bro i actually can't anymore
imagine BEING todoroki enji in the moment he realises that touya was holed up in that hospital for 3 years where he was taken apart and put back together again with other body parts that don't belong to him. that his eldest son was in a coma. the son that he wanted to go out an play to avoid more quirk incidents, was in a near death state for THAT long.
3 years is a crazy amount of time. especially in his teens ?? being a teenager is so fundamental to how a person grows and develops their own personality. but touya didn't get that chance. he woke up and he still thought with his 13 year old voice. touya didn't move on from what happened. he didn't grow from that self destructive mind set he had before the fire. he didn't get the chance. HE DIDNT GET THE CHANCE (i scream as the doctors drag me away)
how does enji feel when he realises this as his eldest son is screaming, crying all whilst trying to kill him just so his eyes can stay on him ?? im going to break my monitor, i swear -!!
how could enji begin to digest the fact that as touya is looking at him, half of his face isn't even his. how would he feel when he realises that touya stapled himself together so he wouldn't fall apart physically ?? how does he react when touya cries blood in front of him ?? his first born always cried no matter the emotion. imagine seeing that it brings him even more pain than before to express those emotions ? i'd be on the floor in a puddle of my own tears bruh </3
knowing that what kept touya going was the desire for HIS attention.. i'd be so devastated, and enji clearly is too bc bro froze up, but yk. its never gonna cover the real amount of emotional damage he got attacked with by dabis big reveal.
he had always loved touya despite his uh.. doodoo parenting and it's killing me how simple the solution to the whole situation before touya died was. just some more attention </3 bro could've gotten him support gear or something ANYTHING PLEASE-
