#mayawollman

[milesmahir]

for: @mayawollman​ location: Island Threads time: saturday, 11:30 am

Miles desperately fought back tears. This was extremely unlike them, to cry not just in public, but to cry in general. The bubbly personality of theirs burst into a thousand little fragile pieces, dragging Miles into a pit despair. All because he didn't look like that. It was childish he knew, but their gender dysphoria flared up, and it flared up bad. Made extremely terrible when he came downstairs in the morning, not into the soothing arms of their mother whispering ‘it’s okay meri jaan’ to drive away intrusive thoughts, but to a note saying that Mama Mahir will be making a trip the mainland. Miles made up their mind then, he would be pretty today.

Island threads was known for it’s funky colours, and Miles was sure surrounding themself with colour would drive of the dark thoughts that plagued them. Yellow to Van Gogh; the entire damn rainbow to Miles. Attempts were made to mix and match this and that, that and this, but to no avail. The day wasted away under lace and tulle, under frustrations and indecisions. Why couldn’t he look like that? The magazine cover taunted them since arrival, the model in her shiny glory; Miles knew that’s what he wanted to look like today. As he stared again, from her skin, her hair, her shoes, her teeth - all shiny and pretty. A glance into the nearby mirror had Miles turn away in disgust; he was matte, dull and simply wrong.

So, there he sat, on the steps of Island Threads, a sad slump of a person chipping away at their already chipped nail polish, sniffling as he waited for emotions to settle so he could go back and apologise to the staff that bore witness to that disaster; their personal battle - head versus body. 

It was lucky Miles looked up when he did, spotting a passerby heading into the store, Miles waves for their attention, “Hey hey, psstt!! Can you please do me a favour, if you’re not too busy?”

[jasminevolkan]

4, 10, 7

4. When was one time this past year that you did the right thing, even when it was difficult? 

"my dad called me for my birthday. it’s not much, you’re going to say. i would have to agree! he left so many voicemails. he wanted me to hang out with him during his next visit to california, or be his babysitter for a couple of days. let’s be honest, that’s definitely what he wanted, someone to handle his responsibilities so that he could focus on the only thing that matters to him: himself. i wanted to say yes, just for the principle of it. i miss him, you know? but i didn’t. i turned him down. i blocked his number. it was long overdue. it’s still progress, okay? the next step is that i might stop resenting him for everything he has not done... just kidding!”

10. What do you think are the two things that prevent people from realizing their dreams? 

"fear and expectation. you’re afraid that things won’t work out, but you still set the bar so high that it’s almost impossible for your dreams to come true. hold on, that sounded clever!”

7. What song or poem sums your life over the past six months?

"i’m tempted to say baby shark, because it really made my life a living hell everytime i heard it! there was this family with triplets that came by the shop every week. and every week they were singing it. i used it as my ringtone as a joke... it’s in my brain forever.”

previously answered: 2, 3, 16, 17, 19,  29

[gabbylivingston]

8, 24, 21

8. What does the term “give thanks” mean to you?

Answered here!

21. What’s the most sensible thing you’ve ever heard someone say?

Answered here!

24. When was the last time you listened to the sound of your own breathing?

“That was a very, very long time ago. I don’t take the time for it because it means that you have to sit still and I can’t sit still, I’m just not made for that. And listening to my own breathing would also mean making my head empty and the moment I do that, this ringing tone inside my head grows louder and louder and that’s even worse than making myself stop for a moment.”

[eleanorhirsch]

19, 5, 28

TIME CAPSULE MEME.

What is the biggest struggle in your life right now?

“Getting some peace and quiet.” Ellie answered with a wry smile. A surprising response to be coming from someone who thrived off everyone’s energies, but even she needed to take a break too. Especially with all the media attention, the inability to stroll down the street without so much of a disguise — that was growing to be emotionally taxing for her, even if she didn’t want to admit it to herself.

Imagine your great-great-grandchildren will be able to see this video: is there any wisdom you’d want to pass on to them? What would you want them to know

answered.

How do you find the strength to do what you know in your heart is right?

“Honestly? I’m not sure if I’m the best person to ask.” Her gaze casted away for a moment, looking into the distance as her mind drifted over to the loses her family suffered over the years. What was right, was to move on or talk about the pain and loss she felt whenever she found herself alone with her own thoughts. Instead, Ellie opted to live in ignorance, hoping that one day, what was clouding over her mind would fade away. Or if she grew desperate, bury herself with distraction too. 

[evie-morris]

30, 16, 15

What did you learn recently that changed the way you live?

“That there really are two sides to every story. You see your own side but you don’t experience someone else’s.”

What part of your childhood brings you feelings of gratitude?

“When my grandparents cheered me on at all my school functions, even when they were the only ones doing it. They didn’t have to, but they still did. Or when I graduated high school with honors.”

When do you feel truly alive?

Answered here!