Aimsey: it's not- it's not a good feeling. not a good feeling at all. i feel kind of sick really.
foolish (over lapping): no... no... no it's- yeah.
foolish: i dunno i guess. i guess in my head it's just sortof... well-ther- it is what it is. i-i- felt like maybe i didn't do everything i could've but i felt like- iiii- i was tryin'.
aimsey: yeah no, i think you did everything right. i i- i think- i think- ithink you were- you were her king i guess.
foolish talks over aimsey whispering: she trusted you.
foolish: and i think for me, in typical fasion, it's just- just keep moving on. i think i had this discussion the other day.
aimsey: (sad laugh) yeah? how do you keep moving on from something like this though? i feel like we litterally- the conversation we had feels like it forshadowed exactly what was going on here (foolish laughs)
foolish: yeah no kiddin'!
aimsey: the whole... "it's going to be me, you, and bad, watching the realm go- gon on fire!" and now suddenly we're all up in arms with each other.
(brief talks about everything crazy going on.)
foolish: uhm. but i guess to answer your question, i feel like it's happened enough to where i've realized it- is-its like- the best answer and solution to it all. i can't... i can't just spend time mourning each and every single person i see die.
aimsey: wow. .. for someone ... so full of life, you seem like you don't like to live it enough.
foolish: uhm... i guess it's just become... a matter of fact, of living, you know? i see someone, and i just know one day they're going to bite the- bite the bullet.
aimsey: ... that's really sad. you know?
foolish: uhhm. i guess- i guess it's a little sad, i suppose. but it just- it just is what it is. everyone's time comes eventually, and like i said, it seems like- especially around these parts- it's always sooner rather than later.
aimsey: yeah...
snialchu: why is the castle black?
foolish: oh. well. i would assume. metaphorically. the joy. of the castle and kindgom, has been snuffed out. with the departing of ros.
snailchu: oh.
foolish: yup. kind ofa. kind of a heavy blow actually, haven't really had time to uh- time to think about it.
snailchu: yeah that's pretty bad i feel like.
foolish: yeah she was uh. she was- she was the only founding member left in the kingdom.
...
foolish: *sucks in through his teeth and literally forces himself to march forward* so you know that sucks!
...
snailchu: wai-wai-wait you just going to say that like it's- like its normal?! like *false cheer voice:*"OH WELL! that sucks-" is that it?!
foolish: well, people come. people go. they live, they die and typically? from my experince. they seem to always go sooner rather than later.
"You know... as a God of the Ocean... I also, have control of the Skies.... (giggles) It's not, just one thing!
-Foolish Gamers, Dream SMP, March 2021
[Streamed March 10th, 2021 title: The EGG is on the attack (lore)]
"Nothing good ever happens on this island when it rains."
-Foolish Gamers, Quackity SMP
(no specific stream because he says a version of this almost every time it rains on the server)
Hey you ever think about how Foolish used to have power over the sky? you ever think about how his power was specifically controlling lightning and that's something he kept even after he lost his immortality? and then do you ever realize that Foolish on the qsmp always becomes nervous and even scared of the rain?
Foolish WAS a god whose domain contained the sky. now he's scared of thunderstorms. i think it's not just the Code Foolish fears, its the reminder that his power, his control, have been taken from him.
to drive home how much control and loss of it means to Foolish, one last Foolish lore Quote for you under the cut:
"Let me explain to you why I build. ... I thought wielding God-like powers and a sword gave me some kind of control. But it only led me down a path of violence. and anger, mistrust! I can't control the actions of the world through overwhelming power. ... But building? Provides two important elements in my life: Creation. and Control. Even when it drives me crazy! ... In the end I'm still the one in control of the build."
(Foolish Gamers, Dream SMP, April 2021, after the banquet)
