Hi!! So you got me thinking about s2 angst which means I'm here with a depressed tlg Ilya song for you to consider: The Kill by 30 seconds to mars...
(Thinking about how Ilya was scared he wasn't good enough for Shane and scared to show him how bad things were getting with his depression)
(Ilya was so tired of hiding, of not being able to tell anyone about Shane, about how in love they were. His isolation from everyone and everything was making his depression even worse, and in his mind, he was doing it for Shane. All he wanted was to be with Shane, but he couldn't do it in the way he longed for)
to be clear: Shane's fears were completely valid and Ilya wasn't communicating very well. I am not blaming Shane (or Ilya!), this is just Ilya's POV
NIRBY!!!!! THIS HAD MY JAW DROPPED omg erinlore i had a whole 30 seconds to mars phase in middle school (fuck jared leto tho) hearing this was like a blast from the past
jesus christ what a good pick!!! i already chose you, hollanderโฆ ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฌ ON GOD @ ILYA IN TLG ITโS GOING TO BE FINE!!! YOUโRE SHANEโS BABY HEโS NEVER GOING TO LET YOU GO!!!!
thank you for this one omg ๐ญโฃ๏ธ














