Summary: Steve needs him to stop Thanos, but you just can’t let him go.
Word Count: 596
A/N: GUESS WHOS BACK, BACK AGAIN
okay so i know i was supposed to come back in december i even made a hella cryptic post about it but so much came up and life was like “lol you thought” BUT NEVERMIND ALL THAT BECAUSE IM HERE NOW!! and instead of posting a chapter update i wanted to write something to kind of get me back in the game. I also couldn’t finish two other pieces that im really excited about, so expect those soon!
THIS CONTAINS NO SPOILERS TO ENDGAME, BUT IS A MERE REIMAGINE OF BUCKY’S INITIAL INVOLVEMENT IN THE BATTLE OF WAKANDA DURING INFINITY WAR
WARNING: sadness.
“Please, don’t leave me.”
You were struggling to hold on, grasp an arm that tried desperately to pull away.
“I have to.”
The tears welled up in your eyes began to fall. Salty trails fell down your cheeks with no remorse, stinging the very skin it touched. Your nails dug into metal, scraping away at fabric in a poor attempt to pull back the one person you didn’t want to lose.
He tried not to look at you for fear of changing his mind. But he knew that he was needed, the fate of the very world around him depended on it.
Your nails felt pain that you choose to ignore, instead clinging even deeper into the crevices of vibranium plates. You dropped to your knees, attempting to use the weight of your body to hold him back.
He only stopped in his steps, giving your fingers relief for a brief moment.
“I’m doing this for you.”
A choked sob ripped through your chest and out your throat, tearing away the very aura of the room. It sounded savage, pure primal. A sound that he never wanted to hear, and yet you cried and cried until your throat was raw and the tears ran out. But you still held on while he stood in silence wishing for your release. He didn’t have the heart to tear himself away from you.
“I just got you back… I just got you back!”
You looked up at him, and for once he had looked back. Red, puffy eyes stared into watery blue ones, pleading from the very depths of your soul for him to stay with you, put everything down and just stay.
Sirens began blaring outside, the shrieks of the horns signaling for him to leave.
“Bucky, no… please…”
You dug in further, your knuckles white from holding on and your knees sore from the ground, but you held on.
“I love you.”
These words hurt you, made another desperate sob come from your body without permission. You couldn’t say it back no matter how much you wanted to yell and scream that you loved him. But saying it back meant goodbye, a simple farewell to a trip never returning, it was the final words to someone you might never see again. So you refused, you held those words close to your heart and kept them there, not allowing him to hear them from you.
A gentle tug was all it took for you to collapse, his new vibranium arm slipped between your fingers leaving a cold nothingness instead.
You stayed on the ground, watching as he walked out the door, refusing to even look back at the one person he felt safe with, felt at home with.
The click of the front door closing sent you in a frenzy of cries and screams. You wanted to run out there, rip him off the battlefield yourself and keep him home where he would be safe. But you knew he was right, you knew he was needed, yet it didn’t make it any easier watching the love of your life leave to a battle in which you didn’t know if he would return.
When the firing of weapons and explosions soon came to a stop, you realized the fight was over. It was only a few moments later, when the bodies of those around you began to turn to ash and disappear without a trace, did you realize Earth had lost.
One more moment after, you realized you lost him, and that’s the moment you felt your heart stop.
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I FEEL SO ATTACKED BY THE ZODIAC ASK BECAUSE FOR PISCES ITS LIKE "HOW DO YOU VISUALIZE IN YOUR HEAD BLAH BLAH" AND HERE I AM A DUMB USELESS PISCES WHO LITERALLY CANT SEE IN MY HEAD BECAUSE OF APHANTASIA LIKE WHAT on another note yes id like to submit pisces thanks
HAHAHA i was literally watching the video and i was so stressed out like i couldn’t tell if i was or was not seeing an apple but then she started talking about reading and i was like oh dude i’m fine
(for people who want to know more about aphantasia: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewsGmhAjjjI&feature=youtu.be)
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pisces: how do you visualize scenes? do you see it like a movie in your head, or do the words just flow?
it’s a bit of both really, it’s like a movie and it’s mostly all just improv. i go where the words take me!!
