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[lordrenofthewest]

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Oh lord lol #notok #lol #omg #ren #loyalkid #kevantozan

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Friday, August 23, 2013

I'm absolutely LIVID right now.

What I don't understand. 

Two things:

1. When a person makes decisions for himself. EVERYONE and their mothers want to comment about how he's wrong and how they shouldn't do what they wanna do. because "in the long run" they won't be happy.

YOu don't know the whole situation. FUCK off. 

Seriously. Don't try to read into what is said as if you are a fucking psychologist. 

Get the fuck out if you say it's "tough love" because it's not.  Tough Love is when you're going through a rough time, but you still care for them, NOT bending what they say into something it's not. 

AND WHO ARE YOU  To ask who I am intervening YOUR Ignorance.??

Seriously, people like you make me so fucking pissed off. 

YOU are not being a good friend. I don't give a flying monkey fuck what you have to say about it. 

2. Depression

I GET IT. YOu're depressed. I'm trying to help you. I do everything I can to help you. I give you massages. I help out with YOUR kid. I even go as far as COOKING and CLEANING For you? 

And what do you do? YOU try to commit suicide. TWICE. Fortunately for me I was able to stop you twice. A child should not be without their parent. No matter what.

I'm just

I can't even.

you guys

HUMANITY really pisses me off in the state it's in.

People really need to stop 

ALSO

PATIENCE IS A MOTHERFUCKING VIRTUE

You canNOT be impatient when there's a PROCESS you have to go through before getting better.

I keep telling you take it one day at a time.

BUT YOU KEEP FUCKING THINKING ABOUT DOING EVERYTHING AT ONCE. 

STOP IT.

JUST STOP IT NOW.

I'm seriously close to just slapping you in the face for you being so STUPID and hindering your own family from continuing their lives.

I'm seriously tired. I have headaches all the time. I'm losing sleep. and for what? Because you're not letting the people who love you HELP YOU?

This is NOT why I left home for. 

I left to advance my life forward.

TELL ME HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT WHEN I HAVE TO KEEP HELPING OTHERS?

I need to help myself. And no one is letting me.

Seriously. And people wonder why i've become cold. 

I'm done. 

Hopefully the situation resolves. because I don't know how much more i can take of this.

[lordrenofthewest]

A song I wrote awhile back. I just uploaded it today on Youtube. If you like it feedback is appreciated :)

[kevthoughts]

Tuesday, July 16, 2013- Recap

I really need to remember I have an outlet.  But I digress, I just keep forgetting. 

Anyways, it's been a LONG gap since my last post. So let's see if I can patch up any holes.

Oh Lord, I suck at keeping up with these lol. Well, Let’s not waste any time, and let’s start with: Drama (the studies and just drama with people in general): I've finished my first semester of Drama! I gave a great presentation and got a good grade. I'm pretty sure I passed that class...  With my life, it's just been a nonstop emotional ride.  Having a lot of issues with my (ex)boyfriend, K.

We were together until last month. I decided to take matters into my own hands and completely sever the tie between us. I refuse to continue some type of relationship with anyone who doesn't know what they want. This time I mean it. I'm now very aware of what I want out of life, and it certainly isn't that.

I had issues finding a job, to the point my parents started to get annoyed with me. I tried explaining to them I really am trying, but parents. They never hear you. So, a few weeks ago I decided to move out, and Now I live in Florida, while my family Remains in Texas.

Upon moving out, my father and I clashed heads several times. I'm glad I have made the decision to leave. It has made things for me that much easier.

School: I'm Pretty sure I messed myself up for school.

I didn't attend any class except Drama. So i'm pretty sure the rest of my classes are fucked. I also moved, so we'll have to see where that goes. 

Love Life: For the time being, since about two months now, I have decided to have no Love life. It's far less painful, and much more satisfying.  While there ARE a few potentials that i Have met lately, I just can't seem to bring myself to get into a relationship anytime soon.

I don't even like to look at men anymore, I'm just slightly bitter towards the idea. General:  I've grown so much within the past few months.  I'm now a different person.  I got a message from an anon talking about how they hope I feel better.

And I do. I feel so much better.  I'm making decisions for myself finally. And that's the way It's supposed to be.

[lordrenofthewest]

This is my friendship with her. <3

Bestfriend: I wanted to cry but I had a mental collapse and started flopping around in the pool instead.

Lmao

Me: What happened to me... I used to not hate anything.

dafuqq yue?

Bestfriend: Meh. That's growing up.

LMFAO THAT WASNT ENGLISH, KEVIN.

Me: LOL

lmaoo

I CAN"T STOP LAUGHING

Bestfriend: hahahhahahahhaha

Me: I meant

Dafuqq Yume

Bestfriend: Hahahha

I was literally in my bikini top and basketball shorts, riding a blow up turtle floatie in the pool.

Me: lol

I can imagine that

Bestfriend: I had the pool cleaning net and was screaming "BUG HUNT BUG HUNT"

I started flopping around in the pool

Me: LMAO

OMG

WHY CAN I SEE THIS IN MY MIND??

Bestfriend: And I was like "WHAT YOU WANT TURTLE.YOU WANNA FIGHT YOU MAD BRO?"

Me: I"M PUTTING THIS ON TUMBLE

*TUMBLR. Fuck they're gonna judge me now

Bestfriend: Hahahhahahhahahahahha