Mark Me Down (I'm here for this)

| he/him/his | bi | Gravity Falls | Star Trek | Whatever else I'm thinking about | call me Mark | icon a moodboard gift by @sovvung

[my-dailydreams]

[mark-me-down-right-there]

Remember quarantine when service workers were fucking dying en masse??? Fucking revisionist history

[savagegood]

sometimes the knowledge you gain on twitter is both blessed and cursed

also his likes are sending me:

[val-the-princess]

Autistic brain really is like, "you have to overexplain so there is absolutely zero chance for misinterpretation"

[iricressent]

furry species ranked by how difficult it'd be to take them anywhere

[iricressent]

taking my deer boyfriend for a hike in the woods and he hears a twig break and bounds off into the trees never to be seen again

[bemusedlybespectacled]

okay I know the popular conception of stede and lucius' relationship is a father/son thing but like, okay, I get it, and I'm here for it, but I also don't get that vibe at all.

like, I don't think lucius admires/looks up to stede in a parental way. he likes stede, he's supportive of stede, but personally I wouldn't call my dad a bizarre little man or ask him how his breakup is going. like, that's way too informal. that's more a relationship of equals than anything else.

nope. I think their relationship is actually elder gay/baby gay (in the sense of experience rather than chronological age). lucius has been out for years, he has a lot of experience in relationships, he is way more able to read relationships (e.g. knowing that ed and stede are flirting before they even realize they're flirting), and because of that he is extremely well equipped to give advice about navigating queerness.

stede, on the other hand, has just barely started to dip his toes in the gay pool. like regardless if you go with the theory that stede didn't even realize he was gay until he met ed or that he knew for years but couldn't acknowledge it openly until he met ed, stede has zero practical experience. he is, in his forties, experiencing a bunch of "firsts" that lucius probably did in his teens or early twenties. the entire emotional landscape is foreign to him (and I was going to make a joke about how pirating is also foreign to him but then I started thinking about how piracy in this show is a metaphor for queerness and that's a whole second essay)

basically I think lucius spent the first however-many weeks on board the revenge being like "oh my god this guy is a naive idiot but at least he's paying me," and then he heard nigel badminton joking about how he used to bully stede in school and his gaydar went off like mad, and at that moment his attitude changed to "someone needs to protect this naive gay idiot and that person is me" and that's where it is for the rest of the season.

[nicnacsnonsense]

I feel like Stede is the dad friend of the group, so in a group setting they can fall into that pseudo-father/son dynamic. For example see how in episode 5 the crew, including Lucius, are all treating Izzy like the mean babysitter watching them while their dads are out on a date.

However, I agree with OP that their personal relationship is more akin to elder gay & baby gay. That dynamic is what we see come through more in one-on-one interactions, most obviously as Lucius is helping with Stede’s relationship with Ed.

[viciousmollymaukery]

i know Fjord isn't technically canonically transgender but like. yes he is.

[viciousmollymaukery]

like there's no aspect of Fjord's story that would not be enhanced by him being trans. literally imitating the voice of his former captain. the complicated relationship with masculinity. fearing how those closest to you will perceive the "real you". making a bargain with a large oceanic snake entity and then breaking that bond by throwing his pact weapon into lava and reinventing himself by swearing fealty to the goddess of nature and emerging from a seaweed wrap with a higher strength score. all of it is transgenderism in action. maybe you can't see it but i can.

[newtafterdark]

Been having some feelings over folks still using my birthname despite me being out as trans since 2014.

(lyrics from the song "Come Over (Again)" by Crawlers)

[residentialrobot]

Orlo has two hobbies:

Fishing and keeping secrets from the party.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

Tbh i think I finally got a section of this figured out. I don't enjoy receiving penetrative sex. Fingering is fine but not much more than that, internally speaking. I don't enjoy kissing (usually) and I don't enjoy giving or receiving oral sex.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

CW transphobic af, internalized transphobia

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So my friend was talking bout how she feels her coworkers see her. I could TELL she was barely scraping around the phrase "lady with a dick" to describe how people saw her.

Immediately made me dark humor laugh internally bc yeah, I think I have some coworkers that also see me as a lady with a dick, in the opposite way that she gets perceived as such.

People can accept I'm a trans man i guess but will always still invite me to ladies only events and ladies nights and baby showers and things women do almost exclusively in culture. So no matter what pronouns they call me it feels like they just see "lady with a dick" in the sense I'm pretending to be a man most of the time but I cab be myself and do girl things bc the rest of me is just for fun.

Not the same as her, a trans woman, going thru that feeling of people thinking that about her. But I can equal and opposite relate. Hurts. Sucks.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

first time I had sex (in the way that mattered) me and my boyfriend, both in our first real relationships, were kissing in his room, and we were getting closer together, but then we both kind of broke off and looked at each other and both admitted we didn't really know where to go from there. It was awkward, and then I asked if it would be weird if we googled "how to have sex" and that broke the tension and we were back to laughing. it was special because we were both nervous and both wanted to do it "right" and we both had no clue where to go next. I don't know if we ended up actually having sex that night or not, but we did spend time close together laughing and being intimate in other ways, working through our insecurities around it and figuring out what we were comfortable with to start out with.

We were in our early twenties, and it was wonderful.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

My boobs are super soft. I want someone to play with them and then fuck me rn ahhhhhh. For once not feeling Mmm about them and no one in my pocket to call and be like hey let's get down.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

It's extremely mean but I've got the diversity win! Meme stuck in my head.

Like diversity win! The man stalking my co-worker is a double amputee!

[mark-me-down-right-there]

Thank you, extremely graphically nsfw sex gravity falls fic, for directly influencing the fun little fact about [redacted] I am including in this jawbone/gilear fic. It was extremely helpful.

[thegoodlannister]

when I was 14 I wrote a paper about myself using male pronouns I’d never heard of a trans person but before I turned it in my parents made sure I remembered to make myself into a girl

matthew shepard had died only a handful of years before

a year ago I woke up to the news that a nightclub 32 minutes from my home had been destroyed and that 50 people were dead it was sunday and I had a queer date scheduled for later that afternoon neither of us wanted to go

people told us to stop politicizing it it could have happened anywhere

this weekend when I told my doctor I had been cut off from my family because I had told them I was trans

when I told her that they didn’t want me anymore that the nephew who I had held when he was born before anyone (even his mother) (the doctor passed him to me first) (bloody and screaming) couldn’t see me because doing so would damage him irreparably she said: ‘yeah, we hear this story a lot’

she had transitioned 20 years prior I could tell by looking at her face - she hadn’t just heard it

today, at 2pm my mom called me at work to tell me she knew why I had no money (it was because I’d used everything I had) (on the treatments that would turn me into a freak)

it wasn’t true but I pounded on the wall of the bathroom for five minutes straight after that wondering when she’d stopped loving me

—

and they say queer people are angry.

(I say we’re not nearly angry enough)

[thegoodlannister]

I wrote this almost five years ago, and I’ve been living ftm ever since.

yesterday I moved into the new home my wife and I had purchased. in august, I’ll start the PhD program I always wanted to in art history. life is very good and I am very lucky.

I hope I’ll see my mom again someday.

[mark-me-down-right-there]

Had a dream about getting fucked by gilear from fantasy high hfjajdhsjsjd so like. I have maybe spent too much time thinking about him. Cant help it tho i love this man

[mark-me-down-right-there]