idk. i dont think its like. important to me to put a label on what is going on re: me and astarion. but. i do think it is important to address the fear that im going to weird the people around me out by being too into astarion. (this is obviously not the case here on my blog where i post about him at least once every day) i think i need to. be more ok with being weird and offputting bc. this is something i enjoy. i feel genuine human emotions (positive) about this character and it feels really important to me. it is helping me gain insight and change maladaptive behaviors. this is literally not harming or affecting anyone else. objectively there is nothing wrong with this. i think. once again we are back at i need to stop caring what other people think because it's literally not important at all. like what i am doing is not hurting them i am not causing harm there is not a breach of boundaries so there is nothing to atone for. im just being me and thats! ok!!
















