Dec 30, 2021
Watched this video about how to trap some monkeys. What they did was give the monkeys a banana they cannot pull out of a coconut, they could get out of the trap easily if they let go of the banana, but they won't. Cause they want the banana.
If that ain't a metaphor for my mental health I don't know what is.
Except for the fact some arsehole put string with superglue on the banana. Even if I let the banana go and walk away, I keep turning around and theres this freaking banana on a string following me. Now imagine I can't resist these banana traps and there's 100's of bananas on strings haunting me...
tldr: I've spent years clinging on to things I need to get go, only to finally let go and have the shit haunting me instead.
