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Patterns

We were like the waves and the beach

Crashing into each other over and over

But, yet never remaining together

We continue to drift apart

We were nothing

Our love like a shipwrecked boat

Destined to never go anywhere

But still we try to fix it

We go on and on like this

Building our ships, only to wreck again

On the same shore as before

Fighting an endless war

I wish I could break the pattern

I wish I could move on

I wish I could not be jealous

I wish I could not love you

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Slipping Up

I caught myself looking at you again today.

I’ve been doing it more and more everyday.

At first it was just quick glances.

But lately I’ve been taking chances.

I’ve been staring at you.

As if you were still new.

I know there’s no hope for you and me.

But you make my heart say please.

I’m not supposed to feel this way.

But I know it’s because you promised to stay.

And I caught myself slipping up.

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First love(r)s

What is love?

Does anyone truly know?

I thought I knew when I met you.

I fell fast and I fell hard.

Every time your name lit up my phone, I smiled and my heart would skip a beat.

But here’s the thing, I’m not sure if I did love you.

Because if I did, then I wouldn’t have done what I did.

I wouldn’t have messed it all up.

But you didn’t really love me either, did you?

You don’t abandon someone you love.

You stick by them no matter what, even after it’s over.

I think I’m finally starting to understand what love really is now though.

And not because of you.

It’s because of him.

The one who in the short time he’s known me has seen more of my crazy than you did.

The one who, despite all that crazy, has never left my side.

The one who makes me forget everything that’s wrong, and remember all the good things.

The one who lifts me up from my darkest places.

The one who doesn’t even know I love him.

The one who is everything you weren’t.

Maybe he is my true first love.

While you were only my first lover.

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I wander around in this world we call life

Constantly searching for something

Always trying to find the love I read about in fairytales

But life isn’t like a fairytale

It will give you nothing at all for days, months, even years

And suddenly, you find yourself surrounded by many choices

Do you go left? To the one you already know?

Do you go right? To the one you want to know?

Do you go backward? To the one you loved before?

Or do you go straight? To the one who will never love you?

Which way is the right path?

I have been lost in this maze a time or two before

It isn’t something I would like to do again

But how do I know which way to choose?