I’ve been connecting with people a lot online as of late - people I haven’t ever met in person, and people I have - but damn. Living in isolation during a global pandemic really, really fucking sucks. Adopting a cat has made a world of difference too, I’ll admit. But I desperately crave in-person companionship and it hurts. The only person outside of work I get to see is my brother, but that’s...just for a little bit at a time.
The thing that gets me too is that there really isn’t any fixing this. If I want to be responsible, I should continue socially distancing. And anyway, I’m so bad at meeting new people IRL. I hardly ever leave home, except for movies (pre-covid), work, or groceries. Dating apps are a chore and anxiety-inducing. I’m aromantic, or somewhere on that spectrum... Like, even if I’m seeking someone platonically, I shouldn’t right now. It sucks!! I just want someone to share my life with, in person. Someone to exist in the same space as me. sdbfsjdbfsdfbsdf Not gonna lie, I do feel a little bitter/jealous at people who have roommates, partners, family, and etc with them right now (granted those relationships are healthy of course). I want that so badly.