When I lost you it felt like a dream, no not dream nightmare. Nightmare that i wished and wished to wake up from. But no, this was no nightmare it was my new reality. A reality without you. One where i would have to relearn how to live. One where i new i would miss you. I soon learned living without you was the hardest thing i had ever had to do. But then just then and only then when i sank to my lowest. Where the water was just under my head he came and pulled me up. He lifted me up and dried my off. Telling me everything would be ok and that he had me. And held me close. I know its to soon and not right. But he is the only thing keeping me together and sain. Without him I'd be alone in this time of sadness. But he brightens my days more and more as time goes buy. He cares about me. i am scared, i still have all the what ifs. What if he is like everyone else what if he can't handle me? What will i do without you? It has been a months and a half. But time means nothing when someone means everything. You tell me you love me, but can i trust it? Is it like every time before? Where the I love yous were a pon? In a sad, sad chess game where the king turned to queen only to destroy her to win. Will you be the one king to not destroy me to love yourself? Can we really win this game of life together?
