#literallystaan

[abcsofadhd]

Honestly a big part of not being diagnosed yet believing that you might have ADHD is that you can’t trust yourself. Your memory recall tends to be bad so you can’t remember where you struggle more often than not.

And when you don’t struggle with something that you’ve struggled with before. Like the fact that you could do assignments this term but last term you couldn’t?

Thinking that you’re lying to yourself is hell. Don’t sell it short

[literallystan-an-adhd-person]

One of the hardest things while dealing with adhd, cause that’s the only thing you can do with adhd, is the fact that society just doesn’t seem to fit with you.

Or rather you just don’t seem to fit into it. Try as you might.

Your memory tends to be bad. So you end up losing important items, or items that you need to even just feel alright like the charger for your phone, headphones, headphone charger.

You will not believe how many times I have misplaced my glasses, I’m even still missing a pair.

You also tend to be quite volatile emotionally, one second your completely fine. Having just watched a really cool movie.

Next you’ve just lost your headphone charger because you cleaned your room earlier and were focussed on eliminating the mess on your bed.

Not where you put that mess.

Now because you can’t control your emotions you’re having a mental breakdown over a charger and everything just comes spilling out.

The fact that you can’t tell you grandfather no to those driving lessons you don’t want to do cause you don’t want to deny them and look like a complete asshole?

Thanks for that rejection sensitivity.

Or how about the fact that you can’t seem to take a fucking break from society some society.

You can’t remove yourself from responsibility, chores or dealing with stress because society won’t fucking accomodate you and all you know is stress!!!!!

Sorry, I’m tired, hungry, thirsty and I’ve just had a breakdown over the fact I can’t find my headphone charger.

That I don’t want to do driving lessons.

And I’d rather just sit at home in bed or on the couch and rest then go anywhere.

[abcsofadhd]

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[abcsofadhd]

Is it weird of me that now that I’m on break from school that I seriously miss the purpose and activities that I gave me. Now that I’m not on school I kinda feel... without purpose, restless. I don’t know what to do with myself. I think I’m about to become quite depressed with myself honestly.

Nope. It’s very very common with ADHDers.

ADHDers have issues with internal structure so can thrive with external structure. School has an external structure. We havta go to classes, where we can see our friends, and there's external accountability.

Without school, we have to push ourselves.. which is HARD.

I remember the summer holidays used to be so difficult to me.. cause I would have nothing to do. I didn’t know how to motivate myself so I just got more and more unstimulated.

And chronic lack of stimulation can lead to depression in ADHDers.

[abcsofadhd]

6:30pm

Me: ah yes, the perfect time to sit down and read... I’ll just sit down and read a chapter or two

Me: *looks up after what seems like just sitting down for 30 minutes* H-holy shit it’s 5:15am

Me: *closes book to complicate reality* and this isn’t even the book I was reading when I started!

Me: *looks at the pile around me* this is like my fifth!

[abcsofadhd]

[abcsofadhd]

The biggest Hyperfixation I’ve ever had was Minecraft.

Particularly me taking the time out of my day to put the effort in and build a castle on a multiplayer server.

I spent most of the school lockdown in Queensland building it. So I had a lot of time. But I never actually finished it, which is a shame.

But nonetheless I hyperfocused quite a bit, between gathering the materials, watching the tutorial and actually building it. It took up at least 100 hours of my time.

Before that my Hyperfixation was playing Stellaris. I Hyperfocused into playing 1000 hours of it over a significant amount of time.

The only thing that ever stopped me was school, but even then I was thinking about it.

My most recent Hyperfixation is... well I don’t particularly have one right now. The most recent one was actually building a giant wheat field in minecraft. I think the next one might be a medieval village.

Just before and around that time also I had a very brief Hyperfixation in relation to nuclear reactors, how they worked. I was particularly interested in Breeder reactors.

[abcsofadhd]

Hey friend, me again! In relation to the time blindness aspect of adhd and how people with it are... well, time blind. In what way is that? Because I understand that it’s some sort of concept y’know. Like it’s a number on my phone that ticks by and sure the earth spins causing the sun to go ‘down’ and ‘up.’ But that’s pretty easy to understand as it’s just really basic math and science. Is the time blindness kind of just to the point where we focus on something else that we don’t notice or...?

Heyo again, lol.

Well for a direct source, I’d recommend watching this video of Dr Barkley explaining the concept of time blindness. 

And this post by CHADD.

The concept is difficult but I think the best analogy would be.

Non ADHDers have a ticking clock in their heads. Every second of every minute of every day, they hear the tick tock. As such, even when they’re not actively focusing on it, they have have an intuitive grasp of the passing of time.

We don’t. Our clocks stop the tik tok noise when we aren’t paying attention. It’s still ticking, but we can’t hear it.

As such, we have trouble understanding the future. For us, who knows how many tick tock away that is?