#lover core

[manyluv]

[its-mint-to-be]

the thing about love is, its never really lost is it? even when you lose the person you love, and youre learning to heal and love yourself, thats just redirection baby!

the love isnt lost, it was never lost

its finding the way back to you

[gaythoughtdaughterblues]

afternoons like these>>>

[manyluv]

[alttits]

Im feeling an emotion i cant describe so im going to journal about it.

I love him so much but i cant let myself love him.

His eyes, his lips, his humor, his body, his love for me.

I love it so much

But i cant let myself think about him.

I cant let myself think about how i want to buy him gifts

I cant let myself think about how i want to have my dream date ive had since 6 years old with him

I cant let myself imagine us doing things together

I cant let myself remember cute little things he does

I cant let myself think about how much i know he loves me

I cant let myself trace out every detail of his face in my head

I cant let myself cry when i miss him

I cant let myself be vulnerable with him

I cant let myself imagine me in his arms

I cant let myself crave him holding my face

I cant let myself imagine us as adults with kids and pets

I cant let myself love him. I just cant

Im waiting for the day he gives up on me and hurts me.

Im scared my love

How do i let myself love you?