🍏Kazui Mukuhara x Transmale!Reader🏳️⚧️
For all the Kazui lovers and simp are all gay for Kazui because we all hated the bartender best friend who rejected Kazui after Camouflage MV also it is pride month. The reader are in his 20’s whether you’re passing or non passing transgender man.
Warning:Transphobia and homophobia will be mentioned,transgender guilt,death mentioned
You were in the prison about what 10?24? You don’t know how long you been here,you came here since 2015,you committed a crime by killing your old self and being transgender since you killed your parents ‘daughter’,you lied to everyone that your old self is dead,you can’t remember how you died.
You felt transgender guilt thinking about what would she think of you right now…how would your younger self react that you didn’t become the person she grew up.
Everyone keep saying that you’re not a real man as you are stuck with a bunch of murderers and misunderstood prisoners,you eat lunch alone wanted to distance from the murderer you shouldn’t trust,you feel like you shouldn’t be forgiven for killing your old self as you feel someone sat down next to you. Amane was too much since she try spreading the cult rules,you are against her cult rules,Fuuta always misgendered you which pisses you off even more making you hate him
You turn your head as you glance at Kazui who sat next to you as he smoked the cigs next you you as you feel insecure and awkward around people since people keep avoiding you.You heard that he killed his wife when she fell down from the building,you don’t know if it was true or not.
“…Shouldn’t you be sitting down next to Shidou and Mikoto,Kazui?They are better than me,you shouldn’t sit next to a ‘weirdo’ like me.” You’re brows furrowed at the older man,he didn’t look at you mockingly or judging like the other prisoner he gave you a smile,not a smirk a sincere smile.
“I know but you look lonely sitting alone with nobody…that’s make me a little sad.” Kazui admitted that he wanted to sit next to you so you don’t feel lonely as you turn your head away trying to act tough.
“Shut up I don’t know what you’re talking about old man,you’re just bluffing!”
“I’m not bluffing,I’m telling the truth you don’t have to be dense around me {reader}.”
"....Okay but that's doesn't mean I'm trusting you more."You took another bite from your food as Kazui smokes.
After few days you begin to warm up to Kazui after lunch with him,you feel comfortable and relaxed when you hang out with him through the hallway.
You slowly realise that you have feelings for him when hang out with him more often.
You clenched your sleeves of your strait jacket and pulling your belt,Kazui came across the hallway as he saw you sitting alone,that damn Jackalope making you suffer and confess to Es that you’re a transgender man who used to be a woman born in a wrong body. You feel like that you are unforgiven by the society who won’t accept you as a real man.
“Are you alright {reader}?” You looked up as you see Kazui disheveled appearance looking sad and tired as you looked down not giving a look at him leaning against the wall as a comfort,Kazui silently
“It’s my fault…It’s my fault for killing her…but my body feels so wrong I’m born in the wrong body I wish I was a real man but…I wish I could’ve been a perfect daughter for my parents expectations…” You mumbling negative comments about yourself when suddenly he snaps.
“Stop hating yourself {reader}!It’s not your fault you don’t have to carry the burden so please don’t hate yourself!It will make you bad for yourself so please stop hurting yourself!Its not your fault…” Kazui grabbed your face to stop talking back about yourself as you whimpered in surprise at his sudden contact with him.
“I KILLED MY BULLY KAZUI! I murdered them with a pencils…I’m so sorry,I should’ve killed my parents and I killed her too…”
Kazui heavily breathed out as he inhaled to calm down his temper he sat down next to you in silence,you both began to be silent with eachother calming the mixed emotions bubbling up inside of you,you gain feelings for him before the trials happened.
Kazui suddenly breaks the silence ready to confess to you.
“I have to confess something to you {reader} that I keep hiding myself and in denial…I’m gay.” You jolt in astonishment at his confession that he’s gay.
“I know it make you uncomfortable…I like you {reader}…it doesn’t change how I feel about you.”You are in denial that transgender men can’t get together with a gay man making you feel worried.
“Kazui…I’m not even born a man how can you love a killer who killed the 'daughter' like me if you like men?Gay men only love cis men not transgender men,I’m not a real-“
“I know but that’s doesn’t mean that it will change how I feel about you,you’re a real man to me {reader},I love you so much…it hurts so much that I have to hide it from you.”
Kazui move your hair strand away from your eyes,Kazui embrace you into his arms your tense shoulders begins to slouch down relaxed your muscles.
Kazui began to kiss you passionately as it was your first time kissing someone as you feel butterflies in your stomach gaining feelings for the man who loves you the way you are as you lean close to kiss him.
"I love you too Kazui...you made me feel like a real man."
