I feel like everything is falling apart again/ getting too much. This always happens, I try to ignore it, I drink too much to hide my feelings. The guy I like is ignoring me/ sending mixed messages. I'm scared that i'm pregnant with his baby, I hate the way that I look, im scared about money, i'm full of regrets. I have so much going on. I'm all alone. I just don't want to go crazy again. I cant do it all again.
Let’s start by getting things in order okay darling? First I would check and make an appointment with Planned Parenthood, based on your local office and facility., They are very good to their clients and they won’t judge you based on your situation. They can offer you the help that you need to get things figured out. If you are pregnant, then they can help you make a decision. If you aren’t pregnant, then consider that one thing that has come off your plate.
Next, the drinking. I know that drinking is a common form of escapism but it’s not a good one. Let’s work on finding you alternatives to drinking that will be just as effective. When you get the urge to drink, replace it with something less harmful, like flavoured mints and other objects that put something in your mouth and take the edge off a little bit. Also look into getting some assistance for alcohol addiction.
Drinking does not get rid of the problem sweetie. Drinking only puts a temporary bandage on it. The problem is still going to be there when you are sober. Where in you’ll just be urged to drink again to forget about it again. It becomes a vicious cycle that very quickly spirals out of control.
Our alternatives page also provides ways from getting away from the vices and into safer forms of recovery.
Self esteem comes with time as well, and money, while a big concern can be handled. If you’re finding it too hard to find a job, ask for someone to help you format a resume and give you a way that is more specific in regards to looking for work. Or go to a social aid office and ask for some form of assistance. I know these vary by country but it’s a start. I am sorry that you are so full of regrets but those regrets don’t define you. Not at all. You are not regret. We all make mistakes in life, that’s what makes us human. We all have something we are not proud of, but we can address that problem and move on with the proper time.
As for the father of this possible child, there are two ways that can go. Either he finally answers you or he doesn’t. Ask him to give you a straight answer after you visit planned parenting (because he needs to give you one) and decide where the two of you are going to go.
It’s going to be okay darling.
