#make your transition

[thebasswizzard]

Finally all moved into our new home, getting back into the swing of things. Hopefully I'll have more time to be on here now. To finally have somewhere to call home is an absolute blessing. Happiness is an understatement. 🌄🏡💜

[hottentots]

This is how a sugary confection and a circular piece of plastic saved my life.

I always loved camping, concerts, festivals, all of the above, but never dove into it as much as I would have liked. One of my best friends travelled around the country, gathering up a squad I only knew through tagged pictures on facebook. I watched them from afar, focusing on a life at home with my boyfriend, being domesticated and compromising with activities he enjoyed. Fests were never his thing, so I kept it to about one a year, actually it was less. Why would I want to go away every weekend if he wasn’t going to come with me?

I don’t blame him though. He never forced me to stay home or “miss out,” it was all my decision and I just let the time pass. I didn’t realize I was stifling myself. How did I let so much time pass just sitting here? Suddenly I was 26, but I still didn’t realize it. It took a fest to put us both in our places. The aforementioned friend got a couple comped tickets in exchange for selling them, and I basically had no excuse not to go. At this point it had been two years since I had gone to one at all. So much for one a year I guess.

FARM Fest July 2017, 4 days of bass music in the middle of the woods. No noise ordinance, no cops that were trying to drive 2 miles down a dirt road to intrude. Nothing but pulsing beats and a bunch of people I only knew through pictures. It didn’t take long to fall in love with each and every one of them.

On the last night, there was a storm. We needed the rain after 3 days of temps in the upper 90′s, but the lightning wasn’t what we wanted, and the music was quickly shut off. Right in the middle of Boogie T. We ran back to the campsite and decided the party was not fucking over, we’re all gonna continue sending it till the sun comes up. Through a series of silly spunion events, some jelly ended up on a plate. It became our beacon. This plate of jelly was to be carried around the fest, because why the fuck not. We asked people if they wanted some jelly, used “jelly on a plate” as a thing to yell out to find each other, and it was also the answer to any question that was asked. 

Once the rain stopped we decided to venture out to see if the Yheti sunrise set was still happening. The jellyplate came with us, and the rest is history. It went home with my friend and was encased in polyurethane, like a fuckin mummy (we still have it btw and it comes everywhere with the fam). It’s hilarious, and if by some weird chance someone is actually reading this and you think it’s weird, YA GOT DAMN RIGHT IT IS. And you know we love it.

But the thing is, I didn’t know that the best weekend of my life would be immediately followed by a total upheaval of everything I knew. You see, while I was out getting weird in the woods, my boyfriend was at home realizing he wasn’t in love with me anymore. The day after I came home, he ended it. We never fought, we never had “issues,” but for some reason, we still held each other back. It sucked at first, obviously. I don’t think I even have any recollection of the entire month of August. Then I went to Basscenter with the fam, and jelly on a plate, a trip that had been planned since way earlier in the year, before I even knew them. I spent the weekend reflecting, having great conversation, seeing a FUCKING AMAZING SHOW HOLY SHIT, and parading jelly on a plate around to spread (haha) the luv.

That weekend, I made my transition. I realized that I was happier. It was something I didn’t know I wanted until I just knew. I still love my ex so much, we were friends for 6 years and dated for 5. He’s one of my best friends and he always will be. After a month or so of weirdness, we finally settled past the tears and petty post breakup arguments. We’re okay. We’re happy. We talk every day, and some people might think that’s weird, but we did that before we dated. It’s almost like I got my friend back. It’s hard to explain.

But the main reason for my happiness and new found confidence is my motherfucking jellyfam. The people I have met the past couple months make me cry all the fucking time because of how beautiful they are. I feel like I finally, really and truly, fit in somewhere. I always loved the music, loved the scene, but never immersed myself in it because I was being held back. I was holding myself back. And not only do I love the events I get to go to, but I get to do it with the most amazing, kind hearted, and fun humans I’ve ever met. 

Last night at my friend’s housewarming party, myself, the friend I mentioned at the beginning of this post, and a new friend (who is an angel on earth) were chatting outside. I happened to mention this thing we did back in 2010, and angel-on-earth said “holy shit you guys have known each other that long? why haven’t you shown me her before!!!” This is a conversation we’ve all had a bunch of times. I tell my friend all the time that I regret missing out the past couple years, and more than a few new friends have verbatim told me that I was the missing piece to their squad they didn’t know they were missing until I was there. I don’t think I’ve ever had people appreciate me this much in my entire life, except for like my mom. 

Jelly on a fuckin plate has kept us all connected, and I’ve even been crocheting mini jellies for everyone since we can’t always be with the OG jelly. Sometimes I wonder how close I’d be with everyone if jelly on a plate didn’t happen at FARM. Like, if it was just a crazy weekend then we all went our separate ways. But the fact that a legit weird thing happened that carried over into our real lives made me think it was fate. Especially because my ex chose to break up with me literally the day after. I also think, what if we were still together? There’s no way I’d be doing everything I’ve done the past couple months. I feel like I fucking found myself. I have CONFIDENCE. Real, true, I’m-the-shit confidence. I spend my time bettering myself, and using that positivity to make everyone around me happy. I care about this family so fucking much, I can only hope I make them even a fraction of how happy they make me. I owe everything to my friend for adopting me into this squad, and for everyone else for instantly accepting and loving me. 

All of this because a bunch of spunions got some jelly on a fucking plate.

As we creep towards the end of the year, my reflections get heavier, and I start to think about the person I was in January. I think about what I’ll be doing this coming January. I can’t stop smiling, and shaking my head, like if only you knew, Past-Amanda. If only you knew.

“There will come a time in your life where you will ask yourself a series of questions: Am I happy with who I am? Am I happy with the people around me? Am I happy with what I am doing? Am I happy with the way my life is going? Do I have a life, or am I just living? Do not let these questions restrain or trouble you. Just point yourself in the direction of your dreams. Find your strength in the sound, and make your transition. Make your transition.”

[tohellandback-recovery]

In step 4 you will see your old ways, your old self, and in turn will know the person you don't want to be, that when you work on the good person you know you are.

[dailynewspost]

What Do You Need To Know Before Starting the Process?

One of the greatest challenges that transgender individuals face today is the reality that you are not arbitrarily changing your gender. Instead, you were born into a life that never felt right, one that was never true to your real identity. Rather than you becoming a woman, you actually were born as you are, but only now are you making sure that your body follows suit. Fortunately, now is a better time than ever for you to make the change. Technology is on your side and society today is more accepting than ever of your unique situation. Before you get started on your next journey, here are some things that you really need to keep in mind.

Nothing Happens Overnight

Regardless of who you are, the transformation is not going to just happen overnight. Even those who get gender reassignment surgery can’t just go in one day and come out the next as a new woman. Instead, you need to take the time to go through the process. Sometimes, it can take many years to completely transition, but if you want to live life to the fullest you should always have patience to follow the process.

Becoming a Woman on Your Time

In addition to being patient, another key thing to remember is that everyone has different means. Though certain individuals may be able to better afford reassignment surgery, it might take you years to save up for a proper operation. Just because you have to wait for this, does not mean that you have to put off the process entirely. Instead, you should look at your local requirements on gender changes and see what steps you need to take before becoming a woman. If you need to go through gender reassignment therapy, take the opportunity to get that started. More directly, consider products like Brestrogen, which can help get your hormones where they need to be and assist with natural breast growth.

Concerning Local Laws

While there is definitely progress being made, some areas are more progressive than others. As a result, these areas make it easier for you to transition while other states might make it more difficult. Though the important thing to you might just involve becoming a woman in your body, you should also consider the local laws so that you can legally make the change. For instance: some areas only require that you undergo surgery, others require that you go through gender reassignment therapy, and still others have more specific requirements. States like New York actually don’t even require gender reassignment surgery to update a birth certificate, making it easier to transition. Keep in mind, the federal government in the United States leaves this up to individual states, which unfortunately can still make it difficult in some areas around the country.

At the end of the day, the most important thing is that you are true to yourself. There are plenty of ways to make the transition and just because surgery might be a little pricy does not mean that you are out of options. Instead, use what you can on your journey to becoming a woman.

[jphilspace]

Objekt - Live at Freerotation 2015 (closing set)

T/L:

E-Dancer - World Of Deep (Carl Craig Remix) [Play It Again Sam [PIAS] - KMSPIAS 001]

Daniel Maloso - Ritmo Especial [Cómeme - 006]

Underground Resistance - Ma Ya Ya [Underground Resistance - UR7-055]

Sound Design - Bounce to the Beat [Hard Times - HT002]

Laksa - Contrasts [unreleased]

Samuel L. Session - Off The Chain (The Drums) [Klap Klap - kklap005-6]

L.B. Dub Corp - So Much [Ostgut Ton - o-ton86]

Sleezy D - I've Lost Control (Space Side) [Trax - TX113]

Sote - Spundae [Record Label Records - RLR34]

Mark Fell & Gabor Lazar - Track 6 [The Death Of Rave - RAVE010]

Gescom - Motor1 [Source - 1243]

Simulant - Access Future Audio (Mix) [Scopex - SX12002]

Minor Science - Glamour [Whities - WHYT004]

Chaos - Afrogermanic [Underground Resistance - UR-021]

Plastikman - Elektrostatik [NovaMute - 12 NoMu 25]

Sleeparchive - Senza Titolo Three [Mord - 018]

DJ Sneak V AVH - Psychic Bounty Killaz [Relief - RR 767, RR 767.1]

Clark - Christo [Planet E - PE CLK 895]

Love Inc. - R.E.S.P.E.C.T. [Force Inc. Music Works - FIM 065]

The Hypnotist - Night Of The Living E-Heads (Hitchie Rawtin functional edit)

Xray Xperiments - Take No Chance (Remix) [Xray Recordings - XRAY 004]

The Aphex Twin - Phloam [R & S - RS 9201]

Underground Resistance - Transition [Underground Resistance - UR-3000]

Basic Soul Unit - Soulspeak (Shed Remix) [Dolly - DOLLY7]

Prurient - A Sorrow With A Braid [Profound Lore - PFL-152]

Call Super - Acephale I (edit) [Houndstooth - HTH029]

Charlie - Spacer Woman [Mr. Disc Organization - MDO 58507]

Cristian Vogel - Differentiate [Mille Plateaux - MP027]

[discoattack]

Objekt - Live at Freerotation 2015 (closing set)

[2257ad]

[fuckthesememories]

There will come a time in your life when you will ask yourself a series of questions. Am I happy with who I am? Am I happy with the people around me? Am I happy with what I'm doing? Am I happy with the way my life is going? Do I have a life or am I just living? Do not let these questions strain or trouble you just point yourself in the direction of your dreams find your strength in the sound and make your transition.

Do not spend to much time thinking and not enough doing.

Did I try the hardest at any of my dreams?

Did I purposely let others discourage me when I knew I could? Will I die never knowing what I could have been or could of done? Do not let these doubts restrain of trouble you just point yourself in the direction of your dreams. Find your strength in the sound and make your transition.

There will be people who say you can't - you will.

There will be people who say you don’t mix this with that and you will say "watch me". There will be people who will say play it safe, that’s to risky - you will take that chance and have no fear. You wont let these questions restrain or trouble you. You will point yourself in the direction of your dreams. You will find the strength in the sound and make your transition.

For those who know its time to leave the house and go back to the field. Find your strength in the sound and make your transition.

  --The Unknown Writer

Underground Resistance -Transition