jon makes me so sick because literally every choice he made was out of his own control. his own life was, in his own words, one long set up to literally ending the world and he didn’t even KNOW. he had NO FUCKING IDEA!!! and tbh i don’t even blame him with how mag200 ended with that in mind? like? all his efforts to fight against this were basically futile, he would’ve ended up here regardless, and that’s such a way to feel even less like a person and more like a chess piece. i cannot imagine how hopeless he must have felt it makes me want to do something crazy
TL;DR: you can find me nowadays on my Twitter or Instagram where I'm currently sharing my professional work + engaged in the Tangled/Cassunzel fandom.
I've been thinking about this blog for the past couple of days, and my entire experience here on tumblr (especially during my FMA fandom days)... so if any of you are still out there, let's talk:
It's been... so, so long since I was last actively here, aside from very occasionally dropping by. Browsing this blog, going back to my 2015-2017 active days, it feels like my own time capsule: a record of my experiences and the person I used to be.
It's wild; reading these insights into my impressionable, excitable 19/20 year old self out here, and realizing, now 4 years later with some good distance, just how much I was struggling (particularly in 2017).... and just how much I've grown, how much I've changed.
It's still me! I still see my enthusiasm and resolve... but dang, I've really become someone different. Life happened! So, so many things in life happened. So here I am, in the middle of this panini, having become the best, fiercest, most resilient version of myself. I learned to love and accept myself, I learned to speak up and stand my ground... and there hasn't been a day where I haven't grown happier for embracing my queerness.
I wonder how ya'll see me, or remember me after all this time! If it's that frozen version of myself from 2017. I wish I could fully express all my changes, but there's so much I can put into words!
Reading through the asks sent to this blog and interactions from back then, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with emotion and extremely thankful for the kindness and care I was often handed by my followers, mutuals and online friends from back then.
My experience out here might've been tainted by burnout and a few personal struggles that resulted in stepping away from the platform; I never really disclosed the hows or whys, but they honestly don't matter anymore. However, skimming through this blog after years made me realize and value the support I had from the community, from people willing to DM me or send an ask to check in on me, cheer me up, offering advice.
And to that, I say: thank you. Thank you for being by my side, for having interacted, for having taken part in that moment of my life.
I doubt I'll ever return here properly, maybe just checking in to reblog some cool stuff or share my art. But I want this blog to remain the time capsule that it is, for the most part.
As I said on the TLDR part, I'm most active on Twitter nowadays (and even engaged in another fandom for the first time in 4 years: Tangled The Series & Cassunzel, who would've thought!) and I've been focused in my professional career as a designer and illustrator, in taking care of myself, as well as my support system (so blessed to have incredible real life friends, and a few online ones perservering!!). So check out what I've been up to!! I assure you, you'll barelyyy be able to recognize my art, hehehehe.
I hope you're good!! I'd love to hear how you're doing, if you've read this!!
i would love love LOVE it if polyamory became a more widely accepted thing cuz i’m sick of seeing tiktoks of polyamorous ppl being happy w their partners and the comments being like “btw this is cheating” because…no? like, as somebody who doesn’t identity as strictly polyamorous myself (because i’m not honestly too sure of it w my little to none dating experience 😭) but still wldnt mind if my partner wants to be non monogamous, like at all, i want ppl to put an ounce of critical thinking into like. anything, and realize that polyamory is built on communication and consent from both partners whether they’re both polyamorous or not . idk stop assuming shit abt ppl on the internet dpmo
hey dude u can call her your husband and him your wife all you want buddy. but the second you start being weird and strange about multigender people i’m gonnnaaa have to confiscate that right from you. yeahh :/ sorry man
being bigender is literally the coolest thing because i have the opportunity to do the funniest thing ever when people accusing me of fetishizing mlm/wlw ships
