#midnightramblings

[sadbagofbones]

I know we can’t all be their ‘happily ever afters’, but I’d consider it a privilege still, to be someone’s ‘once upon a time’.

[unofficially-nasa]

It’s finally time I come clean with you guys. I’ve been running this blog for roughly two years now and I’ve enjoyed every moment interacting with you all. I’ve made some amazing friends on this website. But I’ve been harboring a dark secret from you all.

I mostly try and keep my personal life off my blog other than the occasional midnight ramble. But I’m finally ready to tell you all the truth.

Some of you have probably wondered who I am or what I look like. I’ve dropped hints of things here and there, but I value my privacy. But I cannot keep this charade up. We’ve built a shitty little family here based on nothing more than memes, but I love it so much. You’re all so precious to me. 

So to try and be more open to you all, I am posting my first ever selfie on this website. I’m not ashamed of who I am, this is me.

I hope that you all will support me in these dark times. I appreciate every single one of you.

So without further ado, my very first face reveal

[augustewilde-blog]

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[thescientificbusinessman-blog]

Vision

I was obsessed for months with memories of you

Every corner stood your shadow

Laughing, loving, reaching out to me

I reached back out and called your name though

you disappeared as my vision straightened

My posture slouched because I was mistaken

I was suddenly determined,

How could I be?

I would make myself better

Then maybe you would see

The visions I had of us that had long been torn

By my own hands, despite being sworn

Never would I see you again

But you were my future and suddenly then

With effort and grit I broke myself down

Learning new ways to propel myself forward

Fitness, and language, and a new career

Maybe you’ll notice what I’m trying here

I prayed to a God that I don’t believe in 

I was even comfortable without a matter of when

You were my total vision, I saw you when I slept

I would wake up determined, ready to sweat

Because my future was in front of me and I’d tell myself daily

One day you and I will be together forever, Hailey.

Then reality came through and although you heard me

my vision of us you could no longer see

I felt blinded and crashing went my bravado

I never thought I could recover from such a low

Knives pierced my skin and although blood was spilled

I could only think that my life had been killed

I went broke the next month and lost my momentum

It was now I realized that you could not fix them

The vision is my design 

With it I control time

My future is mine 

It’s only a matter of opening fresh eyes.

[sadbagofbones]

I want someone to hold my hand, but I’m scared of of showing them the scars on my wrist.

I want someone to hold my heart, but I’m scared of wounding them with it’s broken pieces.

I want someone to love me, but I’m scared of loving them back.

I’m just scared.

[sadbagofbones]

You know what the worst thing about being an overthinker is? When we find someone we love, the first two thoughts in our head are that they’ll leave, and their reason for it.

Hence, we’re so accustomed of the two, that when the person actually leaves, only their absence hurts. Not their reason behind it.

Because we spent all that time together convincing ourselves that the reason behind it would be all our fault, so it doesn’t come as a surprise, and hence, is somehow easier to deal with.

But their absence, despite all the warnings of an overly functional brain, hurts. Because it’s a loss we feel only after it’s done.

Nothing prepares for you for the loss, only for the why.

[sadbagofbones]

Maybe it’s about living forever in a moment, and having that moment stay with you forever.

[sadbagofbones]

I live my life within the pages but all people do is glance at the cover.

I breathe in between the words but not all people can read.

I confess my sins in the annotations but everyone just skips to the last line.