor anymore??

my brain is like "well I've already thought about it for a while, now you wanna actually write it down??? lol no" BRAIN WHY

does that make sense or am I just nuts XD

#mod post #*shakes my fist at the heavens* LET ME WRITE/RECORD AND BE EXCITED ABOUT SHIT AGAIN #I love everything I'm doing so let me just reiterate that I LOVE IT #but I will definitely say... it happens every single time #that the last 20-30 requests left make me STRUGGLE to get thru em #even if I'm really looking forward to doing them #my brain just wants to be done and have new stimulation XD #but hey I've got 7 things in the queue and 27 left so we're getting there!!!#I'm so excited to open the askbox again I CAN TASTE THOSE DELICIOUS NEW REQUESTS #if all goes well I'll be able to open things up in like 2 weeks maybe 2 and a half #it's a lil ambitious but I think I can do it #NaNo will prolly be started by the time I get the askbox open but that's ok! I was hoping to open it before NaNo started but it's all good #I'm still super excited #GET Y'ALL REQUESTS READY IT'LL BE HAPPENING /SOON/