#maraziondiet

[marazion3]

oh for christ sake. help me find my moots AGAIN please

[marazion3]

dessert tonight

[marazion3]

you can call me rog or roger , im not new here i just got clapped for the 2nd time. im 20 (born 05) and male (he him his). stats and extra info below the cut.

general tw for : eating disorders , trauma venting sometimes , general bitchery , and me being real real gay.

i am pro recovery and pro harm reduction, no fatphobia here, all that jazz.

i block non-ed accounts, accounts that make posts addressing the entire disordered community as girls or with she/her pronouns (anybody can be affected by EDs, this community and sickness is not fem exclusive), and accounts who cross tag or refuse to hide their likes/following

just block don't report. i promise that you're not doing me or anybody else any good, i'll just get sicker and make another account. isolation from understanding community kills people, this is my safe space to help keep me alive until im ready to consider recovery one day, it's just not in my cards at the moment. please attempt to recover if you can, you deserve the possibility of a happy healthy life.

Stats —

cbmi : 15.6

current goal : muscle mass and body recomp

ugbmi : 15.5

Extras —

likes : early childhood developmental media (sesame street, mr rogers, etc.), cooking + baking, winter, spirituality and religion, rock + metal music (40 Watt Sun ily), writing, CoD MW

hobbies : excessive journaling, binge watching the same shows on repeat, interior decortating, legos

history with 4n4 : i developed disordered behaviors around 9yrs old due to abuse at home, and properly developed full 4n4 at 13yrs old due to a sudden trauma in the family, i have attempted recovery twice now (once in my senior year of HS, and then again a year later after i hit my LW). i hit my LW at 18yrs old and it fucked my health over severely so i attempted semi-recovery but the whole recov process fucked me up mentally so now im here again

[marazion3]

bo dy chex // that time of year again where i get to hide myself under several layers of clothing without burning to death

still need to drop about 15 more but its better than nothing

[marazion3]

i wanna be able to change my hair length like i do with its color, cus wdym i can do literally any color hair dye within a few hours but if i want it to be longer i have to wait for months on end. tf is up with that JUST GROW DAMMIT

[marazion3]

only 1 hr until i can start cooking and then 1 more hr until the soup is done and then i can break my fast with yummy soup hooray

[marazion3]

being able to feel my hipbones from the front AND the back with the same hand at the same time againnnnn 😛😛😛😛😛

[marazion3]

made some good th/nsp0 collages to distract myself from my fast earlier but im nervous to post them bc every single time i post spo on here i get termed even if i only use personal tags 💔💔