Aaliyah & Her Ocs, Aaliyah Marie Arts, AMA Arts, and Just A Doodler is one i also had for a short time on Discord. (For when I wanted to be less on the nose.)
I am 24, Pronouns are She/Her, I am a Bicurious/Demisexual, but I am also a Fictosexual/Fictoromantic Yume/Selfshipper. I graduated college as an Illustrator, I am the eldest of 5, please read my rules here
I will be using this account mostly for rambles and venting since I don't feel fully safe on my main. That account will now mostly be used for art and updates if I leave or am busy, etc.
I figured the best way to do that would be through the lenses of my ocs and my happy place. They are both just me, but two sides of me that live in my head. (The lesbians in my brain I jokingly call them)
For info on my story im using as the base for this account and my Hashtags for this account— under the clip.
My happy place is usually depicted as a endless nicely cloudy sky above an endless body of calm water. There is no people living in it except for the two I mention below. They can walk on the water as if they were petals floating on the surface. The only other beings living above the water are many, many, many butterflies that fly freely. In each cloud is my memories, and each butterfly represents either a dream I have, a thing i enjoy, or a individual I know or love.
Below the water is darkness... tendrils of depression that threaten to reach out and pull those two under. But they cannot breach the surface. They are confined below the water waiting for there chance to try and drag them under. Which only can happen when one of those above are consumed by dark feelings that make them sink. To which they have to fight back through those dark feelings to swim to the surface again.
The two that reside above water are as follows.
Joy: Who I am on the outside, Who I try and appear to be and want to be when I'm with others and more. My soft side that just wants to be loved and give love.
And
Hope: My emotions, My hidden interests and things I don't often show, my tough and stern side that doesnt take anything if it means it will effect my joy.
But as I have written with these characters, they have their moments when they can become corrupted or just consumed by other emotions. (Represented by the black markings on Hope's skins that reach her eye)
Melancholy: When I just feel depressed or saddened by things around me. When im overwhelmed and can't help but cry. When I shut down and even my joy can't make me feel better.
And
Despair: When I become angered and irritated. When I just cant contain what I feel and I just need to yell it out or take it out on something, mostly myself.
I will use the Hashtags to convey what I saw when I say them. (Unless I am lazy or unable to express the emotions I feel through these)
