Silver/Thomas: things you said that i wasn’t meant to hear :)
The party was a little too loud no matter where he went. Thomasfelt the bass thudding through the walls, vibrating in his ears, making hishead ache. He didn’t mind parties, but even this seemed excessive to him. Hetook a sip of his drink and kept wandering through the flat until he found theporch unlocked fortunately.
He stepped out onto the porch and breathed a bit of freshair. At last he could hear himself think. He took a sip of his drink.
Someone else was coming out and Thomas took a step to theside around the porch. He didn’t really want to talk to someone else, not rightnow.
When he risked a glimpse around the corner, Thomas was glad.The last thing he wanted to do right now was talk to Silver of all people. Hestood there in the dark, leaning against the ivy covered wall, listening.
He heard the sound of a lighter and a shark intake ofbreath.
“God, I needed that.” Silver murmured and Thomas took a stepback, pressing himself further against the wall.
There was a soft snort, and he knew Bonney was out there withSilver, probably bumming a smoke off him. He wondered how long they would stayout there.
“How much longer are you gonna do this?”
“Pretend like you don’t want him.” Bonney was curt as everand Thomas found himself frozen, both wanting to hear Silver’s answer and notwanting to at the same time.
“I don’t know.” Silver said at last. “When is theappropriate moment to tell your boyfriend that you want to bang his husband?”
From the casualness of his voice, Thomas would have said hewas joking, but he knew Silver better by now. From watching him with James,from observing Silver at the occasional social gatherings where their attendanceoverlapped, and the rare, but inevitable nights when James had him over tostay, Thomas had learned a dozen little things about Silver during those times.And now he knew from the lilting humor in Silver’s voice that he was fuckinglying through his teeth there on the porch.
Thomas let himself take a moment to work through whetherSilver was telling the truth in what he said, before he turned his attention towhat Silver had actually said. Boyfriend,that was James. Husband, that was Thomas. Which meant…Silver wanted him.
“You tell me.” Bonney said. “You should know by now.”
Silver sighed. “I never meant this to happen, you know. Iwas just happy James and I…” He made a helpless little noise of frustration. “Idon’t want to ruin things now.”
“Then don’t say anything, and eventually you’ll just die offrustration and lust.”
Silver snorted. “I’m not gonna fucking die because I want tobone Thomas Hamilton.”
“Dunno.” Bonney said carelessly. “They say he’s a fuckingtiger in the sack.”
“Who the fuck says that?” Silver said incredulously whileThomas bit back his laughter. He was not going to be discovered now.
“You get enough whiskey in Flint and he spills like ateenage girl.” Bonney snickered.
“That is quite the visual.” Silver flicked his cigarettebutt to the pavement below. Thomas heard him reach for the door. “Just how muchwhiskey is enough?”
The door closed and Thomas was alone on the porch once more.Well, so if he had interpreted things correctly, Silver was interested in him.After two years of dancing around each other and being polite and aware ofJames constantly between the two of them, here they were.
He took a final sip of his drink and turned his attentionback to the party, watching the figures move through the glass. As he walkedback inside, Thomas wasn’t sure how much longer he would let Silver wonderbefore putting him out of his misery. He only knew it wouldn’t be forever.Thomas still had to tell James that he wanted to bang his boyfriend after all.
