Sometimes you meet people and you know right away that person is goin to be the end of you. You, you were that person for me. the day I 1st saw you standing there in your lucky shirt smiling that smile that makes me fill complete I new, i just i new you would be the one to kill me. I use to bleave love could fix anything. as long as 2 people love each other nothing can keep them apart. I quickly lurned i was wrong. love cant always change somones heart, especially your heart. No matter how hard I try. people think I'm fine they think I'm handling it well. truth is im slowly dieing. thinking of the day I'll no longer here your laugh that makes my heart melt, the smile that gives me butterfulys, the perfect smell of roses water and cologne that make me fill at home. when that day comes nothing will stop the tears, nothing will stop the pain. no one will understand. no one will get it. "how can someone you never dated make you like this?" but they don't know you like i do. if they did they would fall in love to. they would undersand how much pain you can cause with just one look from your dark brown eyes. How you put so much of urself in the things you enjoy. how you love books and lurning. how sad you look when you talk about how much you miss your family. how passionate you are about movies. little things that make you, you. little things I'll miss more the iv ever had to miss anything in my life. I'll never ask you not to go. not that i dont want to scream from the roof tops DONT GO. but that i know you have to. I know you need to move on and live ur life without me. without this screwed up mess i call "us". it may have only been 8 months but they have been the best 8 months of my life. you mean more to me then words. then anyone ever has. love is a powerful word. and yet it has such little comparison. I always say until the end. but this time i wish more then anything there was no end. I know you'll move on and it scars me. I will no longer be your good morning kitten at 11. your how was ur day at 5. ur good night sweet dreams at 8. someone will take my place. and as much as it hurts thats ok. you happy is all i need... as long as i dont have to see it. I dont wanna see you with her. but i hope she's everything you ever wanted, dreamed of. i hope she wheres that short wedding dress. I hope u get that degree in Mandarin, your house in that little Irish Village when ur older. I hope she holds ur had As u rock on the porch watching the sun go down. and as for me ill miss you. you will forever be my always, I will forever be yours even when your not mine. but until she sweeps you off your feet. I'll be by ur side keeping your hand worm for her.