#lunacurse

[lloydfrontera]

No bc what the hell we get this in canon for free?????????

No bc what the hell is this out of context it's like a war or die scenario they're so silly 💀💀💀💀💀💀

LITERALLY LITERALLY LITERALLY THEY'RE SO DRAMATIC AND FOR WHAT

LOOK AT IT AND TELL ME IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE A CLIFFHANGER FOR A BL WHERE ONE OF THEM IS ABOUT TO GO OFF TO WAR AND JAVIER FINALLY DECIDED TO DECLARE HIS LOVE

i love it, it's so silly and fun and the artists definitely knew what they were doing there i know it i can feel it in my bones

[ask-collegestudent-billy]

Billy: I already told them about you and Nugget so don’t try to lie about it!

Lily: Ughh of course you did. Don’t suppose you told them about Kidd too?

Billy: Uh-

Lily: There’s nothing “complex” about it, you’ve been gay for him for ages, you just didn’t realise because you’re an idiot when it comes to Kidd.

Billy: liSTEN YOU DON’T GET TO TALK YOU’VE LIKED NUGGET SINCE 2ND GRADE-!!

[awkward-akutagawa]

@lunacurse

Go ahead! ❤️

-Mi

[lloydfrontera]

CRYING LLOYD AND JAVIER OUTSIDE THE DOOR NOVEL ART HAVE YOU SEEN IT

YEAH. YEAH I DID

OH MY GOD

i had already been screaming a fair bit about chapters 383-384 because it's just hit after hit after hit in these ones, but i wanted to wait until i had a free moment to properly get my thoughts down on this specific scene and Oh Boi. am i glad i did.

LOOK AT THEM. LOOK AT THEM AND TELL ME YOU DON'T GO A LITTLE BIT INSANE.

is in this chapter that we finally get a real glimpse to how lloyd is feeling about all this. he's faced down everything, he's overcome every obstacle that's come his way, he's holding everything together because he knows that if he slips up even once it's game over for everyone and he's done it all on his own with a smile on his face.

and then we get to this scene, which is right after a moment in which lloyd finally allows himself to realize how much he actually cares about his new family and then he sees a bran new way in which he's gonna die,,,

and he just breaks

he starts crying and sobbing because he's terrified, he's so afraid of what his future looks like because he doesn't want to die. he really, really doesn't want to die and he doesn't want to die in such a painful frightening way and he doesn't want to drag others into dying with him

and it's heartbreaking!

all through the novel we do see that lloyd isn't very fond of the idea of dying, like really, he's not that into self-sacrifice and he'd rather find another of solving his problems thank you very much. but it's not until this very moment, that it really hits you how terrifying his situation really is for him. how much pressure and stress and strain he's been under while looking for a way to avoid the restoration of fate all by himself.

and then it cuts to javier. listening through the door. javier who knows that lloyd, that this fake lloyd, has been hiding something for a very long time, who constantly looks the other way whenever there's something that doesn't quite fit the way it should, who has gone through literal hell and back for him because he follows him unconditionally,,,

and who now has to hear the person he trusts the most in the world break down alone in his room because he's terrified of dying but doesn't trust javier enough to show it in front of him. because for some reason he refuses to share his burden and lean on javier the way he's allowed everyone else to lean on him.

and javier is angry

he's angry because lloyd should tell him if he's afraid, he should tell him if he needs help, he should just tell javier so javier can do whatever lloyd needs him to do.

because that's his friend and his friend is stupid but javier won't allow him to go and do something stupid like dying.

that's what javier is for. to protect him. so he shouldn't be afraid of dying because that won't happen. and if it ever did, then it would be javier who'd die instead. if it was for lloyd... he'd be happy to do so.

but even as javier decides this he still has to hear lloyd cry all alone and it hurts

AND THEN THE NEXT MORNING HE TRIES. HE TRIES SO HARD.

he gives lloyd a chance to tell him! he asks and prods and tries to get him to tell him if he's worried about something, if he had a nightmare, if he's in trouble, he just!! tries so hard to get lloyd to trust him!! to lean on him for help!!

but lloyd refuses because he's so used to being on his own that now it's not only second nature but also a true belief of his that when push comes to shove he's on his own. that he needs to resolve all of his problems all by himself.

especially the restoration of fate. because it's his fault that it's happening in the first place. it his fault that everything is in danger so it's his responsibility to fix it.

he can't ask another person to shoulder the burden for him.

IT'S JUST!!! THEY'RE SOOOO!!! MMMGHHH!!! THEY GIVE ME A NEW MENTAL ILLNESS!!! I'M SOOO NORMAL ABOUT THEM I SWEAR!!

these chapters are so important for the dynamic they have until the end of the novel, these moments are how the rest of their relationship develops, this!!! javier wanting lloyd to trust him and to lean on him for help and lloyd refusing to do so out of guilt and a misguided sense of responsibility!! this is how it continues until the very end!! and it never gets resolved!!! bk moon answer for your fucking crimes!!!

anyway

as you can see. i am very normal about these illustrations :)

[lloydfrontera]

HELLO CHAPTER 82 LOVE LETTER SCENE OF JAVIER BEING SO IN PAIN AFTER LLOYD JUST DOESN'T CARE ABOUT THE LOVE LETTERS IS SO FUNNY NOW

HE'S BEING A HUGE BITCH I LOVE HIM BUT DAMN DUDE

THAT BEING SAID. OUT OF CONTEXT THIS LOOKS SO GAY LMAO

my man looks like he got his love letter rejected 😭

[lloydfrontera]

Thinking about how we have

Javier(generally from the webtoon)

Noviel(og knight of blood and iron)

Habiel(webnovel javier)

Wafer(possibly regressed but can't remember anything webtoon Javier)

This is too many Javiers how man Lloyd handle them all?

oh i'm sure he'll find a way don't worry about it

[lloydfrontera]

llojavi: totally normal dudes who cherish each other for being in their lives, and can't imagine a life without each other, two homies who consider each other's survival as top priority, and do everything in their power to help in any way they can, normal bro behavior✌️

also Llojavi: Javier "I can't believe you gave ANOTHER sword master your secret lullaby service????- eyes canonly being red and bloodshot unexplained if it's from either crying or not being able to sleep for the 2 months Lloyd was helping Alicia, promising to himself to ensure Lloyd will never cry alone ever again, "i know you think of me as your most trusted person, and yet, why didn't you tell me of what's troubling you, even up until the end?" And "even if you so much want to go back to seoul, I won't let you go, ever, I don't want you to disappear from our(me) lives" Asrahan

And Lloyd "i would rather die than see you sacrifice yourself for all of us" "the reason why i don't share my burdens with anyone is bc I don't deserve help since the reason why everyone's simultaneously suffering as bc of my existence itself" and "i want to keep you by my side like this forever" Frontera

Bc also like what the hell is this

I never expected a webtoon/webtnovel about an isekaid civil engineer to get me go

But here we are

they are so normal about each other and i am so normal about them we're all normal here :)

BUT LITERALLY WHAT IS ALL THIS

MEN WILL DEVOTE THEMSELVES TO THE HAPPINESS OF THE OTHER AND GIVE THEIR LIFES IN A HEARTBEAT JUST FOR THE OTHER TO LIVE AND IM SUPPOSED TO BE OKAY ABOUT IT

THEY ARE SO RIDICULOUS

their relationship is at the center of the entire novel, they are the slowburn, javier was the reason lloyd was isekai'd in the first place and it is javier that brings him back at the end

javier struggles so much to let go of his reticence to like lloyd but he can't help but be drawn to him, he can't help but to trust him over and over again, he can't help but start to think the world of him. if lloyd says so, then it must be so. and when he finally admits to himself that yes, that is his friend, and he likes him and he wants to protect him not because he's the master's son but because he's, well, him? he goes all in, he doesn't doubt even for one second to face heaven and hell to protect him, he wants to help him in any way he can and he's angry and frustrated and sad that lloyd doesn't let him

and lloyd. who is always working towards having an easy life. who's so tired and scared and who's been hurt over and over again and who's been given the chance to get the life he wants and has been working his ass off for years to have. and he rejects it because the cost would be javier's life and that is not even an option for him. he never even thinks about it, all his attempts, all his desperation, all of his efforts were always to save his own life. because to him javier's life was never in danger because lloyd wouldn't even consider the option of sacrificing him in the first place. he doesn't even tell javier about it because he knows that javier would try to die for him (and don't even get me started on lloyd thinking javier would only do it for the sake of the estate and his parents and not for him because he doesn't realize how much javier has come to care about him and oh my god-) and he can't allow that.

FUCK

i think people think i'm exaggerating when i say both of their life plans were to be at each other's sides for the rest of their lives and grow old together but i'm not. i swear this is explicitly said in the text.

they never even considered the possibility of being separated

they were going to be together forever just like they always were. casually. as naturally as breathing air.

[lloydfrontera]

wouldn't it be extremely funny if Lloyd acts lowkey flustered/starstruck when around Noviel, but absolutely acts casual around Javier, and everyone literally knows that this means Lloyd has a crush on Noviel but also the fact that it's just so obvious that he and Javier are a couple(tho they both don't know it yet), so the internal thoughts they all have go like;

Noviel: This man is a treasure, i will protect you and ensure you live happily no matter what it takes, and btw i know about your little crush on me, that's cute, but i know your heart has been taken, not by me but the Javier from this world....

Javier: How DARE- whoever the hell that other knight is, toy with Lloyd's feelings like this, at first i really didn't think he existed but to think that he never showed up at all the other times Lloyd was in danger, never being there when Lloyd needed support the most, and Lloyd's being too forgiving and affectionate for a man like that-

Lloyd: Man i have to be really careful about my actions around Noviel, and if anything happens, i know Javier would not hesitate to intervene, but until then, i can now utilize two javiers for a more efficient construction procedure-

the frontera residents: ah yes, local dumbasses that have emotional constipation and unbridled body language, what a joy to see the troubles of the youth😌✨✨

Bonus points if Noviel doesn't call Lloy "master" just to piss off Javier even more, but moreso bc Lloyd insisted on the two of them to be on equal footing, also forgive me for coming back i swear i can say more than just rant about this au znnxsnndbd

ASHJKDJKA NOT EVERYONE THINKING JAVIER AND LLOYD ARE ALREADY DATING KSJDAFL

that would be so funny oh my god like of crouse these two idiots are a couple just look at them. gay as fuck for each other both of them.

but then noviel arrives and suddenly lloyd is just. gone for this man. like he thinks he's being subtle about how cool and awesome and hot he sorta finds noviel but he's not. he really isn't. he just sorta finds himself looking at noviel and seeking his approval in what he's about to do at times, both because noviel does know more about the world than he does and because. well. he is the protagonist. he just has that effect, even on him. and he's like,,, really handsome. like a lot. javier is already lloyd's standard and this is javier but older. like honestly it's not even his fault y'know. and he can use them both for construction work this is gonna save them so much time and money-

and javier hateeees that, just absolutely despises it, lloyd has never once in his life sought the good opinion of someone, he barely tells javier his plans before they're already in the middle of following them and now suddenly this guy thinks he can just appear?? out of nowhere?? and change all of that?? thinks he has the right to give his opinion on their plans??? when he hadn't ever before helped in anything they went through before?? when they really needed the support?? who the fuck does he think he is?? javier is lloyd's knight, he is the one who is in charge of protecting him, he was the one who worked his ass off to keep lloyd alive, he fought monsters, traitors, a knight of hell and a bone dragon alongside him that's his best friend young master dammit >:[

he'd be so pissed off whenever noviel did even the smallest flirty remark because it's so clear he isn't serious about it, he's just having fun with lloyd's obvious affection and admiration for him and how dare he

and noviel just finds all of this sorta cute and amusing, because yes, he can tell lloyd sort of has a crush on him, and it's been a long time since he cared about those kind of things, but it is kinda adorable how lloyd sometimes follows him like a puppy and ask his opinion on what he's going to do and how easily he flushes the moment noviel flirts even the slightest bit back. so maybe he sometimes shows off a little more than what's necessary. just a bit. but like it's also obvious javier and lloyd have something going on, and he's not that much of an asshole as to steal his younger self's love so he's content with making lloyd blush a little with very simple gestures and support him in every way he can. and if it pisses off javier that's also a bonus <3

"the troubles of the youth" askjdka pleaseee y'know they are treating this as their own personal telenovela asjdads. it's so good to see their young master experimenting one of the more normal issues of life, after all that hard work he did to save the estate, he deserves a bit of romantic drama in his life. as a treat.

(god do you think there are sides, like some think that javier and lloyd are absolutely dating and it is so rude of noviel to be so forward with lloyd, like, javier is stanting right there smh. meanwhile other people think javier absolutely lost his chance for waiting too long and now lloyd has gone and fallen for a dashing mysterious new knight, so sad, so tragic, oh well these things happen. and then there's the very few people who think lloyd should just get two boyfriends and hurry up about it. like me <3 ahsdhkas)

HSADHKA NOVIEL CALLING LLOYD BY HIS NAME YES!! and lloyd coming from a culture where calling someone without any honorifics isn't something very done but still insisting on noviel just calling him by his name because he wants to be closer to him,,,, yeyeye i love that a lot <33

do not apologize i love this so much it's unreal!! i have so much fun thinking about this au (as you can probably tell kajskd), thank you so much for sharing it with me!!!