#mastoid bone

[yayoineko]

Hello! My apologies for not posting anything much lately.

From October 26th to the 31st, I was hospitalized for severe vertigo that an MRI revealed was caused by very bad inner ear fluid accumulation/infection that soaked mastoid bones behind my ears (bones that are suppose to be dry).

Although it has now been a month since being out of the hospital, my walking and balance are still a bit off and my sight is also a little iffy (things in distance are a bit blurry), but I am in much better condition than when I got home on Halloween. I can walk further distances without a cane and can draw/read (but not as well as I’d prefer).

My condition will take awhile to restore itself, as it will take some time for the fluid in my ears to eventually dry out. MY balance, equilibrium, and sight won’t be 100% until that happens. It sucks.

My brain overtaxes itself focusing on coordination, balance, reading, observations, etc---regular tasks (even minute as being on the computer) reduces my endurance and increases fatigue. I constantly need rest and feel tired most of the time. But, I am recovering, very slowly. It took a long time for my inner ears to get so bad, and will take a long time for them to dry out.

For now, please enjoy this Sourpuss Comix I scanned before the whole mess began. I edited it last week and posted on my other social media like FB and the Tweeter.

[monkeymeghan]

So, 6 weeks and 2 days (you can do the math, I can’t right now lol), I just had my follow up with the doctor. He’s very happy with how I’m doing. He immediately knew I was doing better just by looking at my face when he walked in. I guess everyone can tell, even if I can’t all the time. I asked about seeing the neuropsychologist that’s in his building (and happens to be the only one in 20 miles covered under my insurance). I told him that I was wondering about that because of how the vestibular and limbic systems are so intertwined, and how I wonder how much my ear crap has affected my mental health. He thought it was a good idea. He toldthe woman at the front desk to contact the other doctor’s office and I’ll hear from the neuropsychologist’s nurse to make an appointment. I truly wonder how much my mental health, like, seriously shitty mental health, has be because of my ear. I know my depression and anxiety will never go away 100%, but... I don’t know. Maybe life won’t be so bad now? The pics from my surgery are on the jump drive he didn’t have with him, so he’ll email them to me in a few days when he gets it from the doc he leant it to. I’m curious and excited to see! And, yes, of course I have pics from my other surgery! Lol Oh, and those other extra holes I had? I had them on the right side, too. Basically, the mastoid bone (behind the ear) is full of air sacs (hehe, Jurassic Park*) and with SCDS, the bone thins or totally goes away over some of those air sacs for some people. I’m just so lucky! Lol. My pain is at an expected (and still manageable) level. Oh, and I got the all clear from him to go to Great Adventure tomorrow if the weather is clear! I’m thinking of going on that crazy new 360* spin the ride... lol. Maybe... Ok, well I guess that’s all for now.

*From earlier in this scene, when he is comparing the bones of the velociraptor to those of birds. 😁

[invisibleflower-365]

Brain Infection

So my cousin who molested me is in Aultman hospital in the sicu with a brain infection. It started out as a bad ear infection that didn't respond to antibiotics and moved to the mastoid bone and needed surgery but because he doesn't have health insurance he left AMA so he could do hcap before having surgery. Well that's a process and doesn't happen over night and in the mean time the infection got worse and has since moved to the brain. I don't know what to feel. Like i would never wish this on someone regardless of the situation. I feel bad, but i don't feel sorry. I hate him but i still care about him. I don't want anything bad to happen but at the same time karma is a Bitch.