today on June 8th it's my 17th birthday!
and I want to celebrate it by thanking everyone for what they have done for me, before we get into it there will be mention of ED and suicide so don't read if you are sensitive pretty please! but with that said
I created this blog as an escape when I was in middle school, I wasn't accepted and I felt out of place because I was into stuff others weren't in my class, which led to a lot. and me attempting suicide by starving myself, I forever regret it because that left me with a scar that being ED, and I always felt it was my fault, it wasn't until I created the blog that I realized it really wasn't, and I forever glad I found myself and stuff that bring me joy, I became more open about my interests and understood there are people who don't like me, but there's also people that do like me! and that means the absolute world to me, when I started writing I saw my escape people liked what I made! and I felt so much joy! so I kept writing, of course I had my downfall which left a big scar too, but I also found people that healed it. I felt unloved by people but I found my dear friends <3 even if some turned out to be bad people there were people who weren't bad! and I want to thank them all !!
Aishe! you were the one who inspired me to start making layouts! and actually open in general with creativity! I love talking to you and you truly are like a little sister to me! something that you taught me and forever will stay in my health is that people change! I saw your style change from when I saw your twitter layouts to now! that and you made me feel it's worth it to try talking to other people! if I was still scared of interacting with you we wouldn't be so close! and I'm forever glad I did! you are so supportive and that's something I needed from the outside world! you started my healing journey and I'm happy I completed it with you!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EXISTING AND PLEASE BE HAPPY FOR ME !! You mean so much to me and I could never actually express it fully, my gratitude towards you is never ending, and I want to use my birthday wish for your happiness !! so you better be happy so it won't go to wait !! Also love ya spamming that Minecraft thing! Your likeness towards eggchan is admirable!! I should get into it for ya
LOU! YAYAYA! Honestly I first heard from you from Aishe before ya were dating, AND YOU SEEMED SO COOL AND SEEING YOU BRING AISHE JOY BROUGHT IT TO ME TOO! YOU ALSO HELPED ME A LOT WITH THE CARE YOU SHOWED BACK THEN IN THE GC SAYING I CAN VENT! I never did I think but it still made me very happy that people cared! I loved listening to the Kazui yapping! and genuinely you brought me comfort! and I hope for nothing but you happiness! and you taught me to be more open in general! seeing your joy in characters made me so happy! and made me feel like I could do the same!! SO THANK YOUU!!!
AVEEEE!!! OKAY BE PREPARED YAPFEST, You are one of the very few adult figures in my life that bring me joy! I love seeing your yume edits on tik tok and hear about your partners! I'm happy you found the ones for you!! you were the person who made me want to learn about soulbonding because tbh I didn't understand it... I DO NOW!! You truly are an important figure to me! I love hearing your yap! it's like so comforting! might be your voice but idk! BUT YOU ARE SO AMAZING!! and also taught me quite a lot! for example that I don't have to worry about growing out of the stuff that interests me! I've always worried that the characters I yume or are a fictionkin of will grow out of me because I will be an adult... but you taught me that's not always the case !! AND IT MAKES ME SO GLAD YAYAYA!! you inspire me not to give up on stuff I love because I'm getting older! and also taught me to actually accept my boundaries even if they are odd to others!! TY TY TY!!!
BIV!! the 2nd adult I trust wow. ANYWAY I REMEMBER THINKING YOU WERE SO COOL YOU WERE THE FIRST FAMILIAR YUME I SAW AND KNEW ABOUT!! AND YOU ARE THE ONE WHO TAUGHT ME THE TERM VEROIKO AND MADE ME REALIZED THAT JUST MIGHT BE ME WITH SOME CHARACTERS!! I LOVE SEEING YOU USE MY LAYOUTS YOU ARE LIKE MY NO.1 SUPPORTER OF THOSE AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!! I LOVE READING YOU YAP!! LIKE I MAY NOT LIKE THE POST OR COMMENT BUT I'M READING EVERYTHING WHEN I'M ONLINE!!! I LOVE SEEING YOU ABSOLUTELY LOVING YOUR KIDS!! YOU ARE THE BEST IN-LAW EVER!! and actually you inspired me to get back to writing! what you taught me is that I should be open about my love for characters! and that there's someone out there that cares! TY SMMMM!!!
Soni! the angel of the angels! I remember seeing you on twitter and finding you so cool, but you were selective and I didn't know what to do ⁄(⁄ ⁄•⁄-⁄•⁄ ⁄)⁄ BUT HERE WE ARE FRIENDS!! you truly are very special to me! I remember being shocked that you were polish on my Kikou post and I like ran to my mom to tell her you are polish! like damn my mom heard so much about you but who cares!! I LOVE TALKING TO YA WHEN YOU MAKE AN APPEARANCE YOUR SIGN TO BE MORE ON DISCORD SO WE CAN CHAT!! or like on literally any texting app... I want to chat with you so badly... WHAT YOU TAUGHT ME IS THAT THERE'S ALWAYS SOMEONE OUT THERE BY MY SIDE!! AND THAT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME!!
okay I had a yapfest about everyone... now TO YOU THE DEAR READERS!! If you are reading this you probably follow me or are into the stuff I am! and that means the world to me! I'm glad none of you unfollowed after I disappeared... well some of you might be ia but still... AND I WANT TO THANK YOU ARE FOR BEING HERE WITH ME!!
and happy 17th birthday to me!!