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[essentialalls]

Omitb being about late bloomers (and late friendships we find in our lives, and relationships, and figure-it-out-careers...) is so sooo personal to me, I cant even explain how much this mean. Welcome back my dearest show, we missed you!!

[gigan2323]

I try not to vent or talk to much about myself here (for the 4 people that will see it) but just to put it out there Depression is single most stupid sounding thing to people who don't experience it and I feel that only makes it so much worse. Ever explain how it feels to a parent or loved one? "Yeah sometimes I feel such hopelessness that I stop eating or doing anything for hours or days at a time, and in that period I struggle to feel anything other than despair". The looks I've gotten from people tells me all I need to know, they don't believe me, they call it laziness or procrastination. "your generation doesn't want to work, that wasn't an option back in my day" translates to "your faking this to be lazy and should be ashamed". Its no wonder its taken years for me tell people only to get laughed at, its no wonder my Dad looked at me with shock when I told him I've felt passively suicidal since I was 14. I'm sure ill feel better again, I hang out with my friends, I'll make jokes with my coworkers, watch a movie or two, I laugh and play games and ill feel human but I'll always feel my brain ready to betray me at any moment.

Maybe this will help, maybe ill delete this post later, we'll see. If you read (or if you skimmed or skipped) this thank you, for understanding, for being here and making me feel better.

[planet-email]

posts (like art or a gif or more boring things)here->(cyberdrive2htmlove) bob brickface dedicated blog is here -> |:<}|

please dont ask about personal things. everything else is free game. big mcthankies

[cannedsweettea]

havin a bad brain day...... does anyone have any advice on becoming proud of being autistic? this is hard for me to even type out to ask but. i have aspergers & ive never got any help or met anyone else like me so now everything feels impossible & lonely... just wish i could be someone else & i wish i didnt feel like that

[essentialalls]

Say "I love you" it's too basic for them, I see.

[essentialalls]

a stab would have hurt less.

[essentialalls]

Also (and maybe someone already put the topic on the table but) we need to focus about Charles and his health bc what the fuck was that last phone call now, pls, dont even try that road, I swear!!