I made a bet on Twitter that if Microsoft were to announce something, anything at E3 that wasn't a shooter or a racing game, I'd change my 'sona to a fox.
Then they announce Super Lucky's Tale, a 3D platformer where you play as a fox.
So now I'm a fox. I kinda enjoy being a fox, but I already miss being a penguin. The only way for me to become penguin again is for me to make another bet. I won't permanently retire this alt though. It's just that right now I'm obligated to be a fox due to... circumstances. ^w^;
Gift art for my goose prince, @agabbiano! Her and I recently agreed for her to be my goose prince and for me to be her adorable penguin servant. She likes to feel powerful and I'm very subservient, so this was the perfect arrangement for us. <3
I’ve come to realize that love is my most powerful motivator to draw. I’ve been looking for a soulmate for the past two years now and, as you can tell, I really haven’t had much luck. It’s been a challenge finding anyone who matches my preferences and returns my feelings. To tell you all the truth, it’s made me wonder if I’ll ever find the right person. I’ve made tons of friends in the furry community, but I haven’t become more than “just friends” with any of them. There were a handful of them that I did have a crush on, but unfortunately we ended up just not being each other’s type.
I see artwork of furry couples online so frequently, and to tell you all the truth, it feels like I’m missing out on something special. I see them with their matching icons, getting artwork of their characters together, telling sweet anecdotes of their time together, and posting publicly on social media about how cute and wonderful they are. That’s just the kind of love and support I wish I could have.
I’m not desperate to be in a relationship though. I’d rather stay single than end up in a crappy relationship, but it would be nice if I could experience that kind of support. Just knowing that I’m lovable enough for another person to do those things for me would be a great source of validation for me.
But maybe I’m just not lovable enough... or maybe I am! I honestly don’t know at this point. I go out of my way to be supportive of others, but the reality is I can’t get them to love me. I’ve accepted that reality. It’s left me wondering if I really am as lovable as others say I am. Maybe I am and it just wasn’t meant to be.
I still cling on to that hope though. Maybe the right person will come along. There really is no way to tell. If you read through this wall of text, I want to thank you for caring enough to read it. I may be experiencing the Valentine’s Day blues, but I still want to wish you a happy Valentine’s Day. Remember that it’s not just a day for couples, it’s a day to spend time with those you care about.
