#miniminchin

[alfajones]

miniminchin: Manip it into a straight jacket, Sini, manippp itttt xD

Tis not a very manip-friendly pic I have to say...

[finalityinfate]

ooc: an update

(cross-posted from my deviantart)

So I should probably elaborate more on my previous journal. Last week, and the beginning of this week, I got particularly low. Worse than I've ever been. I can't disclose much info on DA, but things got really fucking bad. I can say I'll be okay, though. Due to a number of things. ~ScarabDynasty1 - thank you. You're absolutely right, of course, and your comment was the first step to me coming around. xx *DestinyBlue - I fucking love you. Your art is more than just an inspiration now. It's an eye-opener. When I said that  - Abandoned - really hit home, I wasn't kidding. I know you'll probably never see this message, but I look forward to telling you this when I see you next MCM (although, knowing me, it'll probably end up my usual mess of verbal keyboard smashing: "AHSDFOIOIJSJKDGHSHFASIOGHSihasdgkjhaoieghsjdfdejdevgaaegegdgsdomg"). Looking forward to seeing more of Sophie and Paige and all your other gorgeous characters... And you, of course! xxx ~Light-eco-angel (miniminchin) - Kim. KIIIIIIIIIIIM. Kim Kim Kim your poems your words your face your everything. Kim. Love you, Rainbow-sis. Thank you. xxx

colinsodonoghue - Again, thank you. I'll be reposting this on Tumblr so you can see this message, but I have to thank you here on DA as well. It always gives me a bit of a warm glow inside when someone who is essentially a stranger (I follow you, but we've never really spoken) taking time out of their own hands to make sure I'm okay. Your kind messages helped me a lot x sanguinarusblaze - Now this is an awkward one, considering if you see this message, you'll most likely comment on it when we see each other after college every day... But oh dear. Cassie, Cassie, Cassie.... I've never heard you so scared... And I guess, that's what brought me around somewhat. If you hadn't been there on Monday, I don't know... I don't know what I might've done. I'm so sorry you had to see me like that; so sorry I scared you like that. But thank you for being there when you were. You saved my life, mate, and if you'd been paying attention to the way I look at Tim... You'll know I don't take such an action lightly. xxx Which brings me to Tim. Tim, Tim, Tim... Timmykins. Tim of the Minchins. I... Don't even know what to say anymore. When I discovered you in December last year... I never thought you'd become the leading role in my life. How many times have you saved me now; and in how many ways? You restored my faith and ambition back then, and you did it again now - except this time, I think you really, truly saved my life.  I was all but ready to give up and step in front of a car, but you... You were always there, weren't you? I started listening to you more during my downs... And then on Monday, you pushed me back up completely. Well, maybe not completely, but good enough to live.  JCS came through the post on Monday, you see. I watched it, and when it was over, I kind of stopped... And then I cried. Happy tears.  I watched you and I watched how humble and awkward you were after it all, and I watched how amazing you were through it all, and I remembered. I remembered what you'd been through and, although I may not know anything about your childhood, I know what you went through to get to where you are today. I remembered that you're just a normal guy, really; as insecure and nervous as the rest of us. I remembered what an inspiration you are, and how proud I am of you, and then... I remembered why I do what I do. I procrastinate, I worry, I panick, I give up from time to time. But none of that matters. Because there was a time when YOU didn't think you'd make it. When you had no idea you'd ever be where you are today. I remembered how many times your songs had hit home, and how many times you'd slapped me back into reality, and then I realised... No. No more. I'm not ready to give up yet. I'm not ready to back down on everything I've lived for. Fuck reality. Reality blows. Reality is relative. Fuck it. I am who I am and I am what I do. And there's no reason I should change that. So even if my mood still isn't all that high, or I still know just how high and implausible my expectations may be; I am not ready to back down. So what if I'm 'pathetic' or childish? If that's me, then that's who I'll be.  That diary I write to you? (And I will openly admit to writing a diary to Tim Minchin now) I picked it up again. After five or six months of neglecting it for many reasons, I've picked it up again. If anything, it's a nice place to release my thoughts. So to all the above listed, and to Cassie and Kim and Tim: x Thank you x

[soapyblowholes-blog]

Post the rules

Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then make 11 new ones.

Tag 11 people and link them to your post.

Let them know you’ve tagged them

The eleven questions I’m answering:

1. Find your nearest book, type page 34, line 2.

2. What was the last thing you brought?

3. Favorite song/artist at the moment?

4. Favorite place you’ve traveled to?

5. What would be the first thing you’d do if you won the lottery?

6. Favorite animal?

7. Name one of your phobias.

8. Pizza or pasta?

...Neither? But um... Pizza, I guess.

9. Name something that irritates you.

NOISY. mOTHERFUCKING. EATING.

10. Favorite film?

11. Do you think the world going to end in December?

OF COURSE!

My 11 Questions

1. Do you like waffles?

2. Do you like pancakes?

3. Do you like French Toast Eggy Bread?

4. HOW OLD IS YOUR FACE?

5. HOW OLD IS YOUR MUM'S FACE?

6. Do you like trains?

7. Do you know what's worth fighting for when it's not worth dying for?

8. Do you know the enemy?

9. Little Girl, Little Girl, why are you crying?

10. Are you standing close to the edge?

11. Are we the waiting?

[soapyblowholes-blog]

I didn't know what else to do. So I wrote this. Crappy first draft - I forget a few words and there's a horrible noise from my phone vibrating a few times, but, uh... Yeah. -- Dry your eyes Leave all your fears behind There's no need to be afraid. You and I Will make it through the night With every little spark that we have made. You're the rainbow in the shelter of the clouds The cold and dark won't hold you down And the brightest of the colours in the sky Created by the rain. And even if there's noone else around To help you bring your colours out I'll be there For you. I'll be the beam of light that comes to you The tiny ray of sunshine breaking through For you. See the sun See how it shines for you No matter how the clouds will hold it back We are young We're so foolish and broken But there's always cracks of light amongst the rain. Every spark Every shine of morning dew You'll see it all, and see it's all for you There is hope All through the darkest of our times Cuz nothing lasts forever - don't you think they meant the bad stuff too? You're the rainbow in the shelter of the clouds The cold and dark won't hold you down And the brightest of the colours in the sky Created by the rain. And even if there's noone else around To help you bring your colours out I'll be there For you. I'll be the beam of light that comes to you The tiny ray of sunshine breaking through For you. And if you feel you cannot find your way You know that I'll be there for you. And even if your world is falling down There's always room in mine for you too... You're the rainbow in the shelter of the clouds The cold and dark won't hold you down And the brightest of the colours in the sky Created by the rain. And even if there's noone else around To help you bring your colours out I'll be there For you. I'll be the beam of light that comes to you The tiny ray of sunshine breaking through For you. And if you lend me your strength I'll lend you mine As long as you stay with me I'll be fine. Cuz just as the sun makes the rainbow The rainbow makes you smile Even in the hardest of times So if you lend me your colours I'll give you my light.

[soapyblowholes-blog]

im so scared

im so horribly terribly scared

please please tell me youre okay...

[alfajones]

Tim with rainbow hair.

[soapyblowholes-blog]

Poem I just pulled out of nowhere.

The angels cannot see their wings, Nor use them to take flight, They have no halo shining gold, They have no holy light. Sometimes children see the angels, Look into their heart, These children, too, are angels, But they know not what they are. Sometimes people notice changes, In the angels' hearts, They start to see the angels' wings, And watch them from afar. While others notice straight away, And reach out for the wings, They show the angels who they are, And from the darkness sing. The angels cannot see their wings, And have yet to take flight, But perhaps, my friend, with some help, One day the angels might.

[soapyblowholes-blog]

I'm sorry, Kim...

I'm sorry I'm such a useless friend. I'm sorry I can never be there for you when you need it the most. I'm sorry you live in such a horrible world with such horrible people and I'm sorry I'm one of them. I'm sorry I complain about my life when you're the one who needs the support. I'm sorry I might get into college. I'm sorry I have an amazing mother. I'm sorry I never get Anon hate and I'm sorry you do, even if you know who it is. I don't deserve to breathe. I don't deserve to exist. You do. Just please... I...