"Oh is that a necklace from him too?" She cut your sentences with another question, she pointed at white gold necklace with Hangul alphabets; Jung, as his family name. It was a gift from him. One thing that she didn’t know, Simon bought you another diamond necklace but you barely touch it. You love this simple necklace best, it’s assuring you that Simon loves you, he wants you to be his. Yes, you still wore his necklace even if you told him to break up with you. You just can’t unlove him, he hurt you but love was still there.
Looking directly at her eyes, you tried your best to not get angry by every single shit that she tried to feed you.
"I think he's rich enough to buy you a diamond necklace just like what he bought for me back then.. instead of those toy.." again, she heartily mocking you, "it could be because he doesn't love you that much? Awww~ poor little girl~ he probably only wants to play and have fun with you~"
That’s it. She had enough, it’s your turn to fight her. Maybe pulling her hair and land your beautiful sharp paw on her face could be appropriate things as respond? You clenched your fist tightly, holding back your anger to not explode in the public. You were inside one of high end boutique and you didn’t want to harm your own pride, dealing with Simon’s unashamed ex-girlfriend. She never worth anything from you.
You looked at her eyes without saying anything then turned back your heel, leaving her dumbfounded on her spot. You walked to the cashier to pay your dress so you bring yourself from her bullshits, you were tempted to punch her but you immediately threw away your thoughts. Violence was never a wise solution to anything.
Was Simon really love her? Was Simon has guts to cheat on you with that kind of girl? You started to doubt your impeachment on Simon. She really has a bad attitude, rude and act like uneducated human. Simon couldn’t be in love again with her, it must be true when he said he only love you. She’s jealous because Simon defends you, if they’re back together she wouldn’t confront you and try to humiliate you. If Simon chose her then why would she act like you’re her rival? That’s the answer. She’s jealous and she wanted you and Simon to be separate.
Just when you handed over your dress to the cashier, you heard a furious step approaching you. You decided to not pay attention as you dug your bag, searching for your wallet to pay your dress. When you succeed to find your wallet, you saw Lady Jane took your dress from the cashier counter and shoved them to you, you caught your dress in fast response and looked at her in disgust. What did the hell she does?
She put a lot of dress in cashier counter and shot a death glare which you didn’t even care, “your cheap dress can wait.” She rolled her eyes and faced the cashier lady, “wrap them for me.” She proudly smirked as she handed her credit card to cashier lady.
And you stood there in urge to strangle her neck inside your mind.
After in a moment, the cashier lady processing her card and said in poker face to Lady Jane, “Your card is cannot be used, Miss.”
She gave another card and the cashier said the same thing, “This one is also cannot be used.”
Then you giggled freely without coercion. What a dumb girl!
“Honey?” your mom peeked in through your door which was jar opened, unintentionally snapping you from your thought about meeting Lady Jane two days ago. Your mom was standing in front of your door with her motherly smile.
“Mom..” you smiled at her.
“Are you okay?” she walked closer to you.
“I’m okay, only my heart isn’t okay.” You chuckled, trying to make fun on your bitterness. You wished the pain goes away but it wasn’t, it’s still there and creating a hole in your heart.
“Did you talk with your dad?”
“Yeah, are you here for talking about it too?”
“No.” she smirked, causing you to raise your eyebrow.
“And then?”
“Just checking my beloved daughter and let her know that Kiseok is here, down stair in the living room.” She ruffled your hair and playfully taped your cheek, your mom always treat you like baby.
So he’s here, he really keep his promise to win you back.
“Mom.”
“It’s okay,, honey. I already told him that you want to be alone, I asked him to leave though. But he promised he will come again tomorrow.” Your mom explained. They said mom is always the best when it comes to understand her children, indeed, your mom is one of the best moms.
She looked at you who didn’t say anything, “Do you want to talk to him?”
“Is that okay?” you found yourself hesitate. Was it the right time to talk to him? You can’t avoid him forever, even if it would have different ending you still needed to talk to him and solve the problem like adult.
“Would you be okay, honey? I mean, I can help you to kick him out if you’re not ready to meet him.” your mom looked worry.
You gave her firm nod before answered in confidence, “I think I’m ready.”
You were sitting on the edge of bed with your fluffy pillow on your lap when you heard whispering voice outside your door. It must be him. You shifted your position and control your breath, calming yourself. Simon should be the one who feel nervous, not you. Five minutes ago you told your mom that you’re ready to talk to Simon.
The door opened and you saw Simon standing few meters from you. He looked skinnier than before, his sharp jaw line became more noticeable, along with his eye bags but it didn’t diminish his charms. And you hate the fact that he still has effect on you.
Both of you locked each other eyes for moments before he murmur, calling you.
“Hey..” his deep voice broke the silence between you and him.
“Why are you here?” you couldn’t help but glared at him, showing your unfriendliness. But Simon didn’t find it offending. He walked slowly approaching you.
“baby..” he called you again this time with the endearment that both of you knew it’s your favorite.
“don't baby me— we broke up.” You cut his sentence, not giving chance for him to show his affection towards you or else you would give in so easily.
You clutched your fluffy pillow even tighter when he reached your spot and sat beside you. His eyes were looking at you and your soul as he speak, “we are not, I didn't say yes on your one side decision.” His voice so calm and not demanding, there’s no hint of anger or displeased tone.
“Then I'm the one who want to break up with you, accept that.” You shot him a death glare before stood leaving your spot, but Simon quickly grabbed your wrist.
He gently spun you to face him and held your shoulder, “NO. We got together by our agreement, we share mutual feeling, and we'd break up when both of us agree to do so, not when you want it by yourself. You're still my girlfriend.” Now he back to his authoritative voice, sending you shiver under his spell.
“Don't be ridiculous.” You discarded your shoulder from his hands, taking few steps backwards. Simon’s expression looked hurt by your response but he didn’t want to give up on you.
“It's because I love you.” He said loud and clear, making your heart jolty.
He noticed you froze on where you stand then approached you, you stood still when he reached your hands and held them firm but in gentle way so you wouldn’t feel hurt. His eyes were searching yours, and once you caught his eyes he began to say, “Listen, baby.. I can't do anything with my past even if I want to. Everything just a past, I'm no longer get affected by them, that's me.. That's what happened with me in the past when I was not your boyfriend. But the most matter from now is us, the present.. you and me. If I want you then it means you, all of you.. I don't want anyone else. It's only you from the beginning and I don't need to choose you than anyone. I need you and I’m nothing without you..”
He pulled you closer and put his arms around your waist, “I swear I didn’t do anything with her, and I already warn her to leave us alone. I told her I love you so she will stop bothering you, I’m sorry for hurting you but I won’t do it again. Give me chance and I’ll prove it to you, baby come on..”
You didn’t say anything but staring at his eyes, there were a lot of emotion hidden there. Part of you wanted to believe him and give him another chance but the other part got scared what if he wouldn’t fulfill his promise and hurt you again. Was he worth for you to fight for?
You put your hands on his forearms and shook your head. No.
Simon’s face change into sour when you pulled yourself away from him, he felt your rejection.
“Tell me how to change your mind?” he murmured when you glimpsed his tears welled up.
“No.” your voice croaked. You wanted to sound firm and cold but your voice betraying you.
He nodded weakly, trying to understand your choice, he knew he hurt you so bad and there’s no room for him in your life. “I know I made a mistake since I’m not perfect.. I can’t promise that I won’t hurt you, it will hurt either you or me, love always one package with tears and pain. But I can promise I’ll make it worth, your tears, our pain.. it’s worth it because no matter what will happen, I’ll be there on your side. I can promise you that we’ll make it because I love you. It’s worth it because we have each other.” He paused for a moment before continue, “but I know, not everyone deserve second chance. And I guess that’s me.” He gave you bitter smile then slowly cutting the gap between you and him, now he stood in front of you, “Please be happy, I know I don’t deserve anything from you but please be happy. I wish there’s no more tears on your sparkling eyes.” He slowly raised his hand to touch your face but he stopped when it almost touch your cheek, “I’m so sorry.”
He dropped his hand and walked out from your room, leaving you alone. Once you heard the door clicked as he closed your door from outside, you cried out your sadness from your lungs. Sobbing hard while you hug your knees tightly. You hate him for hurting you, yes you did. But realizing he wouldn’t push you to accept him was really painful. That’s what you wanted but why when he gave it you still feel not happy? It felt thousand times more painful than before.
Simon gave up on you.
He let you go.
He walked away because you told him so.
No. No way! No!
You got up and ran out from your room, climbed down stairs in hurry to chase Simon, “Oppa!” you called him, but when you reach living room you find nothing, except your mom.
“Kiseok already left, honey.” Your mom said in apologetic face, she must feel bad because she saw you cry.
He left?
You nodded in defeated then went back upstairs to your room, you didn’t want your mom watching you cry. He left, Simon left because you didn’t want him back. Your tears won’t stop when you drag yourself to your room, you bit your inner mouth to stop your sobbing.
What you’re going to do now? You cried again and sobbing hard in your way to your room, but then your sob stop when you saw, “Miss me already?” there he was, leaning on the wall beside your door with his warmest smile.
You sniffled lightly while processing what really happened right now, he’s here. Simon was still there, he didn’t leave you. “Oppa—” you looked at him confuse, then you realized your mom lied to you and Simon probably heard you cry like a baby, wailing like crazy.
Simon walked to you with his big grin, he literally couldn’t stop grinning like an idiot, “It’s need fifteen minutes to let you figure it out what you really wanted.” He opened his arms when he stood right in front of you, “And I’m really happy you want me back.” With that, he shared the warmth from his body with a bear hug for you. He hugged you really tight as if you would disappear while you said nothing but buried your face on his chest, enjoying his warmth and his heartbeat. His heart beat so fast and you felt he kissed the top of your head over and over while chanting the words, “I'm fucking love you.”
You felt happy in his embrace, he was right. He might make mistake, you might hurt him too but that’s all relationship about. He’s worth it, so your love for him worth it too. He wants you as much as you want him.
“I know, you love fucking me too.” You mumbled against his chest, hiding your red face when you said that words.
He pulled away to look at your face, “Geez— Can you not—“
“What? You fuck me and you love me. What’s the difference?” you looked at him, challenging.
He shook his head in disapproval then chuckled, “That's not what I mean, you bad girl. Since when you become a pervert like this?”
“But that’s true, you fuck me so many times.” You didn’t care your face was still damp from your tears, screw the drama and the tears, you missed your playful Simon, your Simon.
“Can you just let me be a romantic gentleman instead of imagining dirty things?” he asked you with his horny eyebrows, his face looked annoyed but you knew he’s not upset, he was in his best to resist something from his inside.
“Can you just kiss me already? I miss you like hell.” And he didn’t need to be told twice.
“My pleasure, baby.” Then he slammed his lips to yours like there’s no tomorrow.
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For those of you who don’t know who pro-era is have you been living under a rock or something??!!. No seriously this lyrically ill Hip-Hop collective is killing it in the rap game right now- bringing a new spin to the hip-hop culture not only with their music but also with their killer style. Some of the members are :Dirty Shanchez, Kirk Knight, Rokamouth, Dyemond Lewis, Nyck Caution, Dessy Hinds, Poweres Pleasant, A La Soul, CJ FLy,Joey Bada$$ and the late Capital Steez. They use a mixture of 90’s flow, Caribbean content and of course that lovely Brooklyn swag to entice the modern day listener.
It's clear to see that this group of men are products of (what many argue to be the best era of Hip-Hop) The Golden Age of Hip-Hop. This age of music began in the 1980′s and lasted through the 1990′s. Any true fan of Hip-Hop knows that when you were born in such an era of great music you naturally are influenced by the greats- like Rakim, De La Soul, and The Notorious B.I.G just to name a few- you are going to be influenced. However, some listeners think that the collective has been using the Golden Age of Hip-Hop as a crutch to deliver their consciously ill lyrics. Regardless of their influences they still have an original sound and content that resonates with the masses.
This dope group has been on the grind for a while and have been putting in work which lead them to being a popular name in the music industry.They came from humble beginning of your regular cafeteria and after school cypher to now headlining shows all around the world. This group is eccentric, creative & timeless- yes I said it timeless.
Joey Bada$$ was the first from the collective to step up and make a name for himself at the tender age of 17. He released his debut project in June of 2012 cleverly titled “1999″ with all of his pros on it. They continued grind and continued to amaze people with their skills by creating their first project together- PEEP: The Aprocalypse December 21st 2012.With Joey’s success with his “1999″ project many people started to become familiar with the young lyricist and with PEEP: The Aprocalypse audiences began to know the true meaning of Pro- Era. This mixtape unfortunately became one of the last times we heard the late Capital Steez rap with his brothers on a project due to is untimely death the day before Christmas- December 24th 2012. Some thought this would be an end of an era.. Pro-Era but the collective did not let this hold them back.
Joey surpassed expectations and went to release a free album named “Summer Knights” the first day of July in 2013. This album some high profile producers like Dj Premier and Statik Selektah. His fellow pro Kirk Knight of course was ready to help Joey Bad on this project providing him production on songs Alowha, Right On Time, Satellite, and tribute song LongLiveSteelo.
The rest of the collective over the years continued to release their own projects as well. These solo projects include: Cj Fly with his project “The way eye see it” , Powers Pleasant with his project “Experience Powers Pleasant” , “Late Knight Special” by Kirk Knight and the Collective gathered again for another mixtape titled “The Shift”. Joey Bada$$ released his highly anticipated album “B4.Da.$$” -pronounced “before the money” which also cleverly resembles his name- in January of 2015. This album allowed Joey to reach a new audiences and gain new fans as well while still being able to provide his older fans with some new heat.
The collective has made big strides in the fight of making good quality music by providing listeners with music that has meaning and purpose. That purpose is to get people thinking for themselves and being conscious of not only their surrounds but of their inner being. One may think this different from the usual Hip-Hop we’re all used to and maybe even weird but we live in a world where music can make a huge impact on someone's life and can influence ones thoughts. Therefore, it is important that artist such as Pr-Era continue to provoke thought and question society. However, it is also important that we the audience continue to listen.
