#mama post

[pondenjoyer67]

Standing with mama

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So a while back Youngest was sent home with a plant pot. "There's a sunflower in there. Just take pictures and send them in."

Its started off great.

You can actually see the stalks reaching for the sun. But then it got all floppy, so I gave it some support.

And I've been trying to give it outside time in the sun.

Well, today was the day I went and got some all purpose soil stuff, some bigger pots, and rehomed the original plant into a bigger pot, because as you can see, it looks droopy af.

B&Q is a diy shop in the UK. They have a gardening section. I am not a gardener and yet.

And yet.

I came out with a bunch of plant pots, some soil stuff, a raspberry plant and a strawberry plant.

I just wanted to rehome the sunflowers. 🙈

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Let the duck cake baking commence!

If you're not in the know in regards to Bluey, this is a duck cake.

I have my work cut out for me. 😅

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(Life stuff, parenting feels, mention of emotional manipulation in the form of threatening self harm. Don't need to read if you're only here for fandom!me. 😊)

My heart's aching for my eldest. She's twelve, and in the first year of secondary school. All I hear, every night, is "So-and-so is calling," and it's rarely with excitement. We have a rule, we (either me or her dad) get her phone at 8pm. She doesn't have it in her room, because she needs a place she can decompress. She was glad that, one random day in the last fortnight, she forgot her phone pouch (its a school thing) and didn't want to leave it at reception, so I offered to keep it for the school day.

So yeah, 8pm cut off, that she's told her friends about. Why the hell is she still getting calls at 9pm, or later (mostly from this one kid)? And they're not even super chatty calls, they're, "Hey," and then nothing. It's like the kid on the other end don't know how to exist without a phone.

That's not to say my kid is a perfect angel, she can be just as bad at calling and then barely talking to her "friends" (ye gods, the manipulation from some one of them would put some of the manosphere to Shame). But seriously, we're trying to big her up, show her that friends big you up, not tear you down or threaten to kill themselves because no-one is talking to them (that's a whole different ball game - apparently their mum reads their messages but I have no idea how she feels about her kid talking like that - hence manipulation vibes).

And its only going to get harder. 😭

I just wanna keep hearing her sing along to songs, and being her sparkly self, not have a sucky argument swish around her head weeks after it's happened.

Ugh.

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Its 0450. Please pray that my youngest will a) stay in bed; and b) go back to sleep. Going downstairs to watch tv at 0323 is not happening.

Goodnight peeps.

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Tonight is the first official Operation Tooth Fairy for the youngest. She's already lost two teeth, but the first one disappeared (maybe she swallowed it?) and the second fell out whilst her one-to-one was distracted so youngest threw it in the bin. Her one-to-one went looking for it! But today, after wiggling it for ages (and grossing out both me and hubs) it came out. XD So guess who's getting money tonight?

That's right: not me. 😂😂😂

Operation Tooth Fairy is a go.

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This time, twelve years ago, I was an hour past the cut off time for pethidine and was labouring just using gas and air. At about 4am the lovely doctor gave me something to help my cervix flatten, and at 05:48, I gave birth to my darling eldest. So now, I'm gonna do some after midnight baking so I have a cake to decorate tomorrow (today).

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Urk, OK, how do I calm down an eleven year old who's just watched The Planets documentary (the one with Brian Cox - the scientist not the actor) and has discovered that one day, many billions of years from now, the Sun will die? How do I chill that freak out?