#lion journal

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All sexualities include trans people. Not "can include", not "sometimes includes". All sexualities include trans people. Because you know what? Trans men are men and trans women are women and nonbinary people are nonbinary. There is not "attracted to men and trans men" because that's just "attracted to men".

Fucking fight me.

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So speaking as a trans man who has experienced both boobs and flat chest, I gotta say the chest does not get as cold without boobs. This is why cis men are like this!

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I feel like im in trouble and gonna die or lose my job or something but also I feel completely justified in making that decision and doing that thing without direct permission from my boss and also if it is a problem (which I don't even know yet if it's a problem or not) it probably won't be a huge deal.

On the other hand my boss might be completely bonkers and so idk this could be the ficking end for me. In which case I'd be enormously angry.

So here I am experiencing all of those emotions at once even tho I don't even know yet if they're mad.

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still awake (derogatory)

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Well today I had my accessibility needs summarized into "everyone does that you're not special also you're a freak"

More on this later if I feel like it.

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I am not "A System" I am a person with DID. I am not "A Host with Alters" I am a person with DID. Im just a person with DID.

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I'm having a constant tug of war between my lives inside of me I am not grounded in reality and its terrifying I've been winging it too long I know nothing

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Tumblr wants me to be a trans woman it is giving me hormone therapy ads which is all fine and dandy but I'm not going back to womanhood so tumblr youre wasting your efforts honey