#lockdown thoughts

[are-soul]

Should I ?

do acid 

get drunk 

dye my hair burgundy 

go vege / vegan 

move to Europe (not France)

move to Melbourne

make a instagram post 

get a full leg sleeve 

back piece? throat piece?

get new teeth 

learn to budget

stop smoking?

[cute-ace-mess]

things I wanna do after graduating

hnnng lockdown got me thinking againnnn

I wanna: 

- get more piercings (snake bites esp.) 

- dye my hair! 

- get a corset

- get an undercut maybeeee

- go to cons!

- maybeeee do camp usa (depending) 

- tattoos! 

- I mean getting into uni would be nice...

- beauty and the beast (or at least more shows with DVS)

- go into the city againn

- change my pronouns...? 

[jadedalicia]

29.07.2021// that’s two and a half months in lockdown. I’m missing my family. I’m not even particularly close with my family hut I want to be sitting around a campfire with them talk shit and drinking wine. I want to be seeing the beautiful landscape of the Hunter Valley. I can’t complain about my situation, I live in a beautiful place with people around me and I am very fortunate but I see what is happening to my friends just because they don’t want to get jabbed and I see them loosing their jobs and falling into poverty because of where they live and it makes me so angry. It’s is every person choice and no one should be treated any differently because of where they live in a city. The government is being discriminatory and their rules are becoming arbitrary. I’m so mad at the people leading this country and I’m just becoming more angry as the days go on.

[jadedalicia]

07/08/2021// Week 9 in lockdown is complete. I’m getting the point where I miss other people and having the freedom to go wherever I want whenever I want. I have no right to complain. I live in a beautiful home, I have a job, wonderful housemate, friends who make an effort to call and text. I can go for a walk if I want. Vaccines are limited but I can still get one. While I have no right to complain I wish I could go to work in my office everyday. That I could see my beautiful friends. I’m just sad now.

[jadedalicia]

24.07.2021// “if I suffer for you, will you love me?” Is the title of one of the chapters of the book I’m reading. The book itself was suggested to me by a psychic I saw a few months ago. She knew I would need to hear the things it had to say. This photo of me and my sister the reason it’s here is because it represents us. We were the middle children. Always screaming at each other and always screaming for our mothers attention. There was four of us. We went through a lot as kids and most of us came out of it okay. We love our mother but when it comes down to it our essence growing up was “if I suffer for you, will you love me”. It makes me sad thinking about it. I don’t want to suffer so someone will love me. Give me sunny winter days with my family, not the family I was born into but the family I choose. Give me afternoons with people who love me because they want to not because they have to. Give me the freedom to scream in the Chinese garden of friendship because I’m happy not because I’m sad. Just let me be free of this cage that keeps my heart captive. Let me love.

[jadedalicia]

18.07.2021 // boredom has started to set in now. The days blur together and before you know it it’s the weekend and you don’t have work to keep you busy. The weather is changing rapidly day to day. The sun was out today which was a welcome change. Algebra has my head spinning and I’m not sure if I’ll pass my tests but at least the sun helps. I miss the freedom to go outside and where I want to. I understand the government is doing their best so I don’t protest but my alcohol intake is going up and my exercise is going down. Vitamin D, help me please.

[jadedalicia]

12.07.2021// It rained over the weekend and then became sunny again. I can’t enjoy the weather because I have to work from the home office due to covid running rampant through Sydney city. Everyone’s blaming everyone for the fact that we’re locked inside. Only one person can leave the house a day. I haven’t changed my clothes in days. I’ve stopped caring how the couriers may perceive me when they come to pick up documents from the house. I think maybe I’ve stopped caring generally. I fill my time with study, books and sunsets.

[nrxza]

I swing between hating lockdown and never wanting lockdown to end