#micro vent

[microcosmiclymbic]

Collecter of names. Wielder of fury. Child of hope. Permanantly hyperfocused on understanding the human condition. Tumbling through the cracks of society.

Virtual diary

If you know me IRL and I explicitly have not shown you this blog, block me. Do not pass go

-Z/A'

I'm a multifaceted artist. Enjoying the discovery process of Self while stumbling through the human experience. On a life long healing journey to fulfill generational cycles and leave humanity in a better state than I found it. Deeply spiritual in my philosophy, I take influence from everyone I've ever loved.

Multiply disabled and enduring unmet support needs. Please have patience

[space-cramps]

i feel like i have my chest full of feelings and i don’t know where to put them

[microcosmiclymbic]

Just found out I can't afford the therapist I really like because no one at that office communicated a cost and I just..... am so very tired. $80 a week is just too much for my partner to cover. Not with him already taking care of all the bills

I hate that my only options for mental health care are interns. Intern therapists have done SO much damage to me. The last one I had (at this office!!!) wouldn't wear headphones and her son could hear our sessions. Once she got pissed at me because I told her about things I was experiencing that I'd be hiding and she's yelled "how am I supposed to help you if you don't tell me everything." And like dude.....why the fuck are you taking it personal that I had to learn to trust you?!?!

It's like sorry I'm too fucked up to work? Why does that mean I don't deserve the care I need to get better???? I'm so so fucking tired. I just want to be able to work like normal people and not be so fucking dependent on everyone around me. Is that really too much to ask for? To be a productive member of society and my community?!?!? FUCK

I'm so scared about what's going to happen to me without therapy. Fuck fuck fuck

[accidentalcupidd]

I'm so tired of bot accounts asking for art commission info. As someone who hasn't been commissioned in literal months, its like having salt poured into my eyes. :)

My son perfectly captures the mood :)

[johnzillaaaa]

It drives me fucking insane when people mispronounce the spanish valle as "valley" instead of "va-ye"

Just needed to get that off my chest so I don't scream it somewhere else, lol

[microcosmiclymbic]

Ugh I am so tired of spiraling out over and over again. I miss being grounded in myself. I miss so much...

[microcosmiclymbic]

And like meanwhile everyone is buying new outfits for this festival and I can't even afford to live. Socializing is so fucking hard

[microcosmiclymbic]

Gods I want to cry. Life should be so much more than this