#mixedramblings

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Perhaps... Humans are destined to find unhappiness. In a world that always leave them wanting more. Because the grass is always greener... Right?

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Find yourself someone Who understands Nothing is forever Hard times will end Good times cannot stay forever People evolve Who you are today May not be Who you are next week Next year Or four years from now And that is okay Find yourself someone Who understands  Nothing is forever Who wants to grow with you And challenge you Find yourself someone Who understands Nothing is forever

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Do you ever wonder

Why we exist

What is the end goal

Of the human race

Do any of us even matter?

What if there's something larger out there

Looking down at us

Like little ants in an antfarm

Our time on this earth seems so long

But it's really just a blink in time.

So why am I even here?

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I don't understand how the heart works. All these years later and there's still a tiny piece of my heart reserved for you. Even though I know I would never be happy with you. You're too self consumed, all about you. I was never a priority just occasionally a choice. And through all of it I'll never understand why this little piece of my heart is still reserved for you. I know there's nobody out there that even compares to the man I have now. He's amazing and wonderful and supportive and communicative. We make such a solid team, I have his back and he’s got mine. So why do I still occasionally think about you?

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I will always hold a place for you.

Even if deep down I don't want to.

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You can leave your past behind,

But it doesn't always leave you behind too.

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I envy those who believe in a god, for you see purpose in life.

I envy those who believe in a god, for you find forgiveness in someone other than yourself.

I envy those who believe in a god, for you see an end beyond this life.

I envy those who believe in a god, for you have better days promised ahead.

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What I would give to feel all the feels again

To feel every ache

And every fatal mistake

Deep in my core

Down to my bones

To feel so elated that I'm flying

High above the earth

Flying among the birds in the sky

What I would give to feel all the feels again

To see the world

In vibrant colors

Instead of black and white

And hues of grey

What I would give to feel all the feels again