Dangerous Moments in Time
Have you ever met someone that you knew was dangerous? Not dangerous in the sense of causing physical or emotional harm. The exact opposite actually. There is a man from my past who I fell in love with. And I truely mean in love. This man was the real to life form of every love story ever created. With the exception of Twilight, that book was a bunch of stalker crap. But he... he was different. He was the first one who taught me that I am worth loving. That even though I'm different I am still amazing. He gave me the confidence to be me, to be the strong woman that I am...and to never let anyone's thoughts bring me down. Then he left. It wasn't by choice and I was never mad about it. I'm still not mad about it. It was what it was and we had to be done. But he disappeared. I was devastated, I didn't eat for weeks, I stopped writing. Writing is my passion... I stopped cold, I just couldn't anymore. After that I gave up on relationships and I was ok with that. There was no need for emotion, no need for love. After awhile I met a man. Who was so much like my knight that I fell in love again. My emotions came flooding back and the truth is... I fell in love and it has been wonderful. But I should have known how dangerous he was. I knew he was back, he contacted me once and I knew he was dangerous to me. So I never contacted him back. I also never answered his invitation. After all this time... one phone call, just by chance he happened to pick up the line. His voice... and it's all back. All of the emotions...everything he ever meant to me is back. And he is free...mostly. And now.... I don't know what to do. Everything I have created.... I haven't hurt like this in years... This man in dangerous but now that he's back and it hurts and I don't know if I want it to stop....or keep it