#teenthoughts

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THE NEW NORMAL

“Oh it’ll be over in no time”, or so we were told Now its been 10 months and all the properties were sold. Thousands researching to stop the virus strain, And the covid death toll dripping with disdain. From unemployment to gripping ventilators, this pandemic is well rounded If nothing else it has taught us to stay grounded. We can only hope and pray That this dreadful new normal goes away.

[lostnerdpanda]

Uncertainties

Choosing what road to take is like being with you. Full of doubts, boundaries, and whatnots. Ours has a line that is not meant to be crossed. Even the strongest emotion will not rebut the unstated rules. When it comes to you, being uncertain is a usual thing. Uncertainties always filled my heart provided with the mystifying gestures we both had for each other. At one time, I can manage to condition myself that there is nothing with your acts then there is my hopeless heart. Telling me that there is something. Something needed to be interpreted. Something magical. Something to hope for. But then again, there is the line. The line that is not meant to be crossed. My hope will be killed by that line. My heart will be shattered into pieces because of that line. Then I will come to my senses. You and I do not have anything to hope for. Ours is just a fallacy created by the false hopes I assumed. Ours is just a fairytale. Ours will never be possible. Ours is just a dream I will never have.

[hopelessteendiary]

"It was a hell of a time in a world that didn't feel like ours anymore"

-My diary, August 16th, 2020

[hopelessteendiary]

Maybe then, after all this, I'll cry and I'll cry with so much joy that my mascara will run and my legs will collapse beneath me and tears will blotch my gown and everyone will realize that I'm here. But I won't care. I won't care anymore. I shouldn't have cared all this time.

My diary, February 10th, 2021 - 12th grade 

[hopelessteendiary]

"The words "I love you" sit so uncomfortably in my throat. They almost mean nothing to me".

My diary, September 16th 2017 -9th grade

[hopelessteendiary]

"I'll drown out her voice, I'll laugh and fidget and not take her seriously. I'll get angry, way too angry for my own good. She'll put her hands to her face to shield her disappointment in me, and I'll think to myself how much of a fucking nuisance I am."

My diary, May 10th, 2017 -8th grade 

[shinyenthusiastlady-blog1]

Life isn’t perfect. it can be pretty unfair. you may give your all to something - a relationship, a job, a hobby but what you get in return may not be at par with your expectations.

[heyemjey]

What happened after two years of being an adult?

I can definitely say that, I was overwhelmed with the transitions and adjustments I had and at the same time pressured. I must admit, that the best years in College was gone and everyone must accept that everything will be over-- either good or bad.

"Nothing's permanent in this world except change."

I felt sad because I have somme of the people whom I've known for years and it seems that after we enter the adulthood, everything has changed. I thought we could be the same person, but, it's not your season. I am slowly learning to accept the reality.

I am happy at the same time. I was able to experience learning while working. There were many times that I really wanted go give up, but still, Im here trying to fight against all odds, meeting deadlines, doing the best that I can. After two years, I learned to understand others as well as myself mostly when I felt so bad after I disappoint someone.

After two years, I met someone whom I can love and feel the same love too. He does take care of me and he make me happy when I'm sad. And yes, since it's my first time to trust someone, I admit it's hard to live in reality because your expectations are not the same as reality. Well I guess that's just the way to learn to fight battles.

I also experienced meeting new and old people. Midnight memories indeed. Im so happy that I was able to keep some of my friends before and trying to open up with other person after college. Made fight with someone, freak out, hated but most especially,I learned to forgive those people who consistently hurt me.

Right now I feel like Im still working on my masterpiece. It feels like progress are not fast and neither so slow. I also enjoyed the company of my parents and that is what I really love. Despite of having detachments, I'm still blessed. I am beloved. My faith was once stopped but right now, I'm trying to correct the wrong choices I had so that I can live happily.

I must say that, to those who are experiencing this kind of adjustments, it's okay not to be okay sometimes.

WHY? Because your faith and resiliency will be tested during those times that you are doubtful.

You will know who will be there for you in Happiness and in sadness.

You will be able to discover yourself and your plans more.

Let's wait for our perfect moment. Because everything has a good timing. 😊

I just hope and prayed that you also find yourself in darkness and in doubt. We can do this!