“just tell me something, was it really worth it?”
@limbvice —— BRIAN MOSER / SENTENCE MEME.
he’s still not sure. there are too many factors to take into consideration, and like they say, hindsight is 20/20. had he known before what he knows now, would he still have killed his brother? he couldn’t have known that doakes would begin very unprofessionally tailing him every night, causing him to stall in his true work; he couldn’t have known that taking his brother’s life would make it so difficult for him too take someone else’s; he couldn’t have known that he would begin to see his brother somewhere between the frustration and guilt he’s been feeling to cope with what he’d done. he ought to have at least known that it wouldn’t be something he could simply work through on his own and, with no one to talk to about it, he can’t be surprised that his mind is conjuring up brian’s image to help him through it. still, he can’t say he’s thrilled about it.
“you were going to kill deb.” a pause. “you wanted me to kill deb.” either way, he couldn’t have let it happen. he says that he doesn’t have feelings, but there’s some tinge of emotion in his soul when he thinks about something truly bad happening to deb. hurting her isn’t an option. that’s his sister, foster or not. maybe harry hadn’t been the man that he seemed to be, but dexter has no doubts about what kind of person deb is. maybe she can never see him for who he truly is, but there’s still a part of him that feels strongly enough for her that her life took precedence over his own peace.
“i couldn’t let that happen.” still no answer as to whether or not it was worth it. he couldn’t give brian one if he tried. not yet.
