#mark me mark

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I'm gonna cry (happy tears) bc I went to church with my uncle and fam today and my uncle was making sure to introduce me to people and he always said "my nephew mark," and everyone there was just like "alright cool." And asked how I'm liking Texas and where im from and stuff and it was super hella nice.

I did, in fact, cry a little during service because I felt so loved when he did that. And kept doing it. And has introduced me as his nephew with no hesitation and even told a story about how me and his son could be confused as twins growing up.

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So when I’m at work it really hits me over and over all day that it sucks being misgendered bc, uh, duhh, there’s about 10 coworkers and a couple hundred customers calling you “dear, young lady, honey, darling, [dead name], girl” and it s u c ks

so I made a sticker in the back with the orange dots we use to mark the salads that says “

MARK he/him

on it. because I just wanted to have a small reminder I could slip in my pocket when it sucked most that I could look at and feel better bc I know who I am, at least, even if I can’t come out at work yet.

but it dropped out of my pocket at some point and that is a funny, slightly awkward story for another time.

I told my friends I lost my sticker, though, even tho it’s easy as heck to remake it at work the next day.

And my awesome boyfriend made me a better reminder slip. It’s small and fits in my wallet. In crayon he colored on one half the bi flag colors, then next to it the trans flag colors, and then in black sharpie over top he wrote

Mark He/Him A good man.

and honestly I started tearing up when I saw it. It was very sweet, and that’s exactly the kind of thing I needed to look at the last couple days. It’s nice knowing I have his friend and relationship support. 

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hey steven universe,, steven being steven when his gem is pulled away, just without the human side of him,, was so important

like. The gem didn’t “revert” back to who it had been before. It didn’t become Pink or Rose. Once Steven was created, it could never be Pink or Rose again. Because the gem side was also Steven.

there’s a better post talking about it but if i were a gem and separated from the gem, i’d be mark on both sides of it, too

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the guy at mr. goodcents called me sir today!!!

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I like going to school because at least everyone there calls me by my name

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My friend and I were talking about weddings and stuff the other day and I asked her if she wanted to be a bridesmaid at my wedding if i ever get married

and then she was like “well it wouldn’t be a bridesmaid... it’d be a groomsmen”

and i was like “You are absolutely right. Wait, one better- a groomsmaid”

and then we were both like heck yes that title and i could have groomsmen or groomsmaids and if they are neither m/f then they can be weddi-nbs (sounds similar to saying wedding bees). 

and then was like “Well i’m wearing a suit. you guys can all wear suits” and we designed our theoretical suits for like ten minutes

it was a good time lol

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so apparently charissa in the advising center (student who works the desk) told the rest of advising center workers, esp the lady who had the appointment with me today, that I prefer Mark now.

So I wasn’t gonna like, say anything to Deena mainly bc I just wanted to get my info and set stuff up for summer/fall. But when I walked in the advising sheet had “Mark Last Name” already written there and she said Charissa let her know to check that’s what I preferred.

And it is, obvs. But Deena was really cool about it and when we were doing my grad worksheet she asked if I intended to change my preferred name with the university/send me over to the right place to do so. I can’t, bc my parents help me pay for college, and I don’t want them to see that yet. But it was a very nice offer for her to give me.

So score 1 for the Business Advising Center today! 

(And another because I talked to James after the meeting was over and he told me to let him know if I need anything/support and he’ll help out any way he can. And he said some other very nice things I’m just gonna pretend I didn’t get teary-eyed over in the moment because it was just. So kind of him to say about me.)

So really this school’s got some good stuff going on somewhere

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So I walked into the advising center to go to my appt to withdraw from personal selling and the girl behind the counter said she didn't recognize me at first bc I'd chopped all my hair off.

(I also didn't recognize her at first but mentally I wasn't ready to see someone I knew behind the desk.)

And then when I left my appt and talked with her again for a moment to set up a class pin one in a week, another advisor came into the office who is the staff advisor for PBL when I was in it for 3 years.

He was like "WOW, your hair is amazing! You look FANTASTIC, WOW!" and complimenting me on my cut and stuff.

And I loved hanging and talking with James when I still did PBL and I know he's a really cool and accepting guy so in the office I just was like

"Hey, thank you so much. And if you wouldn't mind calling me Mark from now on, like when you see me and stuff? That'd be great, I'd really prefer it."

And he nodded and smiled bigger and was like "Yes, absolutely. Can do, Mark. And again, love the hair!"

And that was really really positive for me. I'll probably see him next week again and I hope he remembers?

Long story short James is cool and I had a positive experience with multiple esu staff members today besides him.