Summary: During a game the team notice that Y/n is getting targeted by the opposition, Y/n goes for a header and an opponent puts in a later tackle on her, causing her to go down, and after a while the team notice Y/n is not getting back up
Word count: 4.4k
Warnings: I'm pretty sure there aren't any.
A/n: Based on a request. Lucy is 29 and Wieke Kaptein is 17 in this, everyone else is the same age as they are in real life, hope you enjoy :)
"Ready to make your debut today kiddo?" Lucy comes over as you're all leaving the canteen to go to the bus after breakfast.
"I don't know if that will happen, I'm still just shocked that I'm here to be honest with you," you respond.
"You need to believe in yourself more Y/n, you are amazing, and you’re only 17,” Lucy says, trying to reassure the younger athlete.
"Thanks Luce,"
"Of course, now come on, you're sitting with me and Lauren right?' Lucy asks.
"Yeah okay," Y/n replies, pushing her glasses back up her nose as they get on the bus.
"Bronze and mini Bronze, finally, what took you so long," Lauren said as Y/n and Lucy sat down at the back of the bus.
Mini Bronze was the nickname that most of girls had started calling Y/n, she didn't know who started it, but it made sense, Lucy was extremely protective of her younger sister. Despite the large age gap between the bronze sisters, Lucy being twelve years older , she had always been close with Y/n. Many people thought that Y/n would have been closer with her other sister, Sophie, where there was a small age difference. However, the love of football always seemed to bring the two close together and helped to form the bond that is present between the Bronze siblings now. Y/n also looked exactly like Lucy, just smaller, from the freckles across her whole face to the fact that the siblings wore almost identical glasses.
Y/n had always looked up to her older sister, and even though was she was very little Lucy often wasn't around, being very busy with her football career, which is why Lucy was even happier for Y/n when her sister called her to tell her that she was joining Chelsea at the start of the season, the only reason the Bonze parents agreed to letting their youngest daughter move away from Manchester being because Lucy would be there.
*flashback to a few months ago when Y/n got the news that Chelsea wanted her*
"Please let me go mum, Luce will be there, and that is a great opportunity, they want me to play with the first team, regularly, not just training with them every now and then like I do at city," Y/n pleads.
"Fine, but only if you move in with Lucy and if you promise to carry on with schoolwork," Diane responds.
"Thank you thank you mum," Y/n says, jumping up to hug her mum, " I'm going to call Lucy and tell her now," She continues as she runs upstairs to go and call her older sister.
"Hi Y/n/n, what's up? Hempo still teasing you in training?" Lucy jokes, answering after only two rings.
"No, well yes but that's not why I am calling," Y/n rushes out.
"Woah slow down kiddo, what's happening?" Lucy laughs.
"So basically, I had a meeting yesterday, and I might be leaving City,"
"Wow okay, not what I was expecting, where are you going, I'm assuming united because anywhere else is too far away," Lucy replies.
"So basically Chelsea want me, like want me for the first team, and mum has said I can come if I can stay with you and if I make sure to keep up with schoolwork," Y/n blurts out.
"Wow that is amazing, I'm so proud of you Y/n/n," Lucy says.
"So can I come and stay with you?" Y/n asks.
"Of course you can, I would never say no to that, when do you need to come?" Lucy responds.
"I sign my contract on Thursday,"
"Wow, that's very short notice isn't it?" Lucy says.
"Yeah sorry, I only found out myself yesterday," Y/n explains.
"It's okay, I'll see you on Thursday, tell mum, dad and Sophie I said hi,"
*back to present day*
"Oh Y/n I forgot to say earlier on, mum called," Lucy says.
"Everything okay?" Y/n asks.
"Yeah yeah everything is good, she just wanted to say good luck but apparently you didn't answer,"
"Uhh yeah I kinda forgot to charge my phone overnight so it died, I haven't had a chance to charge it until now," Y/n confesses.
"You really are silly sometimes," Lauren comments.
"I fell asleep before I remembered last night, I didn't mean to,"
The two older women just laugh at Y/n and then they all start playing Uno, something which has become kind of a ritual on the coach before games at Chelsea, with the addition of Wieke, and now it also happened before England games. Y/n had never been someone who liked to be left alone before matches, or any time really, always getting too much in her own head which often affected her performances.
"Y/n you have lost every game, you missing your girlfriend too much?" Lauren teases.
"Lauren she is not my girlfriend, I don't know how many times I have to tell you," Y/n protests.
The truth is, she was Y/n's girlfriend, but no one knew that yet, they had only been together for just over a month and neither wanted to ruin anything and so they both agreed to keep it quiet for now. However, Wieke was a very affectionate person and was finding it quite hard to keep her hands to herself at training and when the others were around, which led to the teasing that mainly came from Lauren and Lucy.
After that the three athletes go back to playing their game, Y/n's phone charging off to the side, until it starts to buzz a few times, causing Y/n to stop playing and check who was messaging her and replying to them, luckily Lucy and Lauren were both too engrossed in the game to notice the smirk that Y/n had when she was opening and replying to the messages.
"Who's got you smiling at your phone like that?" Lucy asks, her protective instincts kicking in for her baby sister.
"No one," Y/n answers defensively.
“It was definitely Wieke,” Lauren jokes.
“It was actually, she was wishing us luck for later,” Y/n replied, leaving out the piece of information that Signe was wearing one of her England shirts to the game tonight.
“Oh yeah she’s going to be there tonight isn’t she?” Lucy asks with a smirk.
“Yeah she’s obviously injured so isn’t in the Netherlands so she asked if I could get her a ticket to come watch,” Y/n says casually.
“Oi Aggie, how much do you want to bet that Wieke is wearing and England shirt with Bronze on the back later?” Lauren shouts across the bus, causing Y/n to put her head in her hands.
“Oh 100%, and it’ll definitely be number 25 for the younger Bronze” Aggie shouts back.
“So what if she does, are people not allowed to support their friends anymore?” Y/n snaps back, defensively.
“Y/n we’re only joking,” Lucy starts, “but you do know that if anything is happening between the two of you, or with anyone else, you don't have to hide it from us, especially not me," she continues, getting more serious.
"I know I know, but we're just friends,"
"Yeah sure friends who fu-" Lauren starts.
"Okay change of subject, now please,"
"Yes my sister is still a baby, she does not do that kind of thing," Lucy defends.
"Omg I hate all of you, Lucy I am 17, I am not a baby," Y/n protests.
"You'll always be my baby sister though," Lucy argues.
Y/n doesn't have the effort to argue anymore so she just laughs at Lucy's comment slightly and then going back to messaging Wieke, trying to be discreet about it.
"Stop texting your girlfriend, we're here," Lauren says.
"I swear to god Lauren, stop it please," Y/n pleads.
"Maybe, if you tell me the truth," Lauren smirks.
"How many times, I am telling you to truth, me and Wieke are just friends."
"Yeah yeah okay,"
The rest of the girls around them just laughed as everyone gets off the bus and walks into the stadium, going to the changing room to put all their stuff down before going for a walk on the pitch.
As they walk outside Lauren and Aggie are walking behind Y/n and Lucy, whispering, which was never a good sign and they were clearly planning something, but Y/n chose to ignore it, oh what a mistake that was. Before she knows it, they've both run up behind Y/n and nicked her phone out of her hand.
"Hey give that back Aggie," Y/n shouts.
"Nope I don't think so, we need to see who's making mini Bronze smile so much," Aggie replies.
"Luce help me please," Y/n asks, jumping trying to get the phone which Lauren was now holding above her head so that Y/n couldn't reach it.
"Sorry Y/n/n but I need to know too," Lucy says, walking over and taking the phone from Lauren's hand.
"Well it's locked anyway so good luck," Y/n says smugly.
"Uhh I know your password so that is no problem," Lucy replies, just as smugly as her little sister.
Lucy unlocks the phone but hides it from the other girls at first, not wanting to completely embarrass her sister at first. Y/n can tell the exact moment when Lucy reads all the messages between Y/n and Wieke, the older Bronze sister's face changing into the biggest grin possible.
"Well I think we all know what that smile means, I knew it," Lauren exclaims.
"I would just like to say for the record, I did not actually say anything and any assumptions made cannot come back to me," Lucy says, defending herself against her sister getting mad at her.
"Fine maybe we are together, but just leave it, we have a game to play," Y/n says, trying to change the subject yet again.
To Y/n's surprise, they do actually leave it, for now anyway, she knows it won't be the last of the teasing. The girls finish looking around the pitch and then they make their way back into the changing room to start getting ready and for Sarina to tell them the starting line up, which she normally does the night before a match in a meeting but last night she said she had a change of plan and so they did not know yet.
"Right girls, while you are all getting ready to go out and warm up, I am going to tell you all the starting line up, now I know this is only a friendly but we still want to be winning, anyway, in goal we have Hannah, then midfield we have Keira in the middle, Ella on her right and Georgia to the left, the front three will be Aggie through the middle, Hempo on the left and Beth on the right, and lastly the defence, I know I have done this in a very strange way but there is a reason, left back Niamh, right back Lucy and centre backs, Esme and, a very special one, Y/n" Sarina says, clearly not finished but having to stop for a minute while all the girls are going mental for Y/n. Once they have all calmed down slightly Sarina continues, "so 4-3-3, you all know what you need to do, so lets go and do it," she finishes.
Y/n looks over to her sister as everyone is finishing putting their boots and that on, only to see her crying, whilst trying, and failing miserably to hide it.
"Luce what's wrong?" Y/n asks, clearly very concerned.
"No nothing is wrong, I am just so so proud of you," Lucy replies.
"Aww Luce, you're getting so soft in your old age," Y/n teases.
“You may be growing up, and I may be incredibly proud of you, but I am still you older sister and I can still get mum to tell you off,”
“I’m joking, you’re not that old,” Y/n replies, jumping up and running out after Keira.
"You excited kiddo?" Keira asks as the pair walk out the tunnel and onto the pitch to start warming up.
"No, I'm so nervous," Y/n answers honestly.
"You got this, and if anything happens, you have me and Lucy right there with you, and all the other girls, and if Sarina can see it's too much for you she will take you off straight away okay, I'll make sure," Keira reassures Y/n, placing a hand on the younger girls shoulder.
"Thanks Kei," Y/n replies.
"Of course, now come on, you have some people to show what you can do, and I've heard there is a special someone here for you today,"
"What? How do you know," Y/n asks confused.
“You forget I have known you since you were about six, I know you almost as well as your sister does, oh and I saw you two the other week after our match, I must admit seeing you kiss someone was a bit weird and I did nearly say something, but then I remembered you’re grown up now,” Keira jokes.
“I knew someone had seen us that day, I told Wieke to be more careful,”
“It’s fine, no one else saw and I would never tell anyone, now come on we can’t have you getting injured,” Keira finishes.
After that Y/n tries to put the whole drama of everyone finding out about Wieke behind her, trying to get into game mode so that she can perform her best.
The girls all warm up as the stadium is starting to fill with fans and before they know it, it’s nearly time for kick off and everyone is starting to make their way back into the changing rooms to get into match kits and hear the last pieces of advice from Sarina.
“Right girls, we know the aim for today, go out there and play like I know you can, Captain Keira anything to say before we go out there,”
“Not really, we know what to do, and just one last time a congratulations to mini Bronze," Keira says, causing a cheer from all the girls, "but we can celebrate that after the match, now come on lets go,"
Everyone gets up, the substitutes and staff all walking out before to go and sit on the bench, while the starting girls line up in the tunnel, closely followed by their mascots.
"Auntie Y/n/n," Y/n hears a very familiar voice from behind her.
"Teddy!" Y/n replies, turning around to see her nephew running towards her, picking him up as he gets to her.
"I'm walking out with you," the young boy exclaims, clearly very excited.
"I thought you were meant to be walking out with auntie Luce, with your sister?"
"Yeah but you're starting so I want to walk with you,"
"Okay buddy, are you walking or am I carrying you, it's very loud out there," Y/n asks, noticing Teddy doesn't have his ear defenders and knowing that he can get quite overwhelmed at games.
"I can walk, but I hold your hand,"
"Okay then, come on kiddo," Y/n responds, putting her nephew down as the girls start to walk outside.
After national anthems and shaking hands with the other team, the game starts. It is full on from minute one, Portugal clearly wanting to win so that they are able to say that they beat the back-to-back European champions. The fast start does mean that Y/n is thrown right into the game, which is good in some ways, as it means that she has no time to overthink things, but it also is quite overwhelming for an international debut.
It's after the third corner for Portugal that the pattern becomes noticeable, every time that they either have a corner or manage to get the ball near the England box, Y/n seems to be finding herself on the floor, through a mix of pushes and boots clipping her ankles. Y/n doesn't think much of it, knowing that they are quite a physical team, but each time Lucy helps her up, the older Bronze is getting more and more frustrated that the ref seems oblivious to all the fouls adding up.
"You okay, that one was a big fall," Lucy asks, yet again helping Y/n up.
"Yeah I'm fine don't worry, all part of the game right," Y/n replies, brushing herself off.
"Not this much, they're targeting you because you're young,"
"I'm fine Luce, promise," Y/n says as she jogs back into position.
It doesn't take long and in the 29th minute, England are fired ahead by Georgia after a ball over the top from Y/n.
"Yess mini Bronze, what a ball," Georgia shouts during the celebrations, bringing the younger woman into a bone crushing hug.
"You're the one who scored G," Y/n says, always having been modest.
Georgia just shakes her head before they all walk back to their positions to restart the game. Not much else happens in the first half, apart from the fouls against Y/n just getting more frequent and the ref is still being pretty useless. The girls all make it back into the changing room and Sarina starts talking.
"Right great first half girls, well done on the goal Georgia and great ball Y/n, what a first half from you, even with them seeming to foul you every time you are anywhere near the ball." Sarina says, before continuing to say that she just wanted more of the same in the second half.
Before they know it, it's time to go back out for the second half, and while everyone else does make their way out, Lucy hangs back, wanting to talk to Sarina quickly.
"Sarina, if they keep that up Y/n is going to get seriously hurt," Lucy says, concerned for her younger sister.
"I know Lucy, we are keeping an eye on it, we were planning to give it until 60 minutes, if it hasn't improved by then we can take her off, but she is playing really well Lucy, I don't want to disrupt that, and if she is anything like you, which I think we both know she is, then she will be more than capable of standing up for herself," Sarina replies.
"Okay, I just wanted to make sure it wasn't just me being a bit too overprotective,"
"I understand why you want to protect her, you're a good sister Lucy, now come on, get back out there,"
Lucy nods and then jogs back out onto the pitch where the rest of the girls already are. The second half starts pretty similar to the first, apart from the fact that the Portugal players seem to have backed off her a bit.
By the 80th minute England are winning 3-0, thanks to goals from Hempo and Aggie, adding to the lead from Georgia's first half strike. Y/n was still playing, which she was quite shocked about, think Sarina would have given her 60 minutes at most.
She didn't see it coming, she was tracking back and before Y/n knew it, her feet have been swept from beneath her and she is lying on the floor, the fall having winded her. Some of the girls rushed over to check on her.
"Y/n are you okay?" Aggie asks, crouching down and placing a hand on Y/n's back.
"Yeah yeah, it just took it out of me a bit, I just need a minute," Y/n replies. "Where's Luce?" Y/n asks, but she answers her own question by sitting up slightly and seeing Lucy arguing with the girl who must have fouled Y/n.
"Lucy," Y/n tries, getting up, the winded feeling in the back of her mind now, but Lucy doesn't acknowledge her, "Lucia, leave it I am fine,"
"But it's been happening all game," Lucy says, trying to defend her sister.
"But I am fine Lucy, don't get yourself booked or sent off, we're 3-0 up and I am fine,"
After that Lucy steps back, seeing that her sister was standing upright and didn't look injured in any way, just patting her sister on the back and running back to position.
The game ends a few minutes later with a 3-0 win for the lionesses, none of the girls seem to care about the win though because before she knows it, everyone, both the girls who were playing as well as the ones on the bench, were running over to Y/n and jumping on her.
After the initial elation of the win has slightly worn off, the celebrations more because of Y/n's debut rather than the actual win, because it was only a friendly match after all. All the girls eventually go round and shake hands with the Portugal players, some people swapping shirts and talking to the girls they know from their clubs.
After the girls have done a lap round the pitch, meeting fans and signing things for them, they all start to make their way over to where the friends and family section is, Y/n and Lucy getting jumped on by their niece and nephew.
"Auntie Y/n! You were amazing," Teddy shouts as Georgie picks him up.
"Yeah, you were even better than auntie Lucy," Dotty adds, giggling at Lucy tickling her.
"Wow, you used to say I was the best ever, I'm offended Dot," Lucy jokes.
After this, the rest of the Bronze family congratulate Y/n, and then the conversation just goes to more general, Y/n uses this as her cue to go and talk to Wieke, who is clearly waiting to talk to her, even if she's trying to seem interested in whatever Aggie and the other Chelsea girls are talking about.
"I'm just going to go talk to Wieke and the girls," Y/n says, going to put Teddy down.
"Can I come with you auntie Y/n/n?" Teddy says, clinging onto Y/n.
"Maybe leave auntie Y/n alone for a while buddy," Jorge, Y/n's brother and Teddy's dad attempts.
"No it's fine, of course you can," Y/n reassures, taking Teddy's hand as they walk over.
"Hi guys, thanks for coming Wieke," Y/n says, leaning in for a hug, not the kind of hug either would have wanted, just a friendly one because of all the eyes around, but it was better than nothing.
"Of course, glad I got to see your debut, well done Y/n/n you were great," Wieke replies.
"Thanks Wieke,"
"Right so that is even more confirming what we thought, if Lucy's reaction to the messages on Y/n's phone weren't enough, something is definitely going on," Aggie says.
"Well Keira said well done after the match too, does that mean something is happening with us too?"
"Well that's different, Keira's like your big sister, that would be weird,"
"Well so what if there is anything happening, you jealous Aggs?" Wieke teases, clearly knowing that they've been found out.
Everyone laughs and then Wieke seems to take things into her own hands, kissing Y/n on the neck and placing an arm around her waist. Y/n goes to pull away, knowing that her family is probably watching, but she decides against it, deep down knowing that she didn't want to have to hide it anymore. After a while more of talking, Lucy comes over to say that their family is going, Jorge needing to get the kids to bed.
"Bye bye auntie Y/n," Teddy says sleepily as Jorge takes him from Y/n where he was already falling asleep.
Y/n and Lucy say bye to their family before walking back over to the Chelsea girls, all the England girls who had just played saying they were about to go in to get a shower.
"I'll see you later, go get a shower, you smell," Wieke says, jokingly pushing Y/n away.
"Wow, how rude, fine I'll go,"
"Wait so I don't have to pretend I don't know now right? You guys aren't hiding it anymore," Keira checks as they are all walking down the tunnel.
"Yes Keira, you don't have to pretend anymore," Y/n laughs.
The girls all go into the changing room and all start to have showers and get themselves ready, Y/n takes longer than she normally would, zoning out and thinking about, if anyone asked her, random stuff, however if she was telling the truth she was thinking about Wieke, as always.
"Y/n I swear to god we are going to leave you at this rate, hurry up," Lucy complains.
"Plus, you don't want to keep your girlfriend waiting," Keira teases.
"Keira I didn't think you would be worse than Luce," Y/n moans.
"See, I’m not that bad, now come on, I’m going to get the bus to leave you if you don't hurry up, and then you can walk home tomorrow as well,” Lucy jokes.
“Haha so funny, I don’t know, maybe I have a better offer than coming home tomorrow,” Y/n replies.
“Wieke is more than welcome to come round too,” Lucy adds.
“I’ll see if she wants to, I’ll go find her now, and stop you sound like mum,” Y/n says as she finishes pulling her hoodie on and picking up her bag to leave.
Y/n walks out of the changing room and out of the stadium and then goes to find Wieke, who is waiting for her, wrapped up in a hoodie which clearly isn't her own, it being far too big on her frame and, upon a closer look, had Y/n's number at Chelsea sewn into it.
"Hello you, I was looking for that the other week, when did you steal that?" Y/n says, wrapping her arm around Wieke's shoulders as she walked up to her.
"Not telling, you'll take it back, plus you have loads and it smells like you, do you have to go back to camp tonight?" Wieke asks the second part to hopefully move Y/n away from asking for the hoodie back.
"I'm going to end up with no hoodies at this point, yes I do, but Luce has said you're welcome to come round tomorrow if you want to, Ona will probably be there because I don't think she has to be back in Barcelona till the end of the week, but we can go and hide in my room if they get annoying, well when Luce gets annoying,"
"Sounds lovely, now I better go before Millie drives off without me, well done today, I am so proud of you, see you tomorrow babe," Wieke says, placing a kiss on Y/n's cheek before leaving to go get in the car with Millie, who wasn't playing this camp due to a small injury.
After this Y/n goes to get on the bus, ready for the relatively short journey back to their hotel. Y/n decides that then would be a good time to sort out the instagram post after her debut, posting it and then going back to playing uno with Lauren and Lucy until they got back to the hotel and all pretty much went to bed straight away.
My sister called me. She didn't call to catch up. She called to apologize.
She said they made a mistake at the lab. She said they were only trying to help, to cure things we thought were incurable. But she was crying so hard, and the screams in the background... they didn't sound human. Her last words to me were, "Hide, Yn. Please, just survive."
Word Count 6.6k
Warnings-Guns,Violence and death
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AN- Sorry it took a little bit but here you go. So let me know if I got anything wrong I don't really know much about guns.
Previous Part
Day 5
Nightmares are something that have plagued me since I was a child. I used to wake up in the middle of the night, my heart feeling like it was racing out of my chest, convinced that there was something moving in the shadows of my room.
But I always had a saving grace. The moment I opened my eyes and turned on the lamp, the fear would evaporate. I knew it wasn't real. The monsters only existed in my head and the morning sun always chased them away.
That’s not the case anymore, is it?
It feels like we are all stuck in the same, never ending nightmare. The kind where you keep running but your legs feel like lead, and the things chasing you never get tired. Only now, when I open my eyes, the monsters are still there, pressing against the fences waiting for us to make a mistake.
I’m sitting here in the dark watching Lily sleep. She’s curled up clutching that stuffed rabbit. Every few minutes, she flinches and she lets out these tiny panicked whimpers. She’s dreaming about her parents. She’s dreaming about the men in the alleyways, or the thing in the tunnel.
My heart breaks for her every time she twitches. Because I know she won't have the same blessing I did as a child. When she wakes up, the monsters won't vanish. She will still be in the nightmare.
We all will.
I don't know how to comfort her when the truth is worse than the dreams.
———
The morning was quiet. The knowledge that the infected were wandering the eastern half of the training complex had everybody on edge.
You were in the makeshift cafeteria, a large multi-purpose room on the ground floor. The players were quietly lining up for their morning rations. You stood near the back, keeping Lily close to your side.
"Here you go, mate," Steph said softly, handing Lily a small bowl of oatmeal and a half of a apple. "Eat up."
"Thank you," Lily mumbled politely, taking the bowl.
You guided her to an empty table near the wall, sitting down beside her. You didn't have an appetite choosing instead to drink from a bottle of water watching the room.
"Hey."
You looked up. Leah was standing near the end of your table, holding a mug of tea. She looked like she hadn't slept at all.
"Morning," you replied quietly.
"Mind if I join you?" Leah asked, gesturing to the empty chair across from you.
"Go ahead," you said.
Leah sat down, taking a sip of her tea. She watched Lily eat her oatmeal for a moment, a soft expression crossing her face, before she looked back at you.
"Miller is setting up a makeshift range in a safe part of underground parking garage," Leah said, keeping her voice low. "It's the only place with thick enough concrete walls to muffle the sound of a gunshot. She wants to see what you can actually do with that revolver."
You let out a quiet sigh, resting your elbows on the table. "I told you, I don't know how to shoot. Yesterday was a fluke."
"Which is exactly why you need to learn," Leah countered reasonably. "You have the instincts to survive, Yn. You proved that. But instincts won't help you if you pull the trigger and miss when it counts."
She leaned forward slightly. "I need you to be able to protect yourself, and her. And, if it comes down to it, I might need you to protect us."
The weight of her words settled on your shoulders. You didn't want to be a soldier. You didn't want the responsibility of protecting anyone. But looking at Lily, you knew Leah was right.
"Okay," you nodded slowly. "When do we start?"
"As soon as you finish breakfast," Leah replied, a slight smile on her face.
———
Miller had set up the makeshift range in the furthest corner of the garage, where the walls were thickest. She had dragged several heavy cardboard boxes from a supply closet and drawn circles on them with a thick black marker, setting them up against the back wall.
"Alright," Miller said, crossing her arms as you approached."Let's see what we're working with."
You pulled the revolver from your waistband, feeling suddenly very self-conscious. It wasn't just Miller watching you.
Leah had followed you down, leaning against a pillar a few yards away. A few moments later, Sonnett and Alanna had wandered down the stairwell, carrying a box of scavenged supplies they were moving, but they immediately stopped to watch. Even Alexia was there, having accompanied Miller down earlier to review a map of the lower levels.
"No pressure," Alanna grinned from the sidelines, leaning her elbows on the supply box. "Just the fate of the free world resting on your aim."
"Shut up, Kennedy," Sonnett muttered, though she was watching you with interest.
You ignored them, turning your attention back to Miller.
"Stance first," Miller instructed, kicking your right boot slightly to adjust your footing. "Shoulders width apart. Square up to the target. You aren't in a movie don't stand sideways. You want your body armor facing the threat, even if you aren't wearing any right now. It's a good habit."
You adjusted your feet, squaring your shoulders.
"Now, grip," Miller continued. "Show me how you hold it."
You wrapped your right hand around the grip, resting your left hand underneath the barrel to support the weight, just as you had done earlier.
"Wrong," Miller sighed. "That's how you shoot the webbing of your thumb off if the cylinder gaps. Both hands on the grip."
She stepped behind you, physically moving your hands. She wrapped your right hand high and tight on the backstrap of the revolver, then wrapped your left hand around your right fingers, both thumbs pointing forward along the frame.
"Squeeze," Miller ordered. "Firm, but don't choke it. You want to control the recoil, not wrestle it."
The new grip felt strange, but undeniably more stable.
"Okay," Miller stepped back. "I want you to aim at the center box. Don't pull the trigger yet. Just aim."
You raised the revolver.
"Good," Miller said."Now. Deep breath in. Exhale halfway. Hold it. And squeeze the trigger smoothly. Don't jerk it."
You took a breath. You exhaled, held it, and slowly applied pressure to the trigger.
*BANG.*
You lowered the gun and looked at the target.
The bullet had hit the cardboard box, but it was high and completely to the left, missing the black circle by at least a foot.
"Well," Sonnett called out, her voice carrying over the ringing in your ears. "The box is dead. But I think the circle is going to make it."
"Give her a break," Alexia reprimanded softly, though there was a slight smile on her lips. She looked at you. "You flinched before the weapon fired. You are anticipating the recoil."
"Alexia's right," Miller agreed, walking up to you. "You pushed the barrel down and left right as the hammer fell. Common mistake for beginners. You have to let the gun surprise you."
You let out a frustrated breath."Let's try again."
You raised the gun. Focused on the front sight. Breathed. Exhaled. Squeezed.
*BANG.*
This one was closer, hitting the edge of the cardboard just outside the circle.
"Better," Miller nodded. "But you're stiff. Relax your shoulders."
For the next thirty minutes, you fired round after round. Your arms ached, your ears rang. But with every shot, the mechanics began to make sense.
Miller was a strict instructor, barking corrections about your grip and your breathing. But it wasn't just Miller.
"Keep your elbows slightly bent," Alanna suggested after a particularly bad miss. "They act like shock absorbers."
"And don't rush," Alexia added calmly from the sidelines.
Even Sonnett chimed in, offering surprisingly helpful advice.
By the time you had fired your last practice round, the center of the cardboard box was shredded. You weren't a sharpshooter, but you were hitting the target consistently.
You lowered the empty revolver.
"Not bad," Miller admitted, crossing her arms. "You keep practicing your dry-fire drills upstairs, you might actually be useful."
"High praise from Miller," Leah noted, walking over and handing you a bottle of water. "Drink."
You took the bottle, your hands still trembling slightly from the repeated recoil. You looked around at the women gathered in the garage. Leah, Sonnett, Alexia, Alanna. They had all stopped what they were doing to watch, to offer advice, to help you learn how to protect yourself.
"Thanks," you said, looking at the group. "To all of you."
"Don't mention it," Sonnett shrugged, picking up her side of the supply box. "Just make sure you aim that thing at the dead guys, not us."
"I'll do my best," you smirked.
"Come on," Alanna nudged Sonnett, grinning. "Let's get these supplies upstairs before Horan throws a fit."
As Sonnett and Alanna headed for the stairwell, Miller began packing up the spare ammunition. Alexia offered you a quiet, approving nod before following the groundskeeper.
Leah lingered for a moment, watching you expertly slide the empty revolver back into your waistband.
"You learn fast," Leah observed softly.
"I had good teachers," you replied, capping the water bottle.
"You have good instincts," Leah corrected gently. She looked toward the dark, shadowed expanse of the parking garage, her expression turning serious. "We're going to need them. I'm taking a team to clear the East wing tomorrow. We need to secure the loading docks and get those doors shut properly."
You looked at her, the exhaustion of the morning momentarily forgotten. "You want me to come?"
Leah met your eyes. "I want you to watch my back."
You didn't answer immediately. You just stared at her.
"You have Sonnett," you finally said. "You have Horan. You have an entire roster of athletes who are stronger and faster than I am. Why me?"
"Because they are my team," Leah answered quietly, the vulnerability you had seen yesterday in the VIP suite returning. "And when things go wrong, they look to me for the answer. They look to me to save them. If we get pinned down in that wing, Horan will try to fight her way out to protect the squad. Sonnett will throw herself in front of a bite to save a teammate."
Leah let out a tired breath. "I need someone who isn't burdened by the team dynamic. I need someone who sees the pipe on the ceiling and shoots it. You are pragmatic, Yn. You survive. That’s what I need beside me tomorrow."
You looked down at the concrete floor.
If I go, I risk leaving Lily alone, you thought. But if the loading docks stay open, the horde will eventually flood the complex, and we all die anyway.
"Okay," you murmured, looking back up to meet Leah's eyes. "I'll go."
A flicker of relief washed over Leah’s face. She gave a nod. "Good. We move out at first light. Get some rest tonight."
———
The rest of the day passed slowly. You spent hours in the corner of the lounge, cleaning and reloading the revolver, running through the grip and stance Miller had taught you until the movements felt like muscle memory.
Lily sensed your tension. She stayed close to you uncharacteristically quiet clutching her rabbit. You tried to reassure her, playing a few rounds of Go Fish and reading her a found magazine but the impending dread of tomorrow’s mission was difficult to hide.
That night, as the lounge fell dark and the players settled onto their cots and sofas, you found yourself unable to sleep.
You slipped out from under the blanket you were sharing with Lily, ensuring she was deep asleep before you quietly stood up. You needed air. You needed space to think.
You crept out of the lounge, nodding to the two Matildas currently standing watch at the door, and made your way down the silent hallway toward the main lobby.
The lobby was huge with windows that looked out over the front parking lot and the main gate.
You walked over to the glass, keeping yourself hidden behind a large concrete pillar, and looked out.
The two green landscaping tractors were still wedged firmly against the gate. Beyond them, in the dark, you could see the faint, shuffling silhouettes of the infected wandering the highway. The quiet, distant sound of their guttural moans drifted through the reinforced glass.
"They never sleep, do they?"
You jumped slightly, your hand instinctively dropping to your knife, before you recognized the voice.
You turned to see Alexia stepping out of the shadows near the reception desk.
"No," you answered quietly, letting your hand drop away from your belt. "They don't sleep. They don't eat, not really. They just... exist."
Alexia stepped up beside you, leaving a comfortable space between you. She stared out at the dark shapes on the highway.
"It is a cruel fate," she murmured. "To be trapped in your own body, driven only by hunger. I think I would prefer to die."
You swallowed hard, the memory of Kaye’s frantic phone call flashing in your mind. *We thought we had neutralized the aggression.*
"It's a sickness," you said softly, resting your forehead against the cool glass. "They don't know what they are doing. It's just a virus."
Alexia turned her head, studying your profile in the moonlight. "You speak of it very clinically. Most people just call them monsters."
"Calling them monsters makes it easier to kill them," you replied honestly, turning your head to look at her. "But it doesn't change the fact that they used to be people. Calling it a virus... it reminds me that this was an accident. It wasn't some divine punishment. It was just a mistake."
Alexia held your gaze for a moment.
"You carry a heavy weight, Yn," Alexia said softly, echoing her words from the previous evening. "You guard your thoughts very carefully. But you do not have to carry it all alone."
You looked away, staring back out at the tractors. "I'm fine."
"You are going to the East wing with Leah tomorrow," Alexia stated. It wasn't a question.
"Word travels fast."
"We are a team. We talk," Alexia offered a small, knowing smile. The smile faded quickly, replaced by a serious look. She reached out, her hand gently grasping your forearm. Her touch was warm.
"Be careful tomorrow," Alexia whispered, her voice incredibly soft. "Leah is a brilliant leader, but she will sacrifice herself to save the facility if she feels she has to. Do not let her."
You looked down at her hand on your arm then back up to her face.
"I'll bring her back," you promised. "And I'll come back."
"See that you do," Alexia replied softly. She gave your arm a gentle squeeze before letting go and stepping back into the shadows. "Goodnight, Yn."
"Goodnight, Alexia."
You stood by the window long after she had gone.
———
The next morning the atmosphere in the briefing room was tense. Leah stood at the head of the table, a map of the training complex rolled out before her. She was wearing her training gear, her baseball bat resting against her chair.
Around the table stood Horan, Miller, Irene, and you.
"The objective is simple, but the execution will be difficult," Leah began. She pointed a finger at the far right side of the map. "The East wing loading docks. That rolling metal door is our breach point. We have to manually close it, throw the heavy deadbolts, and secure it with whatever chains we can find in the maintenance closet."
"¿Cuántos de ellos hay en esa zona?How many?" Irene asked, her as she studied the map. (How many of them are in that area?)
"At least two dozen," Leah answered. "We trapped most of them in the equipment corridor yesterday, but the layout is a maze. There are blind corners, locker bays, and storage rooms. They could be anywhere between the doors and the loading dock."
"So it's a sweep and clear," Miller noted, her arms crossed. "Close quarters. Guns are a bad idea down there. The noise will bounce off the cinderblocks and draw every biter in the wing right to your position."
"Exactly," Leah agreed. "Silent weapons only, unless it's a emergency."
Leah looked around the table, her gaze pausing briefly on you before settling on Horan.
"Horan, you and Irene are on point," Leah commanded. "You clear the rooms as we advance. Yn and I will hold the corridor and cover the rear. We move slow, we check our corners, and we don't break formation."
"Understood," Horan nodded. She gripped a crowbar.
Irene gave a sharp nod, tightening the grip on her own weapon a metal pipe they had found in a storage closet. "Estamos listas." (We are ready.)
You checked the hunting knife at your belt, ensuring it was loose in the sheath. You had the revolver, loaded and ready, tucked into the back of your waistband, but based on Miller's warning, you hoped you wouldn't have to touch it.
"Let's move out," Leah ordered.
You left the briefing room in silence. The walk to the double doors leading to the East wing felt like a march to the gallows. When you reached the doors, Horan placed a hand on the handle, looking back at Leah for the signal.
Leah gave a single nod.
Horan pushed the door open.
The air in the East wing was foul. It smelled faintly of stagnant water mixed with the sickening stench of rotting meat. The emergency lights were flickering.
Horan and Irene stepped through first moving in synchronization. They checked the left and right corners before signaling for you and Leah to follow.
You stepped into the hallway, the door shutting behind you, sealing you in the dark.
You drew your knife, keeping it low by your side. Leah stepped up beside you, her bat raised, her eyes scanning the dark corridor ahead.
"Slow and steady," Leah whispered.
The four of you moved down the hallway. You passed the equipment cage where Sonnett and Alexia had been trapped yesterday. The floor was slick with puddles of water, and the chain link was buckled inward, stained with dark smears of blood.
"Clear," Irene whispered softly as they passed a set of open locker room doors.
You were halfway down the main corridor that led to the loading docks, when the sound reached you.
*Slap. Drag. Slap. Drag.*
It was the wet sound of bare, rotting feet dragging across the damp floor.
Horan immediately threw her hand up in a fist. The group froze.
The sound was coming from the hallway to your right. It was slow but it was getting closer.
Horan looked at Irene, then at Leah, communicating entirely through silent gestures. Horan pointed to the corner, then raised her crowbar, indicating she would take the target as it rounded the bend.
Leah nodded her approval.
You tightened your grip on the hunting knife. You held your breath, watching the corner.
An infected man shuffled around the corner. He was wearing the torn remains of a delivery uniform. His jaw was hanging slack, his cloudy eyes staring blankly ahead.
He didn't even see Horan.
The American captain stepped out from the wall, swinging the heavy crowbar with force. The metal struck the infected man directly in the temple with a *crack*.
The man crumpled instantly.
Horan didn't pause. She raised the crowbar, preparing to deliver a second blow to ensure the kill, but she didn't get the chance.
A second infected, a woman missing an arm, stumbled around the corner right behind the delivery man. She tripped over the fallen body, crashing directly into Horan’s legs.
Horan grunted in surprise, stumbling backward and losing her footing on the slippery floor. She went down hard on her back.
The infected woman immediately scrambled forward, her jaws snapping wildly, lunging straight for Horan’s face.
"Lindsey!" Irene shouted, lunging forward with her pipe.
But Irene was a second too late. The infected woman was already on top of Horan, her teeth inches from the captain’s throat.
You didn't think.
You lunged forward. You grabbed the infected woman by the back of her torn shirt, hauling her backward with all your strength.
The creature shrieked, a wet, garbled sound of fury, and twisted in your grip, snapping her jaws toward your arm.
You drove the knife upward, burying the blade deep into the base of her skull.
The infected woman went rigid, her screech dying instantly. You ripped the blade free, kicking the limp body off Horan and stepping back.
Horan scrambled backward on the floor, her eyes wide with shock, staring at the dead infected woman that had nearly ripped her throat out.
Horan looked up at you, her face pale. She didn't say a word. She just stared at you.
"Get up," you whispered, holding out a hand. "We aren't done yet."
Horan stared at your outstretched hand for a split second before grabbing it. Her grip was irontight as you hauled her to her feet.
"Thanks," Horan says her voice barely a whisper.
"Don't thank me yet," you muttered, wiping the blade of your knife on the dead infected’s shirt. "Keep moving."
Leah stepped forward, her bat raised, her eyes sweeping the dark corridor ahead. "Formation. Let's go."
"The loading dock is at the end of this hall," Leah whispered, pointing down the right-hand corridor.
You peeked around the corner.
The corridor ended in a massive open bay area. The metal rolling door was stuck halfway open, leaving a gap about four feet high. Through the gap, the gray daylight shined in,showing the horrors inside.
There were at least a dozen infected around the loading bay. Some were trapped behind stacks of wooden pallets others were just standing still staring blankly at the concrete walls.
"Too many to fight quietly," Horan whispered, leaning against the wall beside you.
"We don't need to fight them all," Leah murmured, her eyes assessing the layout. "We just need to get to the chain mechanism on the wall next to the door. If we can pull the release lever, the door drops automatically."
"And the ones already inside?" Irene asked softly.
"We lock them in the bay," Leah replied. "There’s a fire door between the loading dock and this hallway. Once the exterior door is down, we fall back, shut the door, and leave them trapped in there."
It was a solid plan, but it required crossing open floor space filled with infected to reach the release lever.
"I'll go," Horan volunteered immediately, her grip tightening on the crowbar. "I'm fast enough. I can duck under the pallets and reach the wall."
"No," Leah said firmly. "You're too loud. If you knock a pallet they'll swarm you before you reach the lever."
Leah turned her head, looking directly at you.
"You," Leah said quietly. "You're wearing soft-soled boots. You move quieter than any of us. You can slip through the blind spots."
You stared at her. The trust she was placing in you was insane.
You looked past her, studying the layout of the loading bay. There was a narrow path between a stack of empty crates and a parked forklift that led directly to the wall with the release lever. If you moved slowly, and stayed low, you might just make it without being seen.
"Okay," you say, tightening your grip on your knife. "I'll do it. But if they see me..."
You slipped around the corner, pressing your back flat against the wall. You slid slowly down the hallway, keeping your eyes locked on the infected in the bay. None of them had turned.
You reached the edge of the open bay area. The stench of rot was overpowering here. You dropped into a low crouch, ignoring the burning in your thighs, and began going toward the stack of wooden crates.
You reached the crates, pressing yourself into the narrow shadow they cast. You paused, holding your breath. An infected man in a torn suit was standing less than ten feet away, facing away from you, swaying slightly on his feet.
You waited a minute, ensuring he wasn't going to turn around, before you moved again.
You slipped past the crates, moving toward the parked forklift. You ducked behind the rear tire peering around.
The wall with the release lever was only fifteen feet away.
But standing directly between you and the lever were two infected. A man and a woman, both wearing facility uniforms. They were standing close together, facing the open gap of the rolling door seemingly mesmerized by the gray light outside.
You couldn't sneak past them. The gap was too narrow.
You looked back toward the hallway. Leah, Horan, and Irene were watching you.Leah caught your eye and gave a small shake of her head.
You held up a hand signaling them to wait.
You looked down at the floor. Lying near the tire of the forklift was a large steel bolt, likely dropped by a mechanic weeks ago.
You slowly reached down, picking up the bolt.
You looked at the two infected blocking your path, then looked across the loading bay to the far wall, where empty metal shelving stood.
You took a breath, reared back, and threw the bolt as hard as you could across the room.
The bolt struck the metal shelving and the sound echoed loudly.
Every single infected in the room responded. The wet, garbled snarling erupted instantly. The two infected blocking your path spun around and immediately began shambling toward the source of the noise, completely abandoning their post near the door.
You didn't wait for them to figure out there was nothing there.
You broke from cover, staying low, and sprinted the last fifteen feet to the wall. You hit the concrete hard, spinning around to press your back against it.
The release lever was a heavy red handle set into a metal box on the wall, connected to the chain mechanism of the rolling door.
You reached up, grabbing the handle with both hands. It was stiff, rusted from the humidity.
You gritted your teeth, pulling down with all your weight.
The rust broke, and the lever slammed downward.
Immediately, the heavy metal gears above you shrieked in protest. The massive corrugated rolling door broke free from its jam and slammed downward plunging the loading dock in near darkness.
The sudden noise was a dinner bell.
The infected in the roomnspun back toward the sound of the dropping door. They saw you standing by the wall, illuminated only by the emergency lights.
A dozen dead eyes locked onto you.
"Yn! Run!" Leah's voice yelled from the hallway.
You bolted.
You sprinted back the way you came, ducking behind the forklift just as a clawing hand swiped at the air where your shoulder had been a second before.
"¡Aquí!" Irene shouted from the hallway entrance, waving her pipe frantically.
You rounded the stack of wooden crates, your lungs burning, your legs moving as hard as they could. The gap between you and the leading monster a big man in a torn mechanic’s jumpsuit was closing rapidly.
You hit the threshold of the hallway, practically throwing yourself past Horan and Irene.
"Close it! Close it!" you gasped, stumbling against the far wall of the corridor to catch your balance.
Horan and Irene didn't need to be told twice. They grabbed the door separating the loading dock from the hallway and hauled it shut.
Less than a second later, the leading infected crashed against the other side. The impact made a loud bang followed immediately by frantic scratching and shrieks as the rest of the horde piled against the barrier.
"It's closed," Horan panted, leaning her forehead against the door. "The exterior rolling door is down. The fire door is locked. They're trapped."
Irene rested her hands on her knees, taking deep breaths. "Buen trabajo, Yn. Muy buen trabajo." (Good job, Yn. Very good job.)
You slumped against the wall, sliding down until you were sitting on the floor. Your entire body was trembling. You closed your eyes, resting your head back.
"You did it."
You opened your eyes. Leah was standing over you.
She held out her hand.
You looked at it for a moment, then reached up, letting her pull you to your feet. Her grip was strong, pulling you up effortlessly.
"You did exactly what you said you would," Leah said softly."You slipped right through them."
"I threw a bolt," you muttered, rubbing the back of your neck. "It wasn't exactly high level tactics."
"It was smart," Horan interrupted stepping away from the door. She looked at you, the respect in her eyes undeniable now. "It kept us from having to fight a dozen of those things in close quarters. You saved us a lot of blood today."
You nodded, accepting the compliment.
"We need to get back," Leah said, her professional tone returning. "Miller needs to know the dock is secure, and we need to lock down this hallway from our side just in case that fire door fails."
The walk back to the central hub of the training complex was significantly less tense than the walk down. The immediate threat had been contained.
As you pushed through the double doors leading back into the main administrative building, the familiar hum of the backup generator greeted you.
"I'm going to find Miller," Leah announced, stopping in the lobby. "Horan, Irene, go inform your squads that the East wing is secure. Let them breathe a little easier."
"Copy that," Horan nodded. She gave you one last, respectful nod before heading off with Irene.
Leah lingered for a moment, watching them go, before turning her attention back to you.
"Go check on Lily," Leah instructed gently. "You earned a rest."
You didn't argue. You gave Leah a tired smile and headed toward the player lounge.
When you opened the door to the lounge, the atmosphere was drastically different from when you had left. The tension of the morning had lifted, likely due to Horan and Irene already spreading the news of the successful mission.
Players were scattered around, some reading books, others quietly chatting.
You scanned the room.
Lily wasn't sitting on the sofa anymore. She was sitting cross-legged on the floor in the center of a small group of Matildas, including Alanna and Steph.
But it wasn't the players that made you stop in your tracks.
It was the sound coming from Lily.
She was laughing. It was a bright sound that echoed through the quiet lounge.
You walked closer, unnoticed by the group. Alanna had apparently found a stash of colorful athletic tape in the medical supplies, and she was currently using it to create a armored vest for Lily's stuffed rabbit.
"See, mate?" Alanna was explaining seriously, wrapping a strip of neon pink tape around the rabbit's middle. "Now he's indestructible. The drop bears don't stand a chance."
Lily giggled again.
You stopped a few feet away watching them.
The knot of anxiety that had been permanently lodged in your chest since the moment you answered Kaye’s phone call suddenly loosened.
You had spent the last five days running.You had done trying terrifying things to keep this little girl alive.
"She has a wonderful laugh."
You turned your head. Alexia was standing beside you, her arms crossed lightly over her chest, watching the scene with a soft smile.
"Yeah," you respond, a smile breaking across your own face. "She does."
"You did good today," Alexia murmured, her eyes shifting to meet yours. "Irene told me what happened. You were very brave."
"I was terrified," you admitted honestly.
"Courage is not the absence of fear, Yn," Alexia said softly. "It is acting in spite of it. You have more courage than you realize.
You watched Lily trace the neon pink tape on her rabbit, then slowly turned your head to look fully at Alexia.
"Does everyone realize some decisions are going to have to be made soon?" you asked, your voice dropping low so the others wouldn't hear.
Alexia’s soft smile faded. She didn't look surprised by the question. She uncrossed her arms, stepping slightly closer so she could speak without raising her voice.
"Leah is aware of the inventory," Alexia replied carefully. "The rationing has been strict. But yes. We know the reality of our situation."
"Rationing only stretches the timeline," you murmured. "It doesn't change the end result. We secured the loading docks today, which means the perimeter is tight. But a tight perimeter works both ways. The infected can't get in, but we can't get out."
"We are safe here for now," Alexia countered gently. "That is the priority. The trauma of the initial outbreak is still very fresh for many of the players. They need time to process, to rest."
"We don't have time," you said, perhaps a little too harshly. You let out a frustrated breath, rubbing your eyes. "I'm sorry. I'm just... I'm looking at the logistics. We have sixty people. The food in the cafeteria stores will last three weeks, maybe four if we push it. The generator fuel is going to run out. When the power dies, the water pumps stop working. The security cameras go dark."
You looked back at the group of players. "This place is a fortress, but eventually, it's going to become a tomb. We have to start planning a way out while we still have the strength to fight."
Alexia followed your gaze, watching her teammates.She understood perfectly what you were saying.
"You are right," Alexia admitted softly. "But telling them that now, after we just had our first victory in days... it would break their morale. They need this." She gestured toward the laughter echoing from Alanna and Lily. "They need to feel like they have some control."
"Hope is dangerous if it makes you complacent," you argued quietly.
"And pragmatism is dangerous if it strips away our humanity," Alexia countered, her eyes locking onto yours. "We cannot survive on logistics alone, Yn. We need a reason to keep going when the walls eventually fall."
You stared at her. She had an uncanny ability to disarm your defensive logic.
"So what do we do?" you asked, the frustration draining from your voice, leaving behind exhaustion.
"We let them rest tonight," Alexia said. "And tomorrow, you and I will speak with Leah and Horan privately. We will look at the maps. We will begin to plan a way out. But we will not take this moment from them."
"Okay," you agreed softly. "Tomorrow."
"Good," Alexia nodded. She reached out, her fingers lightly brushing against your arm in a fleeting, comforting touch. "Now, go sit with your little one. You have earned a moment of peace as well."
You watched her walk away rejoining a conversation with Irene and Jenni nearby.
You took a deep breath, pushing it to the back of your mind, and walked over to the group sitting on the floor.
"Hey," you said, dropping down next to Lily.
"Look!" Lily exclaimed, holding up her stuffed rabbit proudly. "Alanna made him armor. He's safe now."
You looked at the neon pink athletic tape wrapped awkwardly around the worn stuffed animal, then looked up at Alanna, who was grinning brightly.
"He looks very tough," you told Lily, smiling genuinely. "Thanks, Alanna."
"No worries, mate," Alanna winked. "Just doing my part for the defense line.
———
The lounge grew quiet as the evening deepened into night.
You were lying on the plush sofa.Lily was tucked in right beside you, her back pressed against your side, the armored rabbit clutched tightly in her arms.
You were staring up at the dark ceiling, the silence allowing the dread you had pushed away earlier to creep back in. Three weeks of food. Maybe four.
You felt a small movement beside you.
"Yn?"
The whisper was so quiet you almost missed it.
You turned your head. Lily’s eyes were open.
"Yeah, sweetie?" you whispered back, carefully moving your arm so you could wrap it around her shoulders. "Are you okay? Did you have a bad dream?"
She shook her head slowly, her hair rustling against the fabric of the sofa. "No. I'm just... awake."
"That's okay," you murmured, gently rubbing her upper arm. "It's hard to sleep sometimes."
Lily was quiet for a moment. She traced the edge of the neon pink tape on her rabbit’s stomach with her finger.
"Alanna said she has a dog at her home," Lily whispered. "And he likes to chase tennis balls."
"That sounds like a very good dog," you smiled softly in the dark.
"Do you have a dog, Yn?"
"No," you replied. "My apartment in the city was too small. Didn't have a yard."
"Oh." She paused. "Did you have anything?"
The question caught you slightly off guard. It was innocent, but it struck a chord. What did you have before the world ended? A quiet apartment. A job that paid the bills but didn't inspire you.
"I had... a lot of books," you said finally, choosing a simple truth. "I liked to read."
"My mommy used to read to me," Lily said, her voice trembling just a bit on the word mommy.
Your chest tightened. You immediately pulled her a little closer, kissing the top of her head. "I know, sweetie. I know."
You braced yourself for the tears, for the inevitable wave of grief that usually followed any mention of her parents. But the tears didn't come. Instead, Lily just pressed her face closer to your shoulder.
"Yn?"
"Yes?"
"When the monsters are gone... and we don't have to hide anymore... can we get a dog?"
She was asking for a future. In the midst of the apocalypse, with a horde pressing against the gates and food supplies dwindling, this seven year old girl was asking you to promise her a tomorrow.
You swallowed the lump forming in your throat. You thought of Alexia's words earlier. *You are keeping her light alive.*
"Yeah," you whispered. You squeezed her tight. "Yeah, Lily. When this is all over, we'll find a house with a big yard. And we'll get a dog. A really big one, so he can chase tennis balls just like Alanna's."
"Can he be brown?" she asked softly. "He can be whatever color you want," you promised.
"Okay," she murmured. "I love you, Yn."
You stopped breathing for a second her innocent declaration bringing tears to your eyes. She had lost everything, yet her capacity to love, to trust, was still intact.
"I love you too, Lily," you whispered fiercely. "Go to sleep now. I've got you."
Within minutes she was asleep, dreaming of big backyards and brown dogs.
You lay awake for a long time your arm wrapped protectively around the little girl who had somehow become your entire world.
You were going to get her out of here. You were going to find a safe place. You were going to build something new no matter what it took.
AN- I wasn't sure if you wanted to be public in this but I decided fuck it you are. Also since this was started a while back some of the information may be a bit outdated with the clubs 🙄🤷🏽♀️
@royle99 Here you go sorry it took me so long.
● When the squad gets called up for an international break, Sarina officially issues you your own private room to maintain boundaries.
You have never slept in this room once.
Instead, you are smuggled between rooms.Hannah acts as the lookout. "Sarina is coming down the hall, move YN to Russo's room!" shoving you through a door.
Sarina absolutely knows you are there. She just chooses to ignore it because the squad actually plays 20% better when you are in the building to keep them happy.
●The media team has a nightmare editing the videos because the girls are constantly fighting over you on camera.
If Georgia does an interview and casually says, "Yeah, my girlfriend and I went to dinner—"
Leah will immediately yell from off camera: "OUR girlfriend, Georgia!!"
If you are standing behind the camera, the players cannot focus. Chloe will literally stop mid ssentence during a press conference to wink at you, leaving the journalists completely confused.
● You don't wear a specific player's name on your back, because the last time you wore Leah's number Tooney refused to speak to you for an hour. Instead, you wear a custom one. The back just says THEIRS
If Alessia scores, she does her signature heart hands aimed right at you. But if Lauren James scores an absolute rocket, LJ will literally just stand still, point directly at you, and smirk. The crowd thinks she is pointing to her family. You know she is claiming you.
● The group chat
Tooney uses it to send 40 unhinged voice notes in a row about a pigeon she saw.
Keira uses it to drop Google Calendar invites for your date nights.
Leah uses it to ask where you are, and Chloe will just send a blurry selfie of the two of you at a pub with the caption "Stole her. Cry about it, Cap."
● Now that Keira and Lucy at Chelsea, the polycule is heavily concentrated in the WSL. This has created a geographic war.
The London Faction (Leah, Lotte, Alessia, Lucy, Niamh,Beth, Aggie etc) They believe you belong in the capital. They take you to high end restaurants and buy you expensive coffee.
The Manchester Faction ( Lauren Hemp, Jess,Grace,Freya) They absolutely refuse to let London monopolize you. You basically live on the train, commuting between the two cities.
Georgia Stanway (Bayern Munich) G is the only one left stranded in mainland Europe. She FaceTimes you constantly from Germany, furiously complaining, "You went to Nando's with Chloe AND Alessia?!I am booking a flight right now!"
●After an England match at Wembley, the tunnel is packed with media, staff, and family members.
There is a unspoken hierarchy of who gets to hug you first, decided entirely by who had the best game.
Alessia scores a brace. She sprints into the tunnel, picks you up, and spins you around.
Maya makes a goal-line clearance, she expects you to run to her first.
* But at the end of the day Leah (as Captain) always gets the final say. She waits until the cameras have cleared out, pulls you into the quietest corner of the tunnel, wraps her arms around your waist, and buries her face in your neck.
Bonus Story
Grace slid into the chair directly across from you, resting her chin on her hand with a charming smirk.
"I'm just saying, YN," Grace says, lowering her voice so it wouldn't carry toward the physio rooms. "If you ever get tired of the veterans needing ice baths and early bedtimes by 8:00 PM, my schedule is wide open. I have youthful stamina."
You couldn't help but laugh taking a sip of your tea. "Grace, are you actively trying to poach me in the middle of a national team camp?"
"I'm just offering," She winked.
Before Grace could lay on any more charm, two very distinct, terrifyingly confident shadows fell over the table.
A arm casually draped over your shoulders. At the exact same time, a set of car keys was dropped onto the table right in front of Grac.
"That’s a bold pitch, Clinton," Lucy drawled, leaning her weight against the back of your chair, fixing her with a unimpressed stare.
On your other side, Leah took tea out of your hands to take a sip for herself. "Very bold," the England captain agreed."Especially considering the 'veterans' are the ones who dictate whether you spend tomorrow's training running extra laps."
Grace’s smirk instantly evaporated. She looked at Lucy’s intimidating posture, then at Leah’s glare and immediately cleared her throat.
"Right. I, uh... I actually have to go stretch," Grace stammered, standing up so fast her chair almost tipped over. "Lovely catching up, YN!"
As she practically sprinted out of the cafeteria to save herself, Lucy let out a chuckle, pressing a warm kiss to the side of your head.
"Kids these days," Leah murmured, resting her chin comfortably on your other shoulder, her arm wrapping around your waist. "No respect ".
lucy just smirked. "We don't lose. You should know that by now."
"None at all," you smiled, leaning happily back. "But I have to admit, it is really fun watching you two defend your territory."
My sister called me. She didn't call to catch up. She called to apologize.
She said they made a mistake at the lab. She said they were only trying to help, to cure things we thought were incurable. But she was crying so hard, and the screams in the background... they didn't sound human. Her last words to me were, "Hide, Yn. Please, just survive."
Word Count 9.2k
Warnings- Violence, Gore,injuries,Death,Guns
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Day 2.
Survival is a funny thing. It strips away everything you thought mattered. The bills you were stressed about, the argument you had with a friend last week, the career you were supposed to be building none of it exists anymore. There is only the immediate present. There is only the next breath, the next step, the next locked door.
When I packed my bag yesterday, my only thought was self-preservation. I grabbed my father's gun, some food, some water, and I ran. I just wanted to get out of the city. I thought that if I could just get far enough away, from the monsters my mother and Kaye built, maybe I could outrun the end of the world. It was a selfish, desperate kind of survival. It was easy. If I messed up, the only life I was gambling with was my own.
But being responsible for the survival of someone else? That is a completely different kind of terror.
Lily hasn't let go of my jacket in hours. Every time I feel the slight, trembling tug of her small hand gripping the leather, I feel a weight pressing down on my chest. I can't just run anymore. I can't take risks. Every shadow I check, every corner I turn, every decision I make has to be made with her in mind.
She is seven years old. She shouldn't be wearing a sweater three sizes too big, carrying a backpack full of water bottles, tiptoeing through abandoned backyards to hide from things that used to be human. She should be complaining about homework. She should be watching cartoons.
My family broke her world. And now, somehow, I have become the only thing keeping her alive in the ruins of it.
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know how to shoot this gun accurately. I don't know how to fight. I don't even know where we are going. I just know that if anything happens to her, I won't be able to live with myself. The guilt Kaye felt? The apology she gave me on the phone before she died? I finally understand it.
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The Florida heat was already oppressive by mid-morning, thick and humid, clinging to your skin like a wet blanket. The heavy leather jacket, which had felt like armor in the cool air of the previous night, was now suffocating. Sweat dripped down your back, making the grip of the revolver at your waist feel slick and uncomfortable.
You and Lily had been moving for hours, slipping through the backyards of the sprawling Orlando suburbs. You had navigated over broken chain-link fences, crawled under low hanging Spanish moss, and tiptoed past patio furniture that looked entirely too normal for a world that had ended yesterday.
So far, the plan was working. The backyards were mostly empty. The infected the things seemed drawn to the open streets, migrating aimlessly along the pavement.
"Okay, let's take a break," you whispered, stopping behind a large, overgrown oak tree in the corner of a large yard.
Lily slumped immediately, sinking down to sit on the thick roots of the tree. Her face was flushed bright red, and her breaths were coming in short pants. The oversized wool sweater you had found her was undoubtedly making the heat worse, but you couldn't risk her taking it off. It was thick enough to offer some protection against a bite or a scratch if the worst happened.
You crouched down beside her, unzipping your duffel bag. You pulled out one of the water bottles, unscrewing the cap.
"Here," you said softly, handing it to her. "Small sips, okay? Don't drink it too fast."
She nodded, taking the bottle and drinking greedily. You watched her, your chest tightening. She was so pale beneath the dirt smudges, her energy entirely depleted. You checked the surrounding yard, your eyes scanning the tall wooden fence line. It was quiet. The only sound was the distant, continuous drone of a helicopter heading north, far too high up to notice two people hiding in the shade of an oak tree.
"Are we safe here?" Lily asked, her voice sounding small. She lowered the water bottle, hugging her stuffed rabbit tighter with her other arm.
"For a minute," you replied, forcing a reassuring smile. You took the water bottle back, taking a small sip yourself before capping it tightly. "We're doing really well, Lily. We're almost out of the neighborhoods."
It was a half-truth. You had made it past the densest suburban blocks, but the sprawling developments of Florida seemed endless. You needed to find a main road heading out of the metropolitan area, but going out into the open meant risking exposure to the larger groups of infected.
"Where are we going?" she asked, looking up at you with wide, exhausted eyes.
You hesitated. It was the question you had been avoiding asking yourself all morning. Where are we going? You had no destination. No safe house. The military clearly didn't have a handle on the situation, and the police were either dead or had abandoned their posts. You couldn't tell a seven year old that you were just wandering aimlessly until you either found safety or died trying.
"We're looking for a place with big walls," you lied, adjusting the heavy strap of your bag. "A place where the sick people can't get in. Maybe a school, or a big store."
She seemed to accept that answer, nodding slowly.
"Ready to keep moving?" you asked, offering her your hand.
She took it, letting you pull her to her feet. You squeezed her hand gently, drawing the hunting knife from your belt with your free hand.
You moved to the edge of the fence, peering through a small gap between the wooden slats. The next yard belonged to a house that sat on a corner lot, bordering a wider, two-lane road.
"Okay," you breathed, assessing the layout. "We have to cross the yard and check the street. Stay low, right behind me."
You opened the gate quietly, slipping through into the corner lot. The grass here was taller, neglected even before the world fell apart. You moved quickly, keeping the bulk of the house between you and the open road.
As you reached the edge of the house, you pressed your back against the wall. You gestured for Lily to stay put. She stopped instantly, pressing herself against the wall beside you, her eyes squeezed shut.
You tightened your grip on the knife and slowly leaned forward, peeking around the corner of the house to look down the two-lane road.
Your breath caught in your throat.
The road was a graveyard of cars. Dozens of vehicles were smashed together, abandoned in a frantic, failed attempt to evacuate the area. Doors were flung wide open, suitcases and bags spilled across the asphalt.
But it wasn't the cars that made your blood run cold.
The street was swarming. There had to be at least thirty of them, wandering aimlessly between the wrecked vehicles. The grotesque sounds of their guttural snarling and shuffling feet drifted toward you. They were trapped in the wreckage, effectively blocking the entire intersection.
You quickly pulled back, pressing your head against the rough stucco of the wall, your heart hammering a frantic rhythm against your ribs.
Damn it.
You couldn't go that way. There were too many, and crossing an open street full of them with a child would be suicide. You looked back the way you had come, then to the side. The only other option was to cut through a narrow, overgrown alleyway that ran between the back of this house and a small, strip mall style convenience store.
You looked down at Lily. Her eyes were open now, watching you with a quiet trust.
"Change of plans," you whispered, turning back toward her. "We're going to take a detour. Stay close."
The alleyway behind the convenience store was narrow and reeked of rotting garbage, but more importantly, it was empty. You hurried Lily through slipping out the other side and into a patch of scrub pines that bordered the edge of the suburban sprawl.
The vegetation was thick, scraping against your jeans as you pushed through, but it offered excellent cover from the roads. You slowed your pace, the adrenaline of seeing the horde in the street slowly going away.
"Okay," you murmured, glancing over your shoulder to check on Lily. She was trudging along behind you, the oversized sweater snagging occasionally on the brush, but she hadn't complained once. "We're doing good. We're going to stay in the trees for a while."
The silence out here was heavy, only broken by the crunch of dry pine needles under your boots and the occasional chirp of a cicada. It was too quiet. The lack of noise was clearly making Lily anxious her eyes kept darting nervously to the shadows between the trees.
You needed to distract her. You needed to keep her mind off the monsters on the asphalt and the parents she left behind.
"Hey, Lily," you said softly, coming to a brief stop to let her catch up. "Do you like games?"
She looked up at you cautiously. "Games?"
"Yeah. My mom used to play a game with me when we went on long car rides. It's called the Alphabet Game." You resumed walking, keeping your pace slow enough for her short legs. "You have to name an animal for every letter of the alphabet. But we have to take turns. I'll start."
She watched you for a moment, the tension in her small shoulders relaxing just a bit.
"A," you said, pretending to think deeply. "Aardvark."
Lily frowned slightly, her brow furrowing. "What's an aardvark?"
"It's like a really big, funny-looking pig with a long nose that eats ants," you explained, smiling over your shoulder at her. "Okay, your turn. Letter B."
She was silent for a few steps, her gaze dropping to the dirt path as she concentrated. "Bear," she said finally, her voice a little louder, a little steadier.
"Good one," you nodded encouragingly. "Okay, C. Cat. Easy."
"D..." she murmured, her face scrunching up in thought. "Dog!"
"Excellent. E is for Elephant."
"F is for... Flamingo," she said, a tiny spark of pride in her voice.
"Ooh, very Florida of you," you chuckled softly, keeping your eyes scanning the trees ahead. "G is for Giraffe."
"H is for Horse," she countered quickly.
You walked for another ten minutes, the rhythm of the game settling into a comforting back-and-forth. It didn't make it any less hot and it didn't change the fact that the world had ended, but for a few minutes, your situation was pushed to the background.
"Okay, I think we're on P," you said. "Penguin."
"Q," Lily said, her voice trailing off. She stopped walking, her brow heavily furrowed in frustration. "Q is hard."
"Take your time," you told her, stopping a few feet ahead. You used the moment to listen, straining your ears past the rustle of the wind in the pines. Nothing. Just the cicadas. "Want a hint?"
"No," she said stubbornly, kicking at a pinecone with the toe of her sneaker. "I know one. A... a quail!"
"Nice job," you praised her, turning fully around to face her. "Alright, R is for Rhinoceros—"
You stopped abruptly.
You hadn't heard a footstep. You hadn't heard a groan.
But as you turned back around to face the path ahead, a figure stepped out from behind the thick trunk of an ancient oak tree, directly blocking your path.
It was a man, or at least, it had been. He was wearing the tattered remains of a park ranger uniform, the green fabric stained almost entirely black with dried blood. His left arm hung at an unnatural angle, the bone visibly protruding through the skin.
He hadn't made a sound because his lower jaw was entirely missing, torn away in whatever violent attack had turned him.
He saw you. Or rather, he sensed you. The milky, dead eyes fixed on your position, and a wet, gurgling hiss erupted from the ruined cavity of his throat. He lunged forward, his good arm reaching out, closing the distance between you with unbelievable speed.
"Lily, get back!" you screamed, all pretense of staying quiet shattering.
You didn't have time to draw the gun. You barely had time to react. You dropped into a defensive stance, raising the heavy hunting knife just as the infected ranger slammed into you.
The impact was like hitting a brick wall. The infected ranger crashed into you, his weight driving you backward. You stumbled, your hiking boots sliding on the dry pine needles, but you managed to stay upright.
He smelled like rotting meat and copper, a stench so foul it made your eyes water. The wet, gurgling hiss from his throat sprayed dark droplets of infected blood across your cheek. He was incredibly strong, driven by a primal, singular focus. His hand clawed frantically at your leather jacket, trying to pull you close enough to bite down with the jagged upper teeth that remained.
"Lily, turn around! Cover your eyes!" you shrieked, your voice tearing painfully from your throat.
You threw your left forearm up, wedging it hard against the ranger's collarbone to keep his snapping teeth away from your face. His fingernails tore at the thick leather of your sleeve, the fabric groaning under the pressure. You grit your teeth, muscles burning as you fought to hold him back.
He shoved forward again, and this time, your heel caught on an tree root.
You went down hard, hitting the dirt with a thud. The breath rushed out of your lungs. The infected ranger fell with you, pinning you to the ground. His ruined mouth snapped wildly, mere inches from your nose.
Panic flooded your veins. He's going to bite me. He's going to kill me.
You thrashed wildly, bucking your hips to throw him off, but he was dead weight, completely oblivious to pain. His clawing hand slipped from your jacket, his fingers digging painfully into the exposed skin of your neck.
"Get... off!" you gasped, your right hand frantically fumbling at your waist.
Your fingers scrambled blindly, slipping against your belt until they finally closed around the familiar, worn leather hilt of the hunting knife. You ripped it from the sheath with a desperate yell.
You didn't hesitate. You didn't think about the fact that he used to be a human being.
You thrust the heavy blade upward with every ounce of strength you had left. The sharp steel caught him right under the chin, sliding smoothly through the soft tissue and plunging deep into the base of his skull.
The ranger jerked violently, his body going rigid for a split second. The gurgling hiss died instantly. The milky eyes rolled back, and he collapsed fully onto you, completely limp.
You lay there for a second, gasping for air, the dead weight of the body pressing the air from your lungs. Your hands were shaking so hard you couldn't maintain your grip on the knife.
"Lily?" you choked out, your voice barely a whisper.
You shoved the corpse off of you, rolling it onto its back in the dirt. You scrambled backward on your hands and knees, scrambling away from the body trying to catch your breath.
You looked up frantically. Lily was standing exactly where you had left her, about ten feet away. She had her back to you, her small hands clamped tightly over her eyes, her shoulders shaking with silent sobs. She had listened. She hadn't looked.
"Okay," you gasped, pushing yourself up onto shaking legs. You wiped the dark splatter of blood from your cheek with the back of your sleeve, grimacing in disgust. "Okay, Lily. I'm okay."
You stumbled over to her, dropping to your knees and pulling her into a tight hug. She immediately wrapped her arms around your neck, burying her face into your shoulder, crying softly.
"I'm sorry," you whispered, holding her tight, trying to slow your own racing heartbeat. "I'm sorry you had to hear that. You were so good. You listened perfectly."
You held her for a moment, staring over her shoulder at the dead ranger in the dirt, the hilt of your knife protruding from beneath his jaw. The silence of the pine forest rushed back in, but it no longer felt peaceful. It felt like a trap.
You couldn't stay in the woods. You couldn't stay on the roads.
"We have to go," you murmured, gently pulling back from Lily. You kept your hands on her shoulders, looking her in the eye. "We can't play the game right now, sweetie. We have to be very quiet again, okay?"
She nodded, wiping her nose with her sleeve.
You stood up, your legs still feeling like jelly. You walked back over to the body. You didn't want to touch it again, but you couldn't leave the knife. You grabbed the hilt, bracing your boot against the ranger's shoulder, and yanked the blade free. You wiped the steel clean on the dead man's trousers before sliding it back into the sheath.
"Come on," you said, reaching out to take Lily's hand. "Let's find somewhere safe."
The woods were no longer a sanctuary. You moved faster now, the humid Florida air burning in your lungs, pulling Lily along behind you. She stumbled a few times, her small legs struggling to keep up with your frantic pace, but she didn't complain. She just gripped your hand tighter.
You pushed through a group of shrubs and practically fell out onto the edge of a paved service road.
You froze instantly, pulling Lily back against your side.
The service road was empty. It stretched out straight in both directions, bordered by a high chain-link fence topped with barbed wire on the opposite side. Beyond the fence, you could see the towering, skeletal structures of light poles the kind used for a stadium or a sports complex.
This was it. The walls you had been looking for.
"Look," you whispered to Lily, pointing toward the sprawling complex. "See that fence? We just have to get inside."
You scanned the road. To your left, about fifty yards down, a small group of infected four or five of them were shambling aimlessly toward a maintenance truck. They hadn't noticed you yet. To your right, the road was clear, leading toward a wide, open gate in the chain-link fence.
"We're going to cross the road and go through that gate," you told Lily, your voice tight with adrenaline. "But we have to run. Fast and quiet. Ready?"
She nodded, her eyes wide, clutching her stuffed rabbit tightly against her chest.
"Go," you breathed.
You broke from the tree line, sprinting across the hot asphalt. You didn't look left. You didn't look right. You just kept your eyes locked on the open gate. Lily's hand was clamped in yours, her small feet pounding against the pavement.
A sharp, guttural screech pierced the air behind you.
They saw us.
You risked a glance over your shoulder. The small group of infected had turned, their milky eyes locking onto your movement. They broke into a disjointed, horrifyingly fast shamble, their arms reaching out, jaws snapping.
"Faster, Lily, come on!" you urged, practically dragging her the last ten yards.
You hit the gate, throwing yourself through the opening. You spun around instantly, grabbing the heavy metal frame of the gate. It was designed to slide shut on a track.
"Help me push!" you yelled at Lily.
She dropped her rabbit and threw her small weight against the metal mesh. You dug your boots into the gravel, ignoring the burning in your muscles, and shoved with everything you had. The gate groaned, sliding slowly along the track.
The infected were closing the distance. Thirty yards. Twenty yards.
You gritted your teeth, pushing harder. The heavy metal screeched in protest.
Ten yards. You could see the dried blood on their clothes, the hungry, vacant stares.
Clang.
The gate slammed shut just as the first infected reached it. The creature crashed violently into the chain-link, its hands clawing uselessly at the metal, its teeth snapping inches from your face through the gaps.
You stumbled backward gasping for air.
You didn't waste time watching them. You dropped to your knees, quickly wrapping a heavy length of chain around the gate post and securing it with a heavy padlock that hung loosely from the links.
It was locked. You were inside.
You slumped back against the fence, sliding down until you hit the dirt. You pulled your knees to your chest, resting your forehead on your arms, trying to regulate your breathing.
Lily scrambled over to you, retrieving her rabbit from the dust, and buried herself against your side. You wrapped an arm around her automatically, holding her tight.
"We did it," you choked out. "We're safe."
You looked up, finally taking in your surroundings. You were inside a massive complex. Beyond the parking lot, towering concrete walls rose up, surrounding what looked like a professional training facility. The pitches were empty.
It was quiet. It was secure.
You stayed slumped against the chain-link fence for a long time, the only sounds the frantic, wet snapping of the infected just inches away on the other side of the outer fence and Lily’s ragged breathing against your side.
You finally forced yourself to stand, your legs trembling with exhaustion. You pulled Lily up with you, gently brushing some of the dirt from her sweater.
"Okay," you said, your voice still shaky. You pointed toward the modern looking building at the center of the complex. The logo on the side a stylized crest, but you barely glanced at it. "Let's get out of the sun. We need to find somewhere inside to rest."
You kept your hand firmly on the grip of your revolver as you led Lily across the empty parking lot. The silence here was unsettling. There were no abandoned cars blocking the lanes, no scattered luggage, no signs of panic. It looked exactly as it should on a quiet off-day, except for the apocalypse happening on the other side of the fence.
You approached the main entrance of the facility tinted double glass doors. You stopped a few feet away, listening intently.
Nothing.
You moved forward cautiously, pressing your face against the tinted glass, trying to cup your hands around your eyes to block the glare. The lobby inside was modern, with plush seating, a reception desk, and walls lined with framed jerseys and photographs. It was completely empty.
You tried the handle on the right door. It didn't budge. You tried the left. Locked.
"Damn it," you muttered, stepping back. You couldn't break the glass the noise would draw every infected within a mile to the fence line.
"Yn?" Lily whispered, tugging gently on your jacket. She pointed down a wide, paved pathway that curved around the side of the main building, leading toward the training pitches. "What about over there?"
"Good eye," you praised her quietly.
You followed the path, keeping your back close to the wall of the main building. As you rounded the corner, the scale of the complex opened up before you. Several manicured pitches stretched out.
Set back from the fields was a long, low, cinderblock building, separate from the main complex. A sign above a door read TEAM LOCKER ROOMS & MEDICAL.
"Let's try that one," you said.
You approached the door cautiously. This time, when you pulled the handle, the latch clicked softly, and the door swung open.
You stepped inside, pulling Lily close. The air conditioning was off, but the thick walls kept the interior significantly cooler than the outside.
"Stay behind me," you whispered.
You moved slowly down a short hallway. To your right was a room filled with massage tables and medical supplies. To your left, a set of double doors stood propped open, leading into the main locker room.
You stepped into the doorway, your hand on your gun, scanning the room.
It was lined with custom wooden stalls. Bags were left on benches, cleats were scattered on the floor, and a few towels hung carelessly over the backs of chairs. It looked like the room had been evacuated in a hurry, but there was no blood. No signs of a struggle.
"I think it's empty," you breathed, finally letting your hand drop away from the revolver. "I think we're actually safe."
You led Lily toward the back of the locker room, away from the doors. You found a row of leather recliners likely a player lounge area and dropped your bag onto one of them with an exhausted sigh.
Lily immediately scrambled up onto the recliner next to yours, curling into a tight ball, still clutching her rabbit. Her eyes were already drooping.
"You can sleep now, sweetie," you told her softly, brushing a strand of sweaty hair off her forehead. "I'll keep watch. I promise."
She didn't need to be told twice. Within seconds, her breathing evened out.
You slumped down into the chair beside her, every muscle in your body hurting. You had made it. You had found shelter, walls, and seemingly, a quiet place to hide.
But as you sat there in the dim light of the locker room, a sudden sound caught your attention.
It wasn't a groan. It wasn't a scrape.
It was the distinct, heavy sound of a door clicking shut further down the hallway.
You froze. Someone or something was in the building with you.
Your exhaustion vanished instantly, replaced by a spike of adrenaline. You slowly pushed yourself up from the recliner, your eyes fixed on the doors leading back to the hallway. You drew your father's revolver.
You glanced down at Lily. She was dead to the world, exhausted beyond measure. You couldn't wake her. If she panicked and cried, she would give away your position.
You had to handle this quietly.
You crept toward the doors, keeping low, using the wooden stalls as cover. Your boots were silent against the thick rubber matting that covered the locker room floor. You reached the doorway and pressed your back against the doorframe, holding your breath.
* Squeak.*
Footsteps. But these weren't the dragging steps of the infected you had encountered. These were cautious, and wearing athletic shoes.
Whoever it was, they were alive.
"Keep your head down," a voice hissed, barely a whisper. It was a woman's voice, tight with stress. "Check the medical room first. We need more tape."
"I'm checking," another voice replied, softer, but equally tense. "Just cover the door."
Your grip tightened on the gun. Survivors. That should have been a good thing, but in the forty-eight hours since the world ended, you had learned that desperate people could be just as dangerous as the monsters outside. You didn't know these people, and you didn't know what they were capable of.
You peeked around the doorframe.
Two women were moving down the hallway, their backs currently facing you as they approached the medical room you had passed earlier. One was taller, holding a metal baseball bat loosely at her side. The other was slightly shorter, holding a long, sharp-looking piece of shattered glass wrapped in a bloody towel.
You had the drop on them. You could announce yourself, but if they panicked, if they swung that bat...
I have to control the situation, you thought.
You stepped fully out into the hallway, raising the revolver, holding it steady with both hands.
"Don't move," you said. Your voice was louder than you intended.
Both women froze instantly. The taller one slowly began to turn, her grip tightening on the baseball bat.
"I said don't move!" you snapped, thumbing back the hammer on the revolver with an audible *click*. "Drop the bat. Drop the glass. Now."
The taller woman turned her head just enough to look at you over her shoulder. Her eyes were wide, taking in the gun leveled directly at her chest. She slowly raised her hands, letting the metal bat clatter loudly against the concrete floor.
"Okay," she said, her voice remarkably steady despite the situation. "Okay, we're unarmed. Just... take it easy."
The second woman dropped the glass knife, holding her hands up as well. She slowly turned to face you, her eyes darting between the gun and your face.
"We don't want any trouble," the shorter woman said, her voice shaking slightly. "We're just looking for supplies. We didn't know anyone else was in here."
"Are there more of you?" you asked, not lowering the weapon.
The taller woman hesitated, exchanging a quick glance with her companion.
"Answer me!" you barked, the stress of the last two days finally fraying your nerves.
"Yes," a new voice said from directly behind you.
The cold, hard barrel of a gun pressed firmly against the back of your head.
"Drop the revolver," the voice behind you said calmly. "Or I'll drop you."
The cold steel pressing against the base of your skull sent a shockwave of fear down your spine. Your breath caught in your throat. You had been so focused on the two women in front of you that you hadn't heard the third person approach from the locker room behind you.
"I said drop it," the voice behind you repeated. It was a woman’s voice, older, filed with authority and a gruff, no-nonsense tone.
Your fingers twitched on the grip of the revolver. You could try to spin, to fire blindly, but the barrel against your head didn't waver an inch. You slowly loosened your grip. The gun slipped from your hand, clattering onto the floor.
"Kick it away," the voice ordered.
You complied, nudging the revolver toward the two women in the hallway with the toe of your boot.
"Now put your hands on your head," the woman behind you instructed.
You raised your hands, lacing your fingers behind your neck. You felt a hand pat down your sides, quickly finding and pulling the hunting knife from its sheath at your belt.
"Turn around. Slowly."
You pivoted. Standing before you was a woman in her late forties, wearing a dark blue security uniform that was missing a button and stained with dirt. The name tag on her chest read MILLER. She was holding a 9mm pistol keeping it aimed squarely at your chest.
Behind her, standing in the doorway of the locker room, you could see the empty recliner where Lily had been sleeping.
Panic flared through you.
Before you could ask, a small, furious voice echoed from the locker room.
"Stop! Leave her alone!"
Lily marched out from behind a row of wooden lockers. She was dragging the oversized sweater behind her, but she looked remarkably fierce for a seven year old. She marched right past the security guard, putting herself firmly between you and the barrel of the gun. She glared up at the guard, clutching her stuffed rabbit like a shield.
The security guard blinked, her stern expression faltering in surprise. The gun wavered, dipping toward the floor.
"A kid?" the taller woman in the hallway breathed, stepping closer.
You immediately dropped to your knees, pulling Lily against you, shielding her small body with yours. You glared up at the guard."Don't point that at her."
"I wasn't going to shoot a kid," the guard, Miller, muttered, lowering the weapon completely and engaging the safety. She let out a exhausted sigh. "Fuck. Where did you two come from?"
"We walked," you said defensively, keeping your arms securely wrapped around Lily. "We just needed a place to rest. The gate was open. We locked it behind us."
"You locked the main gate?" The shorter woman in the hallway spoke up. She was wearing a polo shirt with the facility's logo embroidered on the chest. "Are you sure?"
"I chained it," you confirmed, watching them warily. "There were... some of those things following us. They didn't get in."
Miller holstered her weapon, shaking her head. "Alright. Everyone calm down. Lola, Starr, check the cameras in the security office just to be sure. I don't want any surprises."
The two women from the hallway who you now realized must be facility staff nodded and hurried past you, disappearing down the corridor.
Miller looked back down at you, her gaze softening slightly as she looked at Lily. She reached out and picked up your revolver from the floor, checking the safety before handing it back to you, grip first.
"Sorry about the gun to the head," Miller said, her tone gruff but apologetic. "It's been a bad few days. We've had a lot of people trying to climb the fences, and not all of them were friendly."
You took the gun, quickly tucking it back into your waistband, and slowly stood up, keeping Lily close. "Who are you?"
"I'm the head of security for the complex," Miller replied, crossing her arms. "The other two are groundskeepers. When the evacuation orders went out, the roads jammed up. We got stuck here."
"Are you the only ones left?" you asked, glancing around the massive, empty hallway.
Miller hesitated, her expression tightening. "No. But we're the only ones currently in this building. Look, you two look like you're going to drop. There's a break room down the hall with some cots and vending machines we've busted open. Why don't you get the kid some food, and we'll figure out what to do with you."
It wasn't an invitation it was an order. But considering you were standing in their secure facility, you weren't in a position to argue.
"Okay," you nodded, tightening your grip on Lily's hand. "Thank you."
Miller gestured for you to follow her, leading you deeper into the facility. As you walked, the tension in your shoulders slowly began to uncoil. You had found people. You had found walls.
The break room was a small slice of heaven compared to the world outside. Starr and Lola, the two groundskeepers, had indeed busted open the vending machines snacks and bottled water were piled on a table.
You sat on a folding chair, watching Lily devour a package of cheese crackers. You had managed to clean the dirt and grime off her face with a damp paper towel, and for the first time in two days, she looked somewhat relaxed.
Miller was sitting at a small table nearby, nursing a lukewarm cup of instant coffee and reviewing a map of the facility complex. She hadn't said much since bringing you here, and the silence was starting to feel unnerving.
"So," you started, keeping your voice low. You uncapped a water bottle, taking a slow sip. "You said you aren't the only ones here. Who else is in the complex?"
Miller didn't look up from the map. She tapped her pen against the paper rhythmically. "The teams."
You blinked, confused. "The teams? What teams?"
"The national squads," Miller said, finally looking up. She looked exhausted, the bags under her eyes dark and heavy. "The US Women's National Team, England, Spain, and Australia. They were all here for the SheBelieves Cup tournament when the outbreak hit. The stadiums shut down, the flights were grounded. The athletes and their coaching staff got corralled back here because the security perimeter was already established."
Your jaw practically unhinged. You were sitting in a bunker with some of the most famous athletes in the world?
"Are they... are they okay?" you asked, stunned.
"Most of them," Miller sighed, rubbing her temples. "We lost a few of the support staff initially before we got the gates locked. Right now, the players are holed up in the main stadium dormitories across the complex. We’ve been trying to keep the different groups separated to conserve resources and minimize panic."
Before you could ask another question, the door to the break room crashed open.
"Fuck! Can we get some help over here?!"
The voice was loud, frantic, and unmistakably American.
You jumped to your feet, instinctively pulling your revolver, while Miller was already out of her chair, her hand on her holster.
Two women stumbled into the room, leaning heavily on each other. You recognized them instantly, even covered in dirt and sweat.
Emily Sonnett was practically carrying the second woman. Leaning entirely on Sonnett’s shoulder was Sophia Smith. Sophia was gasping in pain, her face screwed up in agony, her right leg dragging uselessly behind her.
"Sonnett! What happened?" Miller barked, rushing forward to help support Sophia’s weight.
"We were checking the fence near the east practice field," Sonnett gasped out, as she and Miller half-carried Sophia toward an empty cot against the wall. "She fell. The old scaffolding near the bleachers gave way. It’s bad, Miller. It’s really bad."
They lowered Sophia onto the cot. Sophia let out a sharp cry of pain.
"Don't touch it, don't touch it," Sophia hissed through gritted teeth, her hands hovering uselessly over her shin.
You quickly holstered your gun, stepping closer. You weren't a doctor your sister was the medical genius but you had spent enough time around Kaye’s lab and textbooks to know basic trauma response. You had also packed a first-aid kit.
"Let me look," you said, pushing past Miller and kneeling beside the cot.
"Who the hell are you?" Sonnett demanded, immediately stepping between you and Sophia, her posture defensive and aggressive.
"I have medical supplies," you said firmly, meeting Sonnett's intense glare without flinching. "I can help her. Move."
Sonnett hesitated, looking at Miller for confirmation. The security guard gave a curt nod. Sonnett reluctantly stepped back, though she kept her hands clenched into fists, watching you like a hawk.
You gently pushed Sophia's hands away from her leg. Her sweatpants were torn just below the knee, the fabric dark with blood. You pulled the tear wider, wincing at the sight.
It wasn't a bite, thank god. But it was a deep laceration running vertically down her shin, dangerously close to the bone. The scaffolding had sliced her open cleanly, and it was bleeding heavily.
"Okay," you said, keeping your voice calm and steady. You looked over your shoulder at Lily, who was watching with wide, frightened eyes from the folding chair. "Lily, sweetie, can you bring me the first-aid bag? The red one?"
Lily immediately got down, grabbing the kit from your bag and bringing it over. You gave her a quick, reassuring smile before turning back to the wound.
"Sophia, right?" you asked, opening the kit and pulling out a thick gauze pad.
Sophia nodded tightly, her eyes squeezed shut, sweat beading on her forehead.
"This is going to hurt," you warned her. "I have to put pressure on it to stop the bleeding. Sonnett, hold her shoulders down."
Sonnett didn't argue. She moved to the head of the cot, placing her hands firmly on Sophia’s shoulders.
You pressed the gauze directly into the deep cut, applying hard, direct pressure. Sophia let out a strangled scream, her body arching off the cot, but Sonnett held her down firmly.
"I know, I know, I'm sorry," you muttered, keeping your hands steady. "Just breathe. Keep breathing."
You held the pressure for two minutes, the silence in the room broken only by Sophia's gasps and Sonnett's quiet murmurs of encouragement.
When you finally eased the pressure and lifted the gauze, the bleeding had slowed significantly. The cut was deep, and it absolutely needed stitches, but it wasn't hitting an artery.
"Okay, the bleeding is slowing down," you announced, grabbing a bottle of antiseptic wash from the kit. "I need to clean it before I bandage it. Miller, do you have a proper medical bay here? She's going to need antibiotics and probably stitches."
"The main medical facility in the stadium is locked down," Miller said, looking grim. "The team doctors are over there. But the comms are down. We can't radio them to let them know we're coming."
"Then we carry her," Sonnett said, looking down at Sophia. "I'm not leaving her here."
"You can't carry her across the open complex," Miller argued. "If there are infected that slipped through..."
"I'll help you," you interrupted, looking up at Sonnett. "I can help you carry her. But we have to wrap this first."
You poured the antiseptic wash over the wound. Sophia bit down hard on her sleeve to stifle another scream. You worked quickly, packing the cut with fresh gauze and wrapping her calf tightly with a compression bandage to keep the dressing in place.
You looked up at Sonnett, who was staring at you with a mixture of suspicion and grudging relief.
"It's secure for now," you told the athlete. "But she can't walk on it. If we're going to move her to the stadium, we need to do it now, before she goes into shock."
"We move now," Sonnett stated, her tone leaving no room for argument. She looked at Miller. "What’s the safest route to the stadium dorms?"
Miller dragged a hand down her face, studying the map on the table. "The complex is huge. The quickest way is straight across the main training pitches, but that leaves us completely exposed. If there are any biters out there, they’ll see us from a mile away."
"We stick to the service corridors," you suggested, standing up and wiping your bloody hands on a clean rag from the counter. You looked at the map over Miller's shoulder. "Are these tunnels underneath the bleachers connected to the main stadium?"
Miller looked surprised, then nodded. "Yes. The maintenance tunnels run beneath the stands and connect directly to the underground parking garage beneath the dorms. But it’s going to be dark. And if they got inside..."
"It’s better than being sitting ducks on the grass," Sonnett argued. She turned her gaze to you. "You said you'd help carry her."
"I did," you confirmed. "But I have a condition." You pointed to the folding chair where Lily was sitting, clutching her rabbit, her eyes darting nervously between the adults. "She comes with us. She doesn't leave my sight. If things go bad, your priority is your teammate. Mine is the kid."
Sonnett looked at Lily, really looking at her for the first time. The athlete's tough exterior cracked just a fraction. She gave a nod. "Deal."
"Alright," Miller sighed, holstering her radio, which had been emitting nothing but static for two days. "Starr, Lola, you two stay here and lock down this building. Do not open the doors for anyone unless you hear my voice. Understood?"
The two groundskeepers nodded fervently, clearly relieved they weren't being asked to go into the dark tunnels.
"Let's get her up," Sonnett said, moving to Sophia's uninjured side.
You moved to Sophia's other side. "On three," you instructed. "One, two, three."
Together, you and Sonnett hoisted Sophia to her feet. Sophia hissed in pain, her right leg hanging uselessly, entirely reliant on the two of you to keep her upright. She draped one arm heavily over Sonnett's shoulder and the other over yours.
"Lily," you called out gently. "Grab your backpack and stay right behind me. Hold onto my jacket."
Lily scrambled off the chair, quickly slipping the blue backpack onto her shoulders, and grabbed the hem of your leather jacket.
"I’ll take point," Miller said, drawing her 9mm. "Let’s move."
Leaving the safety of the locker room felt like stepping back into the nightmare. Miller led the way out of the building, keeping her weapon raised.
"You're doing great, Soph," Sonnett muttered, her voice incredibly gentle, a stark contrast to her earlier aggression. "Almost there. Just keep breathing."
"I'm... trying," Sophia gasped, her head rolling slightly against Sonnett's shoulder. "Hurts like a bitch."
"I know. We'll get doc to fix you right up."
Miller stopped at a metal door set into the concrete base of the massive stadium bleachers. She checked over her shoulder, ensuring you were all there, before pulling out a ring of keys. She found the right one, slotted it into the lock, and turned it.
She pulled the door open, revealing a dark corridor.
"Power's completely out in this section," Miller whispered, pulling a flashlight from her belt and clicking it on. "Stay close. Don't make a sound."
You tightened your grip on Sophia's waist, feeling Lily’s small hand gripping your jacket tightly.
"Ready?" you asked Sonnett softly.
"Ready," she grunted.
You stepped into the darkness.
Miller's flashlight beam swept side to side. For the first ten minutes, the tunnel was clear. The only obstacles were discarded maintenance carts and the occasional puddle of stagnant water.
But as you approached a T-junction that led toward the underground parking garage, Miller suddenly stopped, her hand shooting up in a fist.
The universal signal to halt.
You and Sonnett froze instantly. Sophia let out a quiet, pained whimper as the sudden stop jarred her leg. You quickly shushed her, straining your ears.
From the darkness of the intersecting tunnel to your right came a sound.
*Scrape. Shuffle. Click.*
It was the clicking sound of teeth snapping together.
Miller immediately clicked her flashlight off, plunging the tunnel into darkness.
"They're in the tunnels," Sonnett breathed, her voice trembling slightly.
"Quiet," Miller hissed through the darkness.
The shuffling grew louder. It wasn't just one. It sounded like a small group, dragging their feet across the concrete, their guttural moans echoing off the walls. They were moving toward the intersection, cutting right across your path.
You couldn't see anything.
If the infected turned down your tunnel, you were trapped. There was nowhere to run while carrying Sophia, and firing a gun in this enclosed space would deafen you all and draw every monster in the stadium straight to your location.
You held your breath, the sound of your own heartbeat roaring in your ears, waiting in the dark to see which way the monsters would turn.
The dragging footsteps reached the intersection. The sound paused. The clicking grew louder, echoing directly into your tunnel. The thing was standing yards away in the dark.
Then the flashlight clicked back on.
Miller hadn't turned the beam toward the intersection. She had pointed it straight down at the floor, shielding the bulb with her hand so only a faint glow lit up the space around you.
She held up one finger.
One.
There wasn't a group. The echoing acoustics of the tunnel had made the sound deceptive. It was only one infected.
Miller carefully drew her baton with her free hand, leaving her gun holstered. A gunshot would still be disastrous, but a metal baton was quiet. She looked at you and Sonnett and pointed to the wall behind you, signaling you to step back and press yourselves against the concrete.
You and Sonnett carefully shuffled backward, pulling Sophia with you until your backs hit the wall.
Miller stepped forward. She reached the edge of the intersection, the faint glow of her flashlight revealing the edge of the corner.
She took a deep breath, gripped her baton tightly, and stepped out into the intersection, fully turning the flashlight beam onto the infected.
The light hit the creature square in the face.
It was a man wearing a facility maintenance jumpsuit. Half of his face was a ruined, bloody mess, his jaw hanging slack. The sudden bright light seemed to disorient him for a second. He let out a loud, garbled shriek, raising his arms to lunge at the security guard.
Miller didn't hesitate. She stepped forward swinging the baton in a brutal, two-handed arc.
*CRACK.*
The sound of the metal striking the infected man’s skull echoed. The maintenance worker crumpled instantly, hitting the concrete floor in a heap.
Miller didn't stop. She brought the baton down twice more, heavy, sickening thuds that ensured the thing wouldn't be getting back up.
She stood over the body for a moment the flashlight beam illuminating the grisly scene. She looked back over her shoulder at you and gave a sharp nod.
"Clear," she whispered hoarsely. "Keep moving."
You let out a breath you hadn't realized you were holding. Sonnett met your eyes over Sophia's head.
"Let's go," Sonnett says.
You pushed off the wall, resuming the task of carrying Sophia. As you passed the intersection, you forced yourself not to look down at the ruined body of the maintenance worker. Lily kept her face buried in your jacket, stepping over the puddle of dark blood with her eyes squeezed shut.
The rest of the tunnel was mercifully clear. After what felt like hours, the corridor began to slope upward, the concrete walls giving way to painted cinderblock.
"We're entering the parking garage," Miller whispered, her flashlight sweeping across the area ahead. "The dormitories are directly above us. There's an access stairwell in the back corner."
The garage was largely empty, save for a few abandoned golf carts used by the facility staff. Miller moved quickly, leading you through the rows of concrete pillars toward a heavy fire door marked with a glowing red EXIT sign.
She checked the door handle. "It's locked from the inside," she said, relief washing over her face. "The players secured it."
Miller holstered her flashlight and raised her fist, banging a loud, pattern against the steel door.
*Bang, bang. Bang.* Pause. *Bang.*
Silence from the other side.
Miller banged again, louder this time. "It's Miller!" she yelled, her voice muffled by the thick door. "I have injured! Open the door!"
For a moment, nothing happened. Then, the scrape of a deadbolt sliding back echoed through the garage.
The door cracked open just an inch. A face appeared in the gap, eyes wide with apprehension.
"Miller?" a voice asked.
"It's me, Horan," Miller said quickly. "Let us in. I have Sonnett and Smith."
The door swung fully open. Standing in the stairwell was Lindsey Horan, holding a metal wrench like a club. Behind her, you could see a few other players standing on the stairs.
"Soph!" Horan gasped, dropping the wrench and immediately rushing forward.
"We need the team doc, now," Sonnett demanded, her voice cracking as she and you practically dragged Sophia into the stairwell.
"Doc's upstairs," Horan said, moving to take your place under Sophia's arm. "I've got her. Let me take her."
You willingly stepped back, your arms screaming in agony as the weight was finally lifted. Horan and Sonnett began to carefully navigate Sophia up the stairs.
You slumped against the wall wiping sweat from your face. You looked down. Lily was standing right beside you, her small hand still firmly gripping the hem of your jacket.
You had made it.
Miller stepped past you, her hand resting briefly on your shoulder. "Good job," she muttered.
As you followed the group up the stairs, the sound of voices grew louder. You emerged from the stairwell into a wide, well-lit hallway that looked like an upscale hotel corridor. Doors lined both sides, and groups of athletes were standing around, talking in hushed voices.
As you stepped out into the hallway, holding Lily's hand, the conversations abruptly stopped. Dozens of eyes turned toward you. They weren't looking at Sonnett or Sophia they were looking at the stranger covered in dirt, blood, and carrying a gun, holding the hand of a seven year old child.
You stood up straighter.You didn't know these women, and you didn't care about their trophies. You were just trying to survive.
Summary: Prodigies appear in all areas of football
"Alright," Chloe says as she slips into her seat at the breakfast table, buterring a slice of toast absentmindedly," Who does the kid belong to?"
A piece of bacon hangs from Beth's mouth and someone jokingly gags. "Kid? What kid?"
"She's not a kid." Alex is the one that speaks, slipping into the only empty seat left and placing her plate down.
"Then who is she?"
"She's Sarina's protégé."
Beth scarfs down her bacon, washing it down with a quick swig of water before speaking. "Who...Are we talking about here?"
Lucy, who up to this point, had been silent, rolls her eyes. She jerks her chin over ot the small circle of staff that are sat at one of the far tables. You're wedged between Sarina and her assistant. The set piece coach is leaning over the table to show you something from his mountains and mountains of documents.
"Has she always been here?"
"Obviously not, Beth," Lucy drawls," But she was here when I turned up and I was the first one to arrive."
Leah leans back in her seat, head tilted all the way back to catch a look at you. She frowns as she settles back onto all four legs again. "I spoke to Sarina about her. She's like an intern or something."
"Since when has Sarina had interns?"
"She's not actually an intern, Beth. They picked her up from National League South. She-"
"So she's...what? A player?"
"If you'd let Leah finish," Lucy says with a laugh," You'd find out that she took a team fighting relegation to the top of the table."
"So...She's a coach? I thought she was a kid?"
"Sixteen," Leah confirms with a nod, head still tilted out to peer back at you.
You're leaning over set piece plays and Sarina gently moves your bowl of cereal out the way so your shirt doesn't get covered in milk.
"There was some video on the internet ages ago and, I guess, Sarina was impressed. I certainly was. The team is only semi-professional, of course, but, really, she had them playing like the best of them. Well oiled machine and all that. Sarina tracked her down or something. The FA are playing for her coaching licenses."
Beth's cutlery drops to her plate with a clatter. Thankfully, with all the noise, no one really notices. "Seriously?"
"Special case as well. She's sped through the FA Levels. She worked with the youth teams too." Leah leans closer, voice dropping. "This doesn't leave this table but..." She glances around, clears her throat and drops her voice even lower. "Sarina's had her waiting in the wings for a little while now." She raises her eyebrows pointedly.
"Meaning?"
"I'm pretty sure she's coming to the Euros."
"How-How long is 'a little while'?"
Leah shrugs. No answer. Not because she won't but because she can't.
There's been whispering before and, of course, she watched the video when it first came out. Somehow, you had a cute baby face even if you were screaming in the sidelines like you were Pep Guardiola, all passion.
Leah didn't want to think about how quickly Sarina must have tracked you down and snatched you up. There were talks every time the youth teams were called up about some mysterious kid on the coaching staff but seeing you here, now, and with the senior set up was the surprise of a lifetime.
Especially when she found out that the FA had a vested interest in you. Paying for your licenses weren't something that the FA did often, let alone send a request to UEFA itself asking for special dispensation because of your age and the requirements.
You shift a little and Sarina pushes you bowl back into your view and you scarf it down, still looking through the little book the set piece coach had gifted you.
Leah watches it all, finally dragging her attention back to the table. Lucy doesn't though, Leah notes. Lucy keeps watching you, brow a little furrowed. Perhaps in confusion. Perhaps in shock.
She keeps watching you even when you're dragged to your feet, a half peeled orange in your mouth while you hastily pull your England kit jacket on and follow Sarina and her staff.
"The Euros, huh?" Lucy's words are barely intelligible, low and under her breath like they're not meant to be heard by anyone else. "Must be a very smart kid."
You're everywhere now that Lucy knows to look. You linger during set piece practice, you keep to the edges when the defender's train in a group, when the midfielders practice, when the forwards shoot on goal, when the keepers practice saving shots. You're off to the side when set pieces are called. You're right by Sarina's shoulder when the whole group comes together.
You're silent most of the time, offering up a few questions here and there, even fewer orders when you're prompted to give them. But you're writing. You're constantly writing in your little notepad. Lucy has no idea what but you're always scrawling something down.
Sometimes you linger a bit closer, eyes narrowed. Sometimes, she wonders if you can see something that she doesn't.
When she tells Sarina about her leg, about the break, you're in the room. Lucy wasn't sure whether she'd interrupted a meeting or if this was a weird mentor-student study session because a book of players is open on the table when she comes in.
You give her that odd look again. The one that makes it seem like you're assessing her, like you're factoring her injury into the grand plan you have in place.
"Kid's crazy smart," Georgia says in greeting two days before they fly to Switzerland. She practically collapses into her seat during dinner.
Leah looks up from her phone and Lucy pushes some mushrooms around her plate. "Huh?"
"The kid. Sarina's 'intern'." She uses air quotes when saying it, going along with the team's joke for your position, especially considering no one has ever really said what your role on the staff is. "She's like crazy smart. Insanely smart."
Lucy sighs, finally sitting up in her seat properly. "Alright, G. I'll bite. What do you know?"
"So I was in the lounge, right? 'Cause Less told me they had those biscuits in there I liked and the kid's there. So, like, I'm nice enough and she seems sweet so I went over, yeah? She's writing some crazy stuff in her workbook. All complicated algebra and stuff. Apparently, it's like A-Level stuff. And I was like 'aren't you supposed to be doing GCSEs'? And she's all 'oh! I did them at fourteen!'. Wicked smart."
Sometimes, it was hard to follow along with Georgia but thankfully, Lucy is well practiced at it by this point and actually huffs out a laugh. She flicks a pea across the table.
"She might be the smartest person here then. Might have to put her in contact with my Mum if she's into maths."
"Backup career," Georgia jokes and Leah joins in with the laughter.
The days pass and by the time it comes around to leaving for Switzerland, Leah isn't at all surprised to see you on the bus to the airport.
She swings an arm over your shoulders as you linger in the aisle.
"Y/n, right?" She asks even though she knows the answer," You can sit with me. G and Keira have got us a four seater."
You jump a little, like you're two seconds away from trembling like a fawn. "Oh, er...I-"
"It's no problem," Leah insists," You're like the youngest person here. Wouldn't be doing a good job at being captain if I left you out, huh?"
"I...er...Don't think captaincy extends to staff?"
"Who says?" She winks," I won't tell if you don't."
That's how you find yourself squished between the window and Leah Williamson. There's a small table across from you where Keira Walsh and Georgia Stanway sit.
They're kind of a trio, you know that. Everyone knows that. The whole world knows that. You feel awkward to sit with them, let alone so firmly implanted between them, tucked into the window seat.
You practically jump out of your skin when Keira's foot knocks against your ankle. But all she does is offer you a friendly smile and pushes a cup of something towards you.
"Got you a hot chocolate. Didn't know if you're even allowed coffee."
"Hot chocolate is...good..." You say softly, drinking the scalding liquid just to stop yourself from making a fool of yourself.
"I saw that video of you," Keira continues," As that match."
Your cheeks colour in embarrassment. "Oh...That...Yeah..."
"Strong coaching," She says with that same friendly smile," Looked like an intense match. You really had a go at your striker."
"He's my cousin," You admit," It was his team. Their manager quit unexpectedly. He offered me up for that match."
"Well it looks like that's what he needed. Three goals in the second half from him. He was banging them in so quick almost thought he might beat Lewandowski's record."
Finally, you grin. It pushes through your embarrassment and you laugh. "I'm sure he'd love to here that."
Keira, you decide, is nice. Keira is nice and Georgia is cheeky and Leah is steady. You can see how they mesh together, how well they work, with each other, with others, with the coaching staff.
Keira doesn't press too much. She doesn't prod at things you would rather not talk about. She doesn't go on and on about how special you are like how some of the youth team staff do when you help them out. She doesn't sneer at you like some players on the youth team do. She smiles and she laughs and she slips you chocolate from the emergency stash you know she's not supposed to have.
"I'll take that," She says, hefting your carry on up onto her shoulder, knocking her other against yours as you drag your suitcase out from under the bus," Go on ahead. Less is getting a trolley for her and Tooney's cases. Yours should fit."
"Oh...I..."
"They're not going to bite. Go on, go."
There's a gap between you and most of the squad. There's Michelle, of course, but she's navigating this world in a different way to you. She's part of the team, part of the players. You're just staff. You're not going to hinder that for her.
But the age gap between you and the rest of the team is obvious. In everything. In their references. In their familiarity with each other. In the way your face still clings to your baby fat and you can't quite speak without tripping over your own words.
Your throat bobs awkwardly as your approach them both. They're fighting over whose cases are going on the bottom. "Er...Erm...Keira..." Their eyes snap to you. "Sent me over."
You wait, silent, rocking on your feet. More silence. They keep staring. You're sweating under your collar.
They exchange a look and you're about ready to high tail it out of there before Tooney's hand slaps against you shoulder.
"Of course she did!" She says brightly," Give me that. I've got it. This is incredibly light, you know? What have you got in here? Feathers?"
You wince a little and try to smile. "Something like that." This is your first trip abroad. You didn't want to overpack.
"Tooney can push for us," Alessia says breezily, an arm over your shoulder like Leah's was a few hours ago," So, you ever been to Switzerland before? I haven't. Are your family coming to watch?"
"Er...No and no? They all have work, you know? Busy. Busy."
"That sucks," Alessia says, her face dripping in sympathy," Not even on days off? You can come with my family if you want?"
"Oh, I couldn't-"
"Less' brother just had a baby," Tooney cuts you off smoothly," Or, I guess, his wife did. But there's a new baby. You should meet them."
"Oh, er-"
"My dad's side of the family is Italian," Alessia continues. Her arm migrates from your shoulders to link through yours. "We're all for more people joining. You're a little quiet but don't worry-" She winks teasingly," -Us, Russos are talkers."
You don't know how they get you to agree but somehow you do. You're roped into Russo family days off when you have time and Alessia's already squaring it off with her parents before you can blink.
Tooney and Alessia talk a lot. You're squished between them all the way up to boarding the plane. You finally, finally get respite again when you're sat between Michelle and Esme on the plane, both of them respecting your fraying nerves and need for silence.
You exchange smiles with both and settle in for the trip.
The first match is a bit of a distaster and you can do nothing but sit there and watch, shifting ever so slightly as you scrawl things out in your notebook and make little marks of your thoughts.
You don't speak on the way back to the hotel, trapped in your thoughts and your notebook. One name is circled and starred.
You don't expect an early night. You don't even think you were going to sleep regardless but it's not shocking nonetheless when you're redirected into an emergency meeting of the coaching staff.
You thought you were meant to be here in a purely observational role, out of the kindness of Sarina's heart even if she was the one kncoking on your Dad's door that day with video evidence and an offer.
But here you were, standing in this meeting like you were meant to be here, like this was your actual job.
"Y/n," Sarina says and you have to fight not to jump.
"Yes?"
"What did you think of the match? Any observations?"
"Er..."
Her face softens a fraction and she nods encouragingly at you. You gulp, taking a steadying breath.
"Michelle has to be your super sub." You say the words with conviction, with authority and Sarina's brow raises. "I know everyone's expecting it to be Aggie and I'm not saying she wouldn't be a great choice because she is but..."
"But?" Sarina prompts and there's something in her eyes that you can't name. Like she's proud of you or something. You must be imaginging it.
"But it has to be Michelle. Purely from a preparation standpoint."
"Go on."
"Everyone will be expecting it to be Aggie. Everyone will have been or will be preparing for it to be Aggie. Or, at least, they'd put the most effort into Aggie. Alessia's your number one, people know that, but Aggie's high output at a high level." You reach for your book, tucked into your back pocket and clear your throat. "Everything is must win for us now and the others in our group know that. Our tactics have started to be picked apart and they've been picked apart since the world cup. We need to do something unexpected, something that will unsettle them. Michelle's untested, yeah, I know, but she's got that spark. We need her."
You fall silent suddenly, your voice catching in your throat and going weak.
"Or, you know, that's just my opinion. It's probably-"
"You're saying, if we're in control of the game, we go with Aggie. If we're out of control, Michelle."
"Er...yes..."
"That's a great idea."
"It...is?"
"Good going, kid," The assistant coach claps you on the back," Knew you had the right instincts in you. Maybe this calls for ice cream as a reward."
"I'm not twelve."
He shrugs. "Your loss."
You're still not quite sure what your role is here. No one's really explained it to you other than Leah jokingly calling you Sarina's 'intern' which you know to be a joke but can't quite work out what she means by it.
The joke must have spread to the whole team because that's how Alessia introduces you to her family too. Sarina's intern. Special, apparently.
"Learning under Sarina, huh?" Alessia's father, Mario, seems kind of fun, you think. He's got laughter lines all over his face and he looks at his wife like she hung the moon and the stars. He looks at his kids, Alessia and her brother Luca (the third you think is on Love Island right now, if Tooney's scandalous gossip is to be believed) like they're the sun. "How long have you been working with her?"
"A little over a year."
Alessia presses an ice cream into your hand with a smile, bumping your shoulders with a smile. "Sarina's really been keeping you hidden, huh?"
You manage to return her smile, relaxing only a tad as she rejoins the table. "I've mostly been working with the youth teams."
"You must be doing well though," Mario says. Alessia must have got her smile from him. "You thinking of going into coaching?"
You play with the seam of your shirt. You look at your ice cream. It's melting a little. It's exactly what you wanted though, with the same toppings your dad always get you when you go out with him. "Er...Yes."
"The FA have been paying," Alessia picks up easily," I think...Actually, which one are you working on right now? The C license?"
You've never said it out loud before, even during that meeting you had with Sarina.
"I've got my C license," You say, conviction in your voice that wasn't there before," I'm...er...I'm finishing up my B actually."
Next to you, Alessia's smile melts off her face. Replacing it, is an open mouthed staring as she looks at her, eyes wide in shock. Across from her, Luca frowns, still feeding his baby.
"I thought you had to be eighteen for that," He says.
You wince a litttle. "Special dispensation," You explain," I don't really know but the FA had to submit documents to UEFA and I have permission to do my licenses with less barriers."
"That's impressive, sweetheart." Alessia's mum isn't the only one not staring at you in shock, a smile still on her face as she sets a drink in front of you. Some kind of slushy that you just know will dye your tongue purple after you drink it. "That's a lot of pressure though, isn't it? I hope Less has been helping you relax. I always said, you know, it's a shame Less never got to be an older sister. She has the instincts, you know?"
"Mum!"
"Oh, calm down, Lessi. What about you, sweetheart? Siblings?"
"No." That's a lie but you don't want to put a damper on this day. Your cousin is kind of like your brother, you guess. But he's still your cousin and already an adult so not really.
You don't actually know your brothers. They're a lot younger than you and probably have no idea who you are considering they live with your mother and you don't see her at all.
They were your brothers in blood and that was probably it. Not like Alessia and Luca and the elusive Gio.
"Adopting her, Carol?" Mario teases his wife and she bats at him with no force.
"I'm just saying that Lessi might want to swoop in on that."
"Mum, I don't think that's how siblings work."
"Bah! You're so young, you think you know everything."
"I'm...You know what, whatever. Come on, y/n, I see cookie dough with our names on it."
Four times the ball hits the back of the Netherlands goal. It's what the team needs to still be in with a chance. It might be a blessing in disguise, you muse idly, as you pile onto the bus after the match, to get the most difficult game out of the way first. If anything, it's motivation to keep going on, to keep fighting.
It would be embarrassing for the title holders to get grouped so easily.
You find yourself sitting next to Lucy on the way back this time rather than the four seater with Leah, Keira and Georgia. Still the window seat, still trapped in.
But Lucy smiles at you, leaning over conspiratorally even though you're the only two sitting here. "So, your notebook. I have to know, what even is it?"
Your cheeks grow hot and you're happy for the low lighting because it means she can't see how red they've gone. "Just...observations, you know? Noticing stuff."
"Does mine have notes about how strong I am?" She jokingly flexes," Because I am, you know? The strongest here."
That shocks a laugh out of you, it's barely more than a huff but it's there and Lucy's whole face lights up like a Christmas tree.
"And make sure Georgia's note say she smells. Because she does. Have you taken a whiff of her boots yet? Makes me queasy just thinking about them."
You giggle. "I'll have to write that down."
"And remember to make a note on how Keira snores. Because she does. That's important."
"It is?"
Lucy nods adamantly, that grin still on her face. She peers over the back of her seat for a moment before turning back. "Alex can't work blenders because she says they're too complicated and Tooney might still have her mum doing her laundry."
There's six different goalscorers during the match against Wales, Tooney being one of them. Sarina doesn't actually have to do much coaching. Instead, she sits next to you on the bench and looks through your notebook.
She nods occasionally. Sometimes her brow furrows at what she reads. She laughs at the inclusions you've added about Keira's snoring and Tooney's laundry.
You work with the set piece coach. You work with the assistants and the specialised coaches. You shadow one of the psychologists for a few hours then the nutritionists. You watch endless film. Again and again and again.
And you still feel useless as you watch Sweden score twice. Full time creeps up on you slowly. Nearly seventy minutes gone. You watch the clock. The bench is in disarray.
Sarina's started pacing and you finally stand, hands shaking a little. She hasn't called for you. She's probably forgotten that you're even here but you can't just sit there, sielnt and waiting for the inevitable.
"S-Sarina?"
"Hmm, yes? What is it?"
"I...I think we need to make some subs. Michelle needs to come on. We need to bolster our defence a little but if we want a chance, we need to throw on some more attackers. Michelle needs to be one of them."
"Tell them to warm up. Beth. Esme. Michelle. And..."
You glance at the bench. "Chloe? Maybe? We need another impact sub. We get those three on now and then her?"
"Get them all warmed up."
Chloe assists Lucy's goal and Michelle grabs her own in the dying minutes. The air's knocked out of you as the bench celebrates. Someone, Grace perhaps or Niamh, shakes you brutally at the celebrations and extra time begins. England wrenches control back from the clutches of defeat, forces a penalty shootout that you can't watch but force yourself to.
Now that the team is in the semi-finals, there's not really days off. Just recovery. But you're not a player and you've found yourself truly folded into the staff now. You know your role, kind of...sort of...maybe.
What you do know is that you have a role to play, responsibilities and the like. But Sarina still lets you sleep in after all the celebrations last night.
Which is why it's so difficult to drag yourself out of bed at the insistent knocking on your door. You peel it open.
"What's with the bed head?" Leah laughs, easily slipping through your cracked door," Did you just get up or something?"
Behind her, Keira and Georgia squeeze through too. They're holding snacks that they're definitely not meant to have as they lay about your room.
"Er...yes."
"You know what they say about teenagers," Georgia says with a laugh," Always sleeping."
"Don't be mean, G," Keira says with a laugh and a soft shrug. She pulls you with her over to your bed where Leah's already made herself comfortable, squeezing you between them both and opening a bag of pretzels, waving them under your nose until you take one. "I think this teenager has earnt her rest."
You eat a pretzel.
Leah scrolls aimlessly through your tv channels, brow furrowed half the time before she finds the Netflix app and logs herself in. A mindless movie is put on, one of those movies that follow an exact formula and is the same as a handful of other Netflix made movies that all blend together in your mind.
You didn't usually watch movies at home. Dad was always busy. Always at work. He'd leave the house before you woke up and he'd come back only a few hours before you went to bed. You could count on one hand how many times you'd sat down with him to watch a movie.
They weren't really things either of you were interested in. The tv rarely got put on when the two of you were together. It just wasn't something you really did with each other.
But this is nice, you think. The movie isn't really interesting and it's definitely not a cinematic masterpiece but it's basic and easy and the company is even better.
Leah heckles the screen even though the actors can't hear her. Georgia keeps bursting into laughter at moments that really aren't that funny and Keira keeps cajoling you into taking more snacks from her.
The knock on your door comes halfway through the second movie, some cheesy romcom with an actor you recognise from somewhere but can't name just yet.
"G, grab the door," Keira says.
"Why do I have to get it?"
"Because you're the closest?" You laugh and she waves a teasing finger in your direction.
"You can't defeat me with logic," She says but stands nonetheless and pulls it over. "Alessia?"
"Georgia? What are you doing here?"
"Movies. What are you doing?"
"This is y/n's room, right? I have the right room?"
"Just let her in, G!" Leah hollers just as the main leads have yet another argument that could easily be resolved by communicating properly.
Alessia slips into the room, drinking in everything. The seat that Georgia has returned to, kicking her feet up onto your table. Leah on your left with control of the tv and Keira on your right with a bag of chocolate buttons that are already extended out towards you. You, sitting in the middle of the bed with your hand already buried in the bag.
You're smiling.
Alessia smiles too, hefting a box under her arm and placing it at the foot of your bed. "Mum sent this for you."
"Your mum sent me something?"
"You made quite the impact," Alessia says with a laugh," I voted we kick Gio out the family and let you take his place but Mum said there was enough room for you anyway." She started opening the box, pulling out various snacks and drinks and a pair of fuzzy socks with floppy dog ears. "And I know you have a coat but, honestly, your coat is a little sad looking and I checked the brand and it's not even waterproof."
"It's summer," You point out weakly as Alessia pulls a waterproof jacket out of the box.
"Summer storms are a thing," She continues," So me and Mum went out today to get you a new one."
"You didn't have to do that."
Alessia throws it at you with a grin and it lands right on your head. Georgia laughs as Leah ruffles your hair over the material. You stick your tongue out at her as Keira pulls the jacket from your head.
"I know," Lessi says, settling at the foot of your bed casually," But I did it anyway."
"Thank you."
She shrugs. "Now, what are we watching?"
You only manage to get through the second movie before your alarm goes off and you head off to the staff meeting Sarina arranged last night.
It's a lot of what you expected and you linger in the background in silence, shifting your weight from side to side. You nearly bolt out the door when it's over but Sarina calls you back, waiting until everyone else has filtered out to speak.
"You need to be more assertive."
"I...Huh?"
"Yesterday's match had me thinking," She says," You delayed talking to me about the subs. You waited on the bench even though you clearly wanted to speak up beforehand. You have good ideas, you know that right? But you can't wait until the last minute to tell me them. Alright? If you have an idea or you think I'm doing something wrong, you need to tell me."
You shift awkwardly. "You're...kind of my boss though. Isn't that...I don't know? Disrespectful?"
"I'd find it more disrespectful if you didn't speak up." She sits down at the table with a sigh. "You have great instincts. You have great knowledge and tactically, you're sound. I watched you with the youth teams. When you speak, you're usually right and that isn't something that happens every day. But you need to assert yourself. You need to speak up. With me and with the team. I can't promise to always use your ideas but I do want to hear them."
You sink into the seat across from her.
"I know that I'm asking a lot of you and I know that I've been asking a lot of you since we met. But I keep setting expectations for you and you keep meeting them quicker than anyone has been execting." She sighs again. "Your only weakness is not speaking up more. I want your ideas because they're good ideas. And the team will want your ideas too. So, tomorrow at training, I want you to take the reigns for a few drills. The team will respect you regardless because that's who they are but tomorrow, I want you to give them a reason to keep respecting you."
You don't remember the person that recorded that video of you last year. They'd posted it as an attempt to tease you as a 'look at this shitty club so bad they've got a kid managing them, hahaha' but it didn't actually have that effect on the internet.
It wasn't even a proper league game, just a little tournament set up that had an actual reward other than bragging rights, an all expense paid dinner and drinks at the pub that had randomly hiked its prices up out of nowhere so practically none of the locals could go anymore.
It was your cousin's team and he had been adamant about getting it, something about wanting to be able to take his girlfriend (now fiancé) out at the place they had first met before proposing. He had asked and you had agreed.
You don't even know why it went viral. All you really knew was a week later, Sarina Wiegman and a represenative of the FA were knocking at your door and offering you the chance of a lifetime. They saw something in that little clip. They saw something in you.
Your Dad was worried about the cost. They offered to pay for everything. The cost of the courses, the cost of your travel, bed and board during international break when they wanted your services.
After that, it was weeks of paperwork and special permissions and then suddenly you were folded into the youth team's staff, bouncing between the teams every so often as you were awarded your C license.
Sarina appeared and disappeared at will during your time in the youth set up, talking to other staff members about young players, about you. Then, she had called you up at the start of the year. She wanted you to stay with the U-23s for the time being but she was prepared and willing to bring you into the senior team setup for the Euros.
Now, here you were, yelling out instructions to the senior players like you used to do for your youth players. Giving instructions and making corrections and pretending that your heart wasn't beating out your chest with every word you spoke.
Lucy claps you on the back during the drinks break, a grin on her face. "Congrats," She says with that cheeky smile that says she's about to say something that you're not expecting.
"For...what?" You ask warily and Lucy wiggles her finger in your face, tapping your nose.
"Wouldn't you like to know?" She teases before her arm is thrown over your shoulder and she dramatically pretends to go weak-kneed, leaning her full bodyweight on you. "I mean, it seems like it was just yesterday you were struggling to grab your suitcase off the bus!" A dramatic hand presses against her forehead. "So young. So innocent."
"Laying it on thick, are you, Lucy?" Is Keira's dry response. She stands in front of you both, arms crossed over her chest but a small smile on her face at Lucy's absurdity.
"Don't tell me you're not proud too, Kei? This little sweetheart's moving up in the world!"
"Of course I'm proud, Lucy," Keira says with an eye roll," But that doesn't mean you're not laying it on thick."
You glance between them, brow furrowed. "What's...going on here? What do you know that I don't?"
Keira and Lucy exchange a look that you can't decipher as Lucy ruffles your hair.
"You'll see."
And you do see but only after the rest of the day. A day full of people grinning at you and nudging you and congratulating you. Leah ruffles your hair like Lucy did and Georgia breaks out the biscuits she swore she wasn't going to open until after the match against Italy.
Alessia practically lifts you into the air and spins with you in her excitement. Of course, she almost trips over her own feet while spinning and would have fallen with you in her arms had she not gone careening into Tooney, who had the unfortunate job of keeping you both upright.
The day gets even stranger when the whole team practically stalks you to Sarina's office. Beth's the one that gets them caught but only because she tries to peer at you from behind a wall and falls flat on her face, pulling both Grace and Hannah down with her, and the team abandons all pretence of doing this secretly.
You're beaming when you step out of Sarina's office, face flushed with pride and you give a shriek when someone (either Chloe or Niamh) pops a party popper right as you step through the threshold.
Sarina laughs behind you. "Alright, girls," She says warmly," Let's not get too carried under with these celebrations, alright? We've got a match coming up. I don't want tired legs on that pitch."
Later, when everyone else has calmed down and you're just heading to your room to turn in for the night, Alessia grins at you.
"We'll have to celebrate when we get home," She says to you, nudging your shoulder with her own," A B license is unheard of at your age. Me, you, my family and yours. We'll have to find a way to celebrate."
Your face flushes a little in embarrassment. "We...really don't need to," You say weakly," I mean, it's probably going to be expensive for all of us, right?"
"I'm paying," Alessia insists," You're not going to pay on your special night."
"Are you...sure?"
"Positive."
Somehow, England is in the final.
A two-one victory over Italy with Michelle and Chloe scoring the goals and Sarina clapping you on the pack with pride at how much more assertive you've become with her.
Spain are the other team in the final but you had kind of been expecting that. They'd been in form ever since their world cup win. You knew they weren't going to be letting this opportunity pass them by.
But before all that, you have a rest day. Or, kind of a rest day. The team has a rest day. You have half a rest day and a meeting before dinner to get to.
But most of your day is spent outside in the hotel garden, splayed out on a patio chair around a little table with some of the others playing cards.
There's a lull in the game as Leah reshuffles the cards. She was adamant earlier that Georgia was cheating somehow, something about a false shuffle and card counting so she's taken over the shuffling now even though Georgia kept denying it.
They're across from you with Lucy squished between them as if she was the barrier that kept Leah lunging at her friend.
You're wedged between Keira and Alessia, staring down at your phone. It's lit up, your screen full of the groupchat with your dad, uncle and cousin. Your Dad sent a picture of the three of them watching the semifinal, thumbs up and smiles wide.
"They can't make it?" Keira asks gently and you look up at her in shock, wincing for a moment.
"Yeah...Couldn't get the time off. I'm not...you know."
"Sad? It's okay if you are. You are part of this team, you know. You're allowed to want your family there."
"They're busy."
Leah starts dealing the cards.
"I'm sure they would be here if they could," Alessia says from your other side," And I'm sure they're all feeling terrible that they can't be."
You make a non-committal noise and reach for your pile.
You do the pitchwalk the day of the final with the rest of the team. You don't really know why you're doing it considering you won't actually be on the pitch but it's kind of fun so you do it anyway, clearing your mind of any nerves that infect you.
Lucy captures you the moment you come out of the tunnel, arm draped over your shoulders as she steers you directly towards a group of the Spanish girls.
You recongise them, of course. Mainly because they're all famous but also because you've been studying their film for hours until it made it feel like your mind was melting.
"Y/n, this is my girlfriend, Ona. Ona, this is y/n. She's Sarina's intern."
Ona Batlle cocks her head to the side in momentary confusion. "I didn't know managers could have interns."
"I'm not an intern," You grouse good-naturedly and Lucy laughs, squeezing you a bit tighter as she does so.
"And this is," She dismissively waves her hand," Everyone else. I'm sure you know who they are already."
"Feeling the love," Patri Guijarro mutters and Lucy rolls her eyes. They twinkle with mischief.
"Well, you know, Ona's the important one here."
"Bah!" Patri jokingly bats at her and you smother down your laugh.
You make the completely wrong move of turning your head to look at the rest of the circle. Both Putellas and Paredes are watching you with narrowed eyes like they're trying to place you somewhere so you look away quickly. Aitana is, of course, Aitana Bonmati and she greets you politley while Mariona Caldentay beams at you just as Leah and Alessia appear behind you, exchanging a hug with her.
Suddenly, Paredes snaps her fingers. "I know where I've seen you before." You wince, your mind immediately going to that video that everyone knows you from. "You help coach the England youth teams. I've seen you in the back of highlight reels." She frowns. "You look a lot younger in person."
Lucy laughs. "She looks her age in person," She corrects," Sixteen."
"Sixteen?" Paredes' whistle of awe is low and long.
"Sixteen and with her B license." Lucy brags like she's your Dad or something, puffing out her chest and ruffling your hair.
Putellas, who had been silent up until this point, perks up. "Really? Already?" She looks at you a little differently now that Paredes has placed you.
"Special dispensation because of her age," Lucy continues to explain," After the Euros is over, the FA are paying for her A license. Then her Pro license after that. If everything keeps on track, she'll be fully qualified before she's nineteen."
"You've kept this one hidden then."
"Funny, we said to the same to Sarina during camp. She really blindsided us with this one."
In faux-casualness, Putellas looks at you. "Have you thought about your future as a coach? National team? Club?"
"Hey! No poaching!"
"It's a genuine question!"
"A genuine question if it came from anyone but you, Ale! You cannot poach my future manager."
Putellas laughs at that. "Are you still going to be playing when she becomes a manager?"
Lucy puffs out her chest. "You know I will."
"I might decide not to call you up," You mutter dryly and that shocks laughter out of Putellas. She holds her hand out to you. You shake it.
"I like you," She declares," I'll have to look up your coaching resume before warmups. You must be good if exceptions have been made for you."
"I...Thanks?"
She grins at you. "Don't thank me. Lucy was right. I am trying to poach you."
Spain score first in the match. You'd expected that. They had some of the best players in the world and they'd dominated practically the whole competition. You'd expected them to score first. But you couldn't just let them run away with the game now.
"The medics are worried she can't continue," Sarina whispers to you and her assistant coach when LJ goes down and struggles to get back up again.
"Sub her off," You say," Chloe can go on in her place."
"Or we can wait?" The assistant coach offers," Let them treat her off the pitch and see if it resolves itself?"
"And put us down to ten against a Spain thirsty for that second goal? They'll find an opening quicker than we can patch it. Sub LJ off. Put Chloe on. We can't afford to let them get that second."
Sarina nods. "LJ off. Chloe on."
Your knee bounces incessantly on the bench during the second half and breath a sign of relief when Chloe gets the assist for Alessia's goal.
"Right choice," You mutter," It was the right choice. Right choice."
You mark the Spain's coach decision to sub Putellas off for Pina as a terrible one. Not even a bad decision, a terrible one. If you had been in control of Spain, their lineup might have been slightly different and there was no way in hell you would ever be subbing Putellas out for Pina, not when you knew how dangerous their linkup play could be.
A terrible decision for Spain might have just cinched the England win.
The penalty shootout makes it feel like your heart is in your throat even though you had literally done this drill with the team just yesterday, when you had sat with the penalty takers and described their strengths and weaknesses at taking penalties, when you had explained what way they tended to go and which way the Spanish team would be most expecting.
You stand between Sarina and her assistant coach just as Chloe's ball flies into the top left corner.
The noise that comes out of your mouth sounds like you're underwater. You can barely hear it over the rush of blood in your ears, the cheering from the crowd, the eruption of emotion from the rest of the staff.
At some point during the celebration, Chloe crashes into you, waving a fake stern finger in your face. "Top left," She laughs," Top fucking left! Just like you said!"
Somewhere along the way, Lucy grabs a hold of you. She ruffles your hair and throws you over her shoulder to spin you around until you're light headed.
Keira and Georgia share you at one point, one hand in each of yours as you jump up and down to the music, shouting out the lyrics with the crowd.
"England manager!" Leah yells over all the noise," Alright? You're going to be my fucking manager in a few years, alright?"
You laugh. "I don't think that's quite your decision."
"Why the hell not? Why do you think the FA's been paying of your courses, huh? They're lining you up for when Sarina steps aside. Mark my words, you're going to be the England manager and I'll be playing for you."
"Oh, come off it, Leah."
"Just you see."
It takes a while for Alessia to find you after the medals are handed out and the trophy lift. Somewhere between all of the celebrations, Alessia helps you up to the stands where her family sits.
You'd tried to hang back, to give her that time with them herself but she insisted on dragging you along.
You greet her brothers warmly, recieving claps on the back from them and smiles you can't even begin to understand. Then comes her parents. They both give you a hug and then...
Her family parts and you burst into tears.
"Dad?"
"Hey there, sweetheart. You didn't think we would miss this, would you?"
Over his shoulder, you can see your uncle and your cousin and you nearly fall over your feet to hug them.
"The Russos really went to bat for us, you know," Your Dad says as he holds you close and you sob into his shoulder," They weren't taking no for an answer. As if we wouldn't find a way to support you wherever we are."
"Dad," You whisper.
"Yeah, sweetheart?"
"We won."
"I saw."
"No, like, we won. And I helped to do that. Like, I actually did help. I didn't just sit back and let things happen. I...I helped."
Your Dad chuckles as he holds you just a little tighter. "Of course you did. That's why you're going to be the best manager in the world."
You wipe your tears away with a weak chuckle. "You're getting ahead of yourself."
"Nah, you're just not putting enough faith in yourself."
"You think so?"
"You just helped England win the Euros. At sixteen."
Sarina, you think, has a similar thought because she pulls you away from the celebrations before you walk in, fresh faced from your shower and in a new set of clothes.
"Here you go. Straight from the FA themselves. I told them I wanted to be the one to deliver it."
You stare at the paper in shock. Your tongue darts out to wet your lips. "I...Didn't think I was qualified for this. My age, you know?"
Sarina just shrugs. "It's a split role, of sorts. I want to keep you in the senior setup. You can't be my assistant coach properly without your A license. The FA won't budge on that. That being said, I told them I want to keep you on my staff and they've compromised."
You stare at the paper in your hands. A dual role.
"You'll remain....The assistant to my assistant for the senior team as and when we need you. When we don't need you..."
"The under-seventeens."
"They have a need for a new assistant coach," Sarina shrugs," You think you're up for the challenge?"
You grin. "I think you've more than prepared me for it."
Seventy minutes into the World Cup semi final England was behind 2-1. The team was putting their everything into getting a goal back to level the score, and have a chance at going to the final, but France was not making it easy on them.
After Ella managed to intercept a ball in the midfield, your team was able to switch the attack. You rushed forwards in the middle of the pitch, making yourself available for the cross. Ella passes the ball out wide to Chloe, who curls the ball in nicely. Your first touch is great, but the moment you want to shoot the ball, one of the French defenders blocks your shot right back into play for France to be on the attack again.
You let out a frustrated sigh, before running back down the pitch to help out there. Luckily their attack didn’t come to anything, and you were able to build up again. Play went back and forth for a bit before you had some open space that Alessia managed to send the ball through. It landed perfectly in your stride, but you leaned just a bit too far back and watched the ball soar far over the net.
“Fuck!” You yell into the air. You needed that goal, why couldn’t you get it into the back of the net? As you run back past Alessia, she holds out her hand for you to high five as you move past, you tap it lightly with your hand. Showing that you appreciated her ball in.
Going into the nineteenth minute, the score still hadn’t changed. Four additional minutes and then it would be over. The whole world cup, everything you had been fighting for, but you couldn’t give up yet. Four more minutes of fighting, trying to get level to keep the game going.
Jess puts in an amazing block on the backline, and turns around the French attacker. One quick look up, and she sees you high up with some space to run. Without a second thought she sends the long ball your way.
With the pressure of two defenders right on top of you, it was a struggle to get the ball down well, but you tried to wiggle your way out from between the two of them. With some fancy footwork, you were able to kick it just far enough ahead of you, that you could get away from them.
Your eyes look up to the goal, and before they are back on your tail again, you kick the ball with all the power you stil had left. Right at the goalkeeper. The only chance left and you hit it right at the goalkeeper. Another set of curse words rolled off your tongue, most likely being streamed all across England, but your mind wasn’t on that now. You might have single handedly ruined England’s chances at the final with how many attempts on goal you managed to bottle.
The ball gets thrown back into play, and then the referee blows the final whistle. England gets knocked out of the World Cup. You fall to the ground with tears instantly springing into your eyes.
As you lay with your back on the grass, you punch your fists down on the ground a couple times. The previously loud crowd around you fully disappears when you dissociate from the whole thing.
Jess, who had run across the pitch the moment the final whistle blew, was quickly sitting by your side. She lifted your back off the ground, and pulled you into a tight hug. She didn’t need to say anything, this loss was weighing deep on the both of you.
After sitting like that for a bit longer, Jess helps you up when someone from staff asks if you’re ready for a post match interview. She gives you one more hug, squeezing you tight before she lets you go.
Your eyes are still watery when the reporter starts the interview. “Not the end result you were hoping for, how difficult is this one to take?” She asks, jumping right in. “It’s a tough one for sure, we are very disappointed that we don’t get to continue in this competition. We had a lot of missed opportunities, most of which were probably mine.”
Your voice shakes, as you’re trying to hold back tears. “I take responsibility for that, I had three really good opportunities, but couldn’t quite finish them.” The reporter nods and continues on. “How was France affecting the game play today?”
With a brief throat-clear, you answer the next question. “Yeah, a lot of course. France is always a strong team, they were really good on possession today. I think we managed to hold up to their playing standard quite well, just in the final third they were the better team today.”
You lock eyes with Jess who is waiting behind to the sides, her presence calms you down a bit. Obviously you would rather be anywhere else besides holding a post-match interview after being kicked out of the competition. When the reporter speaks again, you move your eyes back to her. “Alright, thank you for your time.” You nod and hand the microphone back, before walking straight back into Jess her arms.
The two of you make your way over to the team huddle. And after a quick speech from Sarina, the team walks around the pitch to thank the fans for showing up. Once the round was done, one by one everyone trickled into the tunnel and towards the locker room.
Jess saw you walking into the tunnel with one of the physios, so she expected for you to be a bit longer. Instead of joining the rest of the girls in the locker room, she waited in the hallway for you.
About ten minutes later, the physio walked out, but you weren’t following. She smiled at Jess, “She just needed a moment.” She says softly while walking past with a quick hand on her shoulder. She decides to give you a couple more minutes on your own, before she softly knocks on the door and enters the room.
The second Jess enters the room, she knows something is wrong. Your breathing was very fast, but shallow at the same time, like you couldn’t quite catch your breath. She quickly closed the door behind her and walked your way, knowing exactly what was happening. “Hey, it’s okay.” She says as she sits down on the physio bed with you. “I’m here.”
You were sitting with crossed legs on the physio bed, back leaning against the wall. Your eyes were glassed over, almost as if your mind was not in the same room as you. With your jersey bunched up around your fist, your hand holding it so tightly that your knuckles have turned white. Your chest is moving up and down rapidly. Jess had seen you like this more times than we would like to have, but her experience with you having panic attacks helped her with knowing exactly what she could do to help you.
“Can you look at me?” Jess said, turning around on the bed to face you head on. After blinking a few times, your eyes finally found hers. You didn’t say anything yet, and Jess didn’t rush you, she just continued on. “Good, now breathe with me okay.”
“In.” Jess breathes in deeply and you try to follow her. “And out.” She takes a long breath out. It takes a while before you actually manage to follow her breathing pattern, slowly but surely your breathing is starting to even out though.
When you’re starting to calm your breathing down, you’re able to let go of your jersey. Your hand instantly reaches for Jess. Who takes it in hers and starts rubbing her thumb over the back of your hand.
Jess noticed you still weren’t fully out of your panic attack, so she moved onto the next thing now that you were breathing better. “Five things you can see?”
You force yourself to take a deep breath and look around. “You, bed, posters, trash can, cooler.” Jess squeezes your hand on every one that you list off. “Very good, now four things you can touch?”
“The bed, your hand, the air conditioning, my jersey.” Jess nodded along, liking that you were starting to say more. “And three things you can hear?” You close your ears to really listen. “The air conditioning, the fans, and my breath.”
“You’re doing great. Can you name me two things you can smell?” You are almost there, but Jess wants to go through the full list to be totally sure. “The lotion, and your perfume.” She smiles at that answer, knowing you’re fully present again. “Lastly, one thing you can taste?? You nod and smile, “My gum.”
“There’s my girl.” Jess says proudly. You respond by leaning into her and letting her hold you tight. She presses a long kiss to the top of your head. “Do you want to talk about it?” You shake your head and cuddle further into her. “Not now.”
After sitting together for a while, Jess holding you and rubbing circles on your back, you look up at her. “Thank you.” Jess shrugs her shoulders, “No need to thank me, you know I’m always here for you.” You smile and nod, “I do. I love you.” Jess pecks your lips, “I love you too.”
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